Chapter 39 Chapter Thirty-Nine
I sniffle against his chest, hugging him tightly. I guess he is right, the pack members do love me. They might not be too sure about having a female alpha, but they do love me and they love my father, so I guess it will be okay. If anything, I don’t have to tell anyone about my special gifts whatever they might be.
Mom said to tell someone I trust, Malakai already knows. I trust Malakai more than anyone else in the world, even more than my best friend. Oh God. Should I tell Lucas? He already knows about me and Malakai, so I guess technically he already knows something is wrong with me. He just doesn’t know the extent of my abilities.
I don’t even know the extent of my abilities or gifts as my mom called them. Maybe I should wait until I know exactly what I can do and how to control it before I tell Lucas. I know he will have a million and one questions about me. Questions I have no way of answering.
What about my dad? Should I tell my dad? He already has so much going on. I don’t want to stress him out even more by telling him there is something wrong with his daughter. Oh, and his wife, his mate, the love of his life kept a huge secret from them the whole entire time they were together.
Malakai, rubs the back of my head soothingly, letting me cry out all my stress and feelings. He just holds me, until I have cried every last tear. I sniffle again pulling away from his chest. My eyes feeling swollen. “Are you okay baby?” Malakai asks looking into my eyes, cupping both of my cheeks with his hands.
I nod my head, taking a deep breath. “Yeah, I think I’m okay now.” My voice cracks a little, and Malakai gives me a soft smile.
“Everything is going to be okay baby. I promise you okay. We will take this one step at a time, day by day. I will do a little research tonight okay baby and see what I can find out about special wolfs in the archives of the pack history. There has to be some records about stuff like this. If I can find any information it will help us learn how to control your gifts baby.” Malakai says in his soothing voice.
I nod my head again. “Thank you, Malakai. Thank you for not rejecting me when you found out something was wrong with me.”
Malakai laughs, shaking his head. “Baby there is nothing wrong with you and nothing, absolutely nothing you ever do or say will make me reject you. I love you Leilani, that will never change.”
I smile, leaning up on my tip toes to kiss him. “I love you too Malakai, I am glad you are my mate. I don’t know what I would do without you.”
Malakai smiles. “I don’t know what I would do without you either baby.”
“Can we do some more training today?” I ask. I don’t want to hurt him again, but I do need to figure out how I am triggering my super healing or whatever we are going to call it.
Malakai smiles. “Of course, baby, we can train as long as you want to baby. We need to train every day until you are comfortable with combat and your gifts baby.”
I laugh. “I don’t even know what my gifts are. All I know is apparently when I get pissed off my eyes change to a scary red color and I can no longer feel pain. Oh, and I heal super quickly.”
Malakai chuckles shaking his head. “I never said your eyes were a scary red, I said they turned red.”
“Same thing.” I say, my eyes going wide.
Malakai rolls his eyes, laughing. “That is not the same thing, come on baby. Let’s go do some more training.”
I laugh too. “Okay.”
Malakai turns to walk out of my dad’s office but before he can leave I grab his arm, making him stop. “Wait.”
He turns and gives me a concerned look. “What is it baby?”
I look down at the floor, not even sure how to say this without offending him. Malakai puts his finger under my chin and lifts my face until I am looking at him. “What’s wrong baby?” He asks, searching my face.
“If my eyes turn red or whatever and I start hurting you, I need you to stop me. I don’t want to hurt you Malakai. I mean I know you will heal, but I don’t want to see you in pain. I didn’t mean to hurt you earlier.”
Malakai laughs. “It’s okay baby, really, I am fine. I know you didn’t mean to hurt me. If anything, I am glad you did, it just means I know you will be able to protect yourself if you ever need to. Don’t worry baby. I am okay and I will be okay.”
“Just promise you won’t let me hurt you, okay? Please Malakai.” I beg looking into his eyes.
Malakai smiles at me. “I promise baby.” He kisses me once, just a quick kiss, but I can feel all of his love and affection through it.
Malakai grabs my hand and pulls me out of my dad’s office towards the backyard again. This time Malakai doesn’t bother with trying to get me to stretch or trying to piss me off. This time we go straight into technique and different kinds of punches.
I take my training a little more seriously this time, trying to see if I can feel a shift in my emotions or in my body that would tell me I’m about to go all super wolf. So far, no luck. I did manage to break Malakai’s elbow in another one of my angry fits. I just wish I knew how to stop myself or even make myself turn or whatever.
I feel like I have two different people living inside of me. One very angry woman and one mostly nice, kind of emotional woman that loves Malakai more than anything in the world. The angry woman doesn’t seem to care about anyone, because every time that bitch comes out to play, I end up hurting Malakai. Which is the last thing I ever want to do.