Chapter Forty-Eight: Loneliness is a Lonely Feeling-1

Chapter Forty-Eight: Loneliness is a Lonely Feeling “I didn’t lie to you.” “Really?” Gavin questioned, he looked really hurt. “So, when I was telling you everything about my parents. It never crossed your mind that I was spilling out all my secrets to you, but you didn’t even bother trusting me?” “Okay, so I didn’t trust you. But, I didn’t lie to you.” “Ali!” Gavin yelled, his hands gripping the cell bars tightly. “Oh, wait that isn’t even your real name?” Gavin laughed, but it sounded forced. “Was Tommy even really your brother?” I looked down at my hands. “He is my brother, but his real name is Thomas.” “You’re pathetic.” Gavin spat at me, his eyes raged. “Gavin…” I called out, walking over to him. He shook his head, looking at the ceiling. “I can’t believe I did this for a bet.” I gulped, stopping in my tracks. “A what?” “A bet, Ali! It was a bet to get with you in my bed before the end of the year and I lost. And I have never been so happy in my damn life that I lost a bet because all you are is a desperate pathetic loser, who doesn’t give a fucking damn about anyone else but herself.” Gavin yelled, out. His eyes looking at nothing but my teary ones, “At first I did this whole thing. Getting to know you, because I wanted to win. But, then I began to really know you. I fell for you harder than I have ever fell for someone in my entire life. But, little did I know while I was falling for you, all you were doing was playing with my already broken heart.” I choked out a sob. “I might have lied to you. But, at least I didn’t try to get to know someone to fuck them.” “Alice.” My dad called out, in a warning tone. He looked at me with sad eyes, “I think it is best if we just go. Leave this deranged boy to himself.” He said, looking at Gavin in disgust. I turned around, shaking my head. “I have to do this dad or else I might not ever have the chance.” I turned back to Gavin taking a few steps towards him. “Even before I came to this school. I heard things about you, bad things. People told me to stay away from you, not to engage with you. But, I was so stupid I didn’t listen. I saw the good in you while others saw the bad.” I shook my head, “I saw so many good and remarkable things in you, which hardly anyone ever gets to see. Believe it or not, it touched me. How you could practically raise Garrett on your own, showing him all the good still left in the world and shielding him from the bad. I fell for that Gavin, not the one standing here and accusing me, not even bothering to let me explain.” He raised his eyebrows at me, “Explain? Explain what, Alice?” He said, spitting out my name like it was poison in his mouth. “Explain myself, explain why I did this all.” I pleaded. He shook his head, taking steps away from the cell. “Well, there is a difference now because I don’t want to hear it.” I took a few steps towards his cell, but my father’s arm pulled me back. “It’s time to go, Alice.” He said, in a strict tone. I looked back at Gavin one last time, letting out a forced laugh as I finally realized something. “Weren’t you the one, who told me that you weren’t going to pressure me into telling you my big secret? Well, you didn’t. So why are you pressuring me now?” Gavin looked kind of shocked for words. “Do you really think I meant that? Of course I didn’t, I wanted you to tell me but I also wanted to fuck you. So whatever, it doesn’t really matter anymore.” I looked away from him, knowing if I made eye contact with him a new batch of tears would start spilling out. “You’re a hypocrite.” “So, I’ve been told.” He said, a disgusted look on his face. “Bye Gavin, if I ever see you again. It would be too soon.” “Feelings mutual, Alice.” My heart began to feel heavy and my chest, congested. I felt my father’s arm on mine as he pulled me around as he silently walked me out of the room. As soon as I left the room, they were three guards outside waiting for my father and I. Turning my head to the left to see a guard standing next to me, as soon as my eyes fell upon him. I could feel my already broken heart breaking to even smaller pieces. My father was standing in front of me talking to the two unfamiliar guards, as I stared at Ricky in disgust. He reached out to me, but I flinched. “Don’t touch me.” “Alice.” He whispered, softly. “Don’t you Alice, me! You honestly couldn’t have done that? For me?” “I couldn’t lie to your father.” “But, lying to his daughter and breaking a promise is okay?” I spat at him. He looked a loss for words. He just turned away, hopefully he was feeling as shitty as I was right now. “Alice, they are paparazzi outside. The three guards are going to surround you and I as we walk to the car where your mother is patiently waiting. You are to keep your head down at all times and not say anything to the paparazzi even if they say anything to you. Do I make myself clear?” I nodded my head, knowing as soon as I get into that car. I was going to be killed by my very own mother. “Wipe those tears of your face.” My dad ordered, “You are already going to be a headline. You crying is probably just going to make it worse.” He said, fixing his tie. I ignored the stabbing feeling in my chest as I tried to focus on the task ahead of me. Almost immediately, when my father had opened the doors of the jail I was blinded by the flashes of the camera lights as the paparazzi yelled out to my father and I. “Mr. President, what do you have to say about your daughter getting arrested?” “Do you think this is going to take a toll on your reputation as President?” “Alice, care to make any statements to why you have gotten arrested?” “Where you driving under the influence of drugs?” Another paparazzi yelled out. I leaned against Ricky as we tried to make our way through the crowd of people my dad was following closely behind Ricky and I, with two other guards behind my father. When we had finally reached the black SUV, Ricky quickly pulled open the door pushing me inside. My father went towards the passenger seat, getting in. I took in a deep breath, watching the blinding lights as the cameras still flashed the tinted SUV windows. Never in my whole life, have I experience something like that before. Yes, during some vacations where we go they are paparazzi but they are usually held back and not in my face. “Parker said his men was controlling the paps, if by his men he meant Darrell. I am not quite surprised of the outcome.” I muttered, to myself as the car lurched forward. “Alice?” I soft voice, called out to me. I turned my head to notice my mom looking at me with disappointed eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but I cut her off before she even had the chance. “I know. I lied to you, I am sorry.” I said, rubbing my still but not as much pounding head.