Chapter 81 Chapter 81
Jojo
I was still in bed, sleeping on and off, when suddenly I got a whiff of something I think it was coffee and my stomach didn’t like that smell. I was feeling sick immediately. I got up and ran to the bathroom where I vomited again and again. Benji was with me in a second, he must have heard me, he held my hair while I tried to vomit there was nothing in my stomach, I got rid of everything last night all ready. “You think it’s morning sickness?” Benji asked me “Yes” It was the only explanation, fuck Benji is leaving today how am I going to get through this alone. He offered to get me some crackers but all I wanted to do was brush my teeth get in the shower and have a good cry. I told him I’m going to shower first. I knew today is the day we going to get me a car and he will be leaving; I was so emotional and being sick made it even worse. When he eventually let go of me, I got up brushed my teeth and got in the shower. As the water ran over my body I had a good cry, today I’m losing the love of my life and it’s the beginning of a new chapter in my life, the one where I’m alone in this world. Okay maybe not totally alone I still have this nugget in my stomach. But morning sickness, doctor’s appointments, hopefully finishing my law degree all that I have to do alone, there will be no one to cheer me on or even give me a hug to say congratulations.
I pulled myself together and got out of the shower, my hair was in a messy bun and at this stage I think I’m going to leave it like that. I got a nice summer dress out of the closet, maybe if I look pretty, I’ll feel better. I can only hope. The dress was pink and I got my pink sandals out. I decided everything looked good except my hair so I quickly put them in two braiding’s. I put some lipstick on sprayed my favorite perfume some Dolce & Gabbana and walked to Benji who was sitting in the living room looking at his phone. When he looked up, I could see the love it his eyes for me and that made me want to cry again. “You look amazing.” “Thanks then at least I did my job.”
“What do you mean?” He asked taken a back. “I don’t feel like I look, I’m dying inside Benji.” I couldn’t hold it in anymore I grabbed him, which made him hold me, he could feel his shirt getting wet from all the tears and my shoulders moving from crying. He took me in his arms and went to sit on the coach with me on his lap. “Angel don’t cry.” “How can I not, you leaving today, this is our last day together and I feel like crap.” “Fuck angel I wish I could stay longer.” I wished that to but if I tell him that he will make a plan to stay. “You have to go or else they will find out where I am and that can’t happen.” “I know but I feel bad leaving you feeling like this.” “This is going to be my life for the next 8 months Benji you can’t stay for all of them no matter how much I want that.” “I know.” He just held me a little tighter. After a while of just holding me, he cleared his throat and said “Angel we need to go my flight is at 5 pm and we need to get you a car.” I got off his lap, I was really not in the mood to fight with him today. “Okay let’s go.”
Benji
I felt so bad for leaving her but she was right the longer I stay the easier it will be for her parents and even mine to find out where she is. I got her in the SUV and Anton took us to the address I gave him. She was holding on to me the whole time. Fuck why couldn’t things have been different why does she have to suffer for someone wanting to get back at me? Why is society so fucked up to condemn a woman for getting pregnant, or well our people? I was in my head thinking of other ways we can stay together but there was none. The word would have spread wide and far by now and everyone that is anyone will know what happened not the detail all they would know is that Joelle Warren didn’t for fill her end of the contract which means she was not a virgin and that we are not getting married. My mother would have made sure of that.
I heard my name but also not really it was when Jojo squeezed my hand that I finally got back to earth. “What’s wrong?” “Anton was trying to tell you we have reached the dealership.” “Oh, sorry Anton.” She didn’t ask me where I was what I was thinking about or any of that she just got out of the SUV took my hand as we walked through the cars. She stopped at some fucked up Honda “What about this one.” “Oh hell no. You said second hand you didn’t say fucked up.” “It’s cheap.” “I don’t care how much it cost Jojo you going to have a proper second-hand car.” She didn’t argue like I thought she did but it looked like the fight was totally out of her which made me sad. I found the Audi A1 it was white. “Can she test drive this one?” I asked the salesman. “But off course she can.”
“Come angel you going to test drive this one.” “But it’s an Audi” she said like it was wrong. “Yes, it is but it’s a second-hand Audi.” “It’s still a very nice car Benji.” “And who said a second-hand car can’t be nice?” She didn’t say anything she just took the keys and got in the car. I got in the passenger seat. “When last did you drive?” “Not long ago, I did like driving myself around Benji although my parents were against it.” I was afraid she didn’t even have a license I didn’t ask her but if she drove herself around, she was fine. We drove around the block; at one stage Jojo gave more petrol than she should have and I was pushed back in my seat. “Not bad.” Oh God she likes speed. “You need to drive careful Jojo.” “I will.” Was all she said but her face didn’t say the same thing.