Chapter 57

"She made money, she had been a beautiful woman, attracted men like bees around a honey pot same way women cannot leave you alone or keep their eyes off you. Anyway she had many different men she would sleep with, the money must've been good if she kept on doing that, as time went on she met this man who'd treat her special, with respect even if they didn't sleep together he'd pay her more than she asks for."She sighed and gave a deep breath.

"You don't have to go any further if this is hurting you."

"No, I want to I need you to know."She said."She liked what he did for her and gave her she loved the expensive gifts, jewelry and clothing he'd buy for her, he become more than a client, she used drugs too, cocaine but she left it for him. I guess she fell in love with him but as they say nothing lasts forever, he got killed, one of her usual clients killed him because my mother gave this new man more attention than her other customers after the loss of this man, she became even worse it's like his death triggered a switch inside her."

"How do you know all this stuff. How old were you when all of this happened."

"I was still young five years old. When I turned eighteen my adoptive parents gave me a letter she'd written for me, she explained everything in there."

"Do you still have the letter."She nodded.

"She drank alot after his death, went back to using drugs this time she used stronger stuff, her clients increased not a night went by without her working one night she drank so much she slept with three different men without using protection, a few weeks later she found out she was pregnant with me. Having a child hadn't been apart of her plan but she had me anyway and during that time she continued doing what she's been doing. When I was born nothing changed it only worsen I thought babies changes us but she proved me wrong. As a child I couldn't understand I wondered who all this different men was why they came and went as I got older I understood."

"Did any of the men tried-.."Bruno couldn't even browse the horrid question the thought alone makes him burn with anger.

"No luckily they didn't all they wanted was for my mother to get rid of me a child wasn't part of the deal, someone called social services they came to fetch me I didn't want to go but she didn't fight for me either, she told me she didn't want me that I will be her down fall I stood crying for her and not one tear bothered her. In the end I left with the lady from social services and never looked back she didn't even come to visit me in the orphanage I stayed until Ben and Kristin came to adopt me. I never heard from her since and honestly I don't care it's best this way I wouldn't want her near our boys."

"So she never told you about your father."

"She doesn't know."

"Now I understand why you've been so against us getting married, why you've been pushing me away. Why you refused anything I did for you, the gifts, the jewelry, you thought I was trying to buy you to get you into bed."

"Yes."She whispered.

"But I would never do that."She knows that now."I want you for you. Don't for a second think you're like your mother because you not, you have values, principles and because of that you're different from her, from any other woman I know."

"Men like you don't get involved with the help Bruno you too highly educated and wealthy. I didn't want to get used but in the end I lost, how different does that make me from her."

"Hey don't you dare!"He said sternly."Don't you ever think or say such nonsense again. I hate it when you think less of yourself because you more than what you think of yourself, so much more and from today I don't ever want to hear you talk this way again."

"If people can find out you won't think so highly of me then I don't want to embarrass you or the boys."

"I'll never be embarrassed by you."He kissed her head."Only proud. I'm happy you trusted me enough to tell me."

"You'll be my husband soon I don't want to hide anything from you."

"I also cannot wait to make you my wife tomorrow."

"Today will be the last night that we sleep together."She said."The last day me and the boys will come and visit. Are you sure you want to spend the rest of your life with me after what I've told you, there's still time to back out."

"Nothing will stop me from making you my wife and if you thinking of running away from me I'll find you where ever you might be."

"I still have fears Bruno. About us getting married sometimes this feels too good to be true what if I'm not good enough for you. What if you get tired of me what's gonna happen the day a beautiful model crosses your path. I wonder and question myself if I'm doing the right thing, if you're the right man for me." Deep down in her heart she knows he's the man God created for her, if she was created for him she doesn't know."What if a few years down the line you decide I'm not the woman for you."

"We not officially husband and wife yet and already you thinking the worst. I wouldn't be marrying you if I wasn't sure I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you I've told you that before you've got nothing to worry about. I'm yours for as long as you want me and shall have me."

"I don't think I'll ever get tired of you instead I want you more than yesterday." I'll love you more tomorrow than I do now she also added silently.

"Our feelings are mutual beautiful. I have this never ending thirst for you. This hunger that's so strong that it scares me sometimes the thought of not

touching you or making love to you tores me from within. I don't even know how to put what I feel for you in words that's how powerful my feelings are for you." Could it be he might love her and doesn't know she asked herself."I won't call it love because I don't believe in such things, all I know is you're extremely important to me I more than care for you never forget that."

"I won't."She said slightly disappointed at what he'd just said that it isn't love. Maybe one day he'll bring himself to love her but for now there's something else she wants to know."Do you want to have any future kids."He went silent. "I'm asking because we'll be married, I just wanna know that's all I'm not saying I want to have them I'm just asking in general. I don't want you to think I'm pregnant because I'm not, I'm taking my pill and haven't missed a day you can check with your physician if you think I'm lying."

"I believe you beautiful one thing I do know is that you'll never lie to me or be unfaithful. I trust you more than anyone, more than any woman I've ever dated or had in my life."She's touched and honoured to hear that.

"You're also one of the few people that I trust in my life."

"We'll make this marriage work beautiful I know we will."He kissed her again. "As for us having more kids in the future, I don't know I promised myself I wouldn't want any of my kids to go through what me and my brother went through growing up it's hard sometimes being different from the rest. I wouldn't want to subject them to that."

"Life is a rollercoaster Bruno it's not always a smooth ride, there'll be bumps and humps along the way but what matters most is that we'll be here to teach them, guide them and together they'll learn as they go. Having to live your life in constant fear is not living we all have to take chances, make sacrifices."

"Wise words beautiful I'll remember them. Get some rest now I want you wide awake and refreshed for our wedding night."Sage looked at the time dawn was approaching in a few hours she'll be picking up Gina and Sean from the airport, her wedding is tomorrow she still can't believe she's gonna marry Bruno she glanced at him, he's the most sexiest man ever and he's all hers and right now she wants him they won't be seeing or sleeping in the same bed come tonight. Sage had insisted they should sleep separately on the eve of their wedding she'll only get to see him when she'll be walking down the aisle."Don't give me that look."He warned."Rest."He laid her head down gently on his chest."I'll eagerly wait for you on our wedding night."

"And I for you."She said and shut her eyes, he spend what was left of the night with her but didn't touch her. She was disappointed but knew there's only a few hours to go then she'll have him all to herself. Bruno wasn't there when she woke the following morning but she did find a tray with her breakfast next to her on the bed and the very same concoction he'd given her last night surprisingly she doesn't have a headache it must be Bruno's drink she'll have to thank him later. After breakfast she took a hot bath then got dressed, the closet had so much clothing that Sage found it rather difficult to choose clothes to wear, so many options.