Chapter 75 Chapter 75
Jojo
When Benji was gone I laid on the bed and cried and cried I couldn’t stop crying. It’s probable better getting it out now than when he leaves, I mean at least he can hold me for a second when he comes back. When I was done with my crying I got up washed my face and started to unpack my clothing. There wasn’t enough space for everything I pushed into my suitcase so I had to use the other rooms closet as well. I didn’t want to go in that room. I stood in front of the door holding the handle in my hand for a while before I eventually opened it. I walked straight to the cupboards and packed my stuff inside I didn’t think of what this room is for I just packed my cloths and bags away. When I was done, I put my suitcases in that closet as well, closed the cupboard door and walked out without looking back. When I wanted to get back in bed to sleep for a while my head was pounding and I didn’t have a single thing in the house for head aches so I decided to walk to Target. It wasn’t that far and I’m sure I’ll be back before Benji was. I grabbed a short, a T-shirt and some sneakers, put my Cartier watch on and walked to the door. My head was pounding and I wished there was someone else to go to the store but from now on it’s only me. So, I open the door and felt the warm Florida air hitting me in the face. “Was Orlando a good idea?” I asked myself. Then I answered myself. “It’s now to late to change your mind.”
I’m sure the people I passed thought I was certifiable crazy talking to myself and answering myself but I didn’t care. I put my GPS on and walked to Target. I must admit it wasn’t the safest of routes to take to Target on foot some places there where a side walk and some places I had to walked through bushes to not walk in the street. When I finally made it to Target, I had a few cuts and bruises on my legs as the bushes scratched me but I was fine I made it and I could get some pain tablets. When I got to the section, I stood there not knowing which I could take yes, I don’t think I’m pregnant but what if I am, what then? Eventually someone approached me “Can I help your mam?” “Mmmmm Yes which tablets is safe for when you are pregnant?” “You can use this Tylenol if you are in the first trimester.” “Yes, I am thank you.” I took the Tylenol from him and walked away; it was like I was trying to hide the fact that I was pregnant. I went to freezer section to get a water, the walk here made me thirsty when I walked past the sweet section I grabbed a Reese, I had no idea why I just did, maybe I was trying to rebel against my mother, who knows. I wasn’t in the head space to figure that out. I paid for my Tylenol, water and Reese and walked out of the Target, now I need to find my way back to the house without scratching myself again, because Benji will notice and he will have something to say about it.
The path back was almost worse than the path there I was contemplating crossing the road when a black SUV stopped next to me and then the door opened and a very angry Benji was sitting at the back looking at me. “Get in.” I didn’t argue I knew I put my life in danger walking this road but I had a headache. “What the actual fuck Jojo?” He asked as I got into the SUV. I showed him the Tylenol. “You walked this road to get Tylenol?” “My head is killing me but to be fair I did by a chocolate and water as well.” I could see he wanted to smile by the mentioning of the chocolate but he didn’t, he saw my legs. He grabbed one and put it in his lap making me turn in the seat. “See now you are full of cuts and bruises that’s why you need a car.” “Yes, fine but a second-hand car.” “Yes, Jojo a second-hand car.” We stopped at the apartment building, Benji got out and came to open the door for me then he picked me up and carried me to the apartment “You know I can walk right?” “Yes, but I want to carry you.” He didn’t put me down when we got into the apartment, he carried me straight to the bathroom and searched for a first aid kit. When he found it, he opens it and there in the kit was Tylenol. “Why didn’t I think of it?” “I don’t know? Why didn’t you?” He gave me two tablets while he cleaned the cuts on my leg. “This one needs a band aid.” “Can I get a Barbie one please?” I asked trying to ease the tension. “Sorry we are all out of Barbie.” He said but still no smile. “Are you really angry with me?” “Yes.” “But I’m safe.” “You could have been hurt or even attacked in those bushes and what then, you are going to be alone here Jojo you need to think who would have come looking for you if I wasn’t here and God forbid something did happen to you?” That took my smile away because he was right who would have come to safe me who would I have phoned to come and help me? “Fuck I’m sorry Benji.”
“Well at least you did it while I was here, please I’m begging you don’t do that again.” “Yes, okay fine I won’t.” “Thanks now are you going to the doctor like that or would you like to change?” “What’s the dress code for the dinner?” “Casual angel I’m going as I am.” “Okay give me a minute to get dressed.” I grabbed a pair of jeans to hide the band aids on my legs and a clean t-shirt I put some role-on on and some of my expensive perfume, at least it’s still a full bottle. I pulled a brush through my hair fixed my make up and I was ready to go. When I walked into the living room Benji got up “That was quick.” “I know when I can take my time and when I can’t.” “Okay shall we go?” I just nodded. When we walked past the kitchen counter the Reese was still laying there. Benji picked it up and put it in my hand “Don’t forget your chocolate.” Then he smiled at me.