BELLA.
My hands started shaking in horror, I quickly changed the channel. Searching for any news channel reporting about Caspar being alive and my thought came true.
The remote fell down from my hand as I slapped my mouth in fear and shock. "H-How could he be alive? I-I remember his heartbeat stopped after he collapsed in my arms…"
My body started turning cold as the spark of life left me and fear haunted me. I refused to believe the news of only one channel. Grabbing the remote from the floor, I anxiously kept changing the channels and everywhere was the same news broadcasting.
My body turned numb, I imagined my end was near. Falling on my knees, I watched the anchor talking about Caspar and showing his pictures. My eyes widened in shock when I saw Caspar attending the video interview with the news anchor.
"Mr Caspar Mcadam, it's good to see you recovering from the coma," the anchor said and extended her well wishing him.
'Coma?' I repeated under my breath, so all this time he was not dead but in a coma! I listened to what else the news anchor had to ask him and finally, the controversial question was asked to him.
"Mr Caspar Mcadam, are you going to find your wife? The one who tried to assassinate you…"
My eyes focused on the television screen as I noticed Caspar's smile fading away and his teeth gritted in anger and detestation. He then quickly controlled his expression and indifferently replied, "I have withdrawn the murder case from her. I just want her to be happy wherever she is right now!"'
No. No. I saw the glimpse of incoming revenge from him in his eyes. He can lie to everyone, but me. I knew him more than anyone, he was going to find me and give me the painful death which I deserve.
Forgiveness? Ftt! As far as I know, Caspar can forgive me but his alter ego Xavier will not tell me off his grasp.
Different kinds of fear wrapped around my soul, and at that moment I realized I was not alone. I turned my face towards my 1-year-old daughter, Karina. I crawled towards her baby kot, and hugging her with my trembling hands I whimpered in pain, "N-Nobody can take my child away from me. I will not let Caspar separate my daughter from him… Karina is my daughter."
Tears welled up in my eyes as I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't help myself, I was losing my mind like a crazy scared mother. The maids and butler Vincent rushed to the living room and panicked when they saw me crying.
"Miss Bella, what's wrong? Did something happen to young Miss Karenina?" Vincent asked, getting concerned.
"Sir Vincent, is there any law that can help a father take away the child from its mother?"
He thought for a second and replied, "Worry not Miss Bella, I'll not allow your husband to take away your daughter."
"N-No… you don't know how dangerous my husband is! And now he's even more dangerous and wants me dead."
Vincent inched closer to me and patting my right shoulder he assured me, "Nobody can trespass the security of Black Mercenaries. Master exclusively hired them for your safety and protection. Be at ease, if needed I'll pick up the weapon and protect you with my life."
I looked at Vincent, his words were firm and confident that I couldn't help but feel less scared. My brother was sensible so he hired the Black Mercenaries, one of the top private military firms which offers security even at the cost of their lives.
And it really surprised me that Vincent was no ordinary butler but a retired navy major.
I was coming back to my senses when suddenly the news anchor dropped another question.
"So do you have any plans for getting back with your wife?"
"I don't think so, my marriage with her was annulled the moment she betrayed me. However I do wish to meet her someday with finance Nancy Mandarin," he said with a sly grin playing on his face.
And my heart shattered into pieces when I saw him hugging that idol girl from the MMO group. Was this his way of taking revenge on me? Because he knows I love him more than myself so he wants to play with my heart.
My tears dried in my eyes, a feeling of jealousy erupted within my heart. I got up and slammed the remote towards the television, causing the glass screen to break apart.
"Vincent, take care of Karina. I will need some time to process my emotions," I said as I walked out but paused. "Find out when Caspar Mcadam got out of his coma and when he got engaged to Nancy Mandarin."
"Nancy Mandarin? Isn't she the top actress in Hollywood now?'' Vincent mentioned. "I can't believe she got the eyes of your husband…"
"Do not believe what you see in the media! Caspar will never love anyone else other than me," I was still being delusional and standing my on my stupid beliefs. " He's with her for sex and nothing more than that is true."
Vincent said no further after realizing that his slip of tongue provoked me. I walked upstairs and locked myself in my room. I felt useless in the moment, I felt like my whole world was falling apart into nothingness.
I thought I had forgotten Caspar and could spend life with my daughter, without having to get fucked by any other man.
I know right now I was being pathetic, people will call me the biggest hypocrite. And honestly, I never cared for people's opinions, I was used to their bickering and insults.
"But is it okay for me to get jealous of Nancy? Wasn't I the one who almost killed Caspar?'' I questioned myself, however my mind was constantly thinking about them.
I could not stop imagining Nancy kissing Caspar, hugging him and sleeping with him in the bed that was once mine.
What threatened me more was that what if Caspar really loves Nancy? What will become of me?
"No… No, that should not happen. He shall not love her, his heart belongs to me and no other woman," I declared to myself. "He's mine…"
My body shuddered in fear of losing Caspar's love. "I-I need to beg him for forgiveness, I'm sure he will understand why I committed his assassination…"
"I-I know he can't sleep with me. He needs me beside him, he needs to kiss me and fuck me for good sleep."
I sounded crazy and sick as I rummaged through my closet. I was looking for my old phone desperately, the one that had Caspar's number saved. I thought to myself that I had become blind in jealousy. I was willing to let Caspar find me, trample over me and mess with my current peaceful life.
"Love has made me crazy," I laughed with tears in my eyes as if I was losing my fucking mind. My smile widened when I found the phone and quickly dialed his number.
Rings kept going, nobody answered and the crazy I was, I kept calling him until my fingers reddened.
"Caspar…" I murmured his name with regret and sadness. "Caspar… Why isn't he picking up my call? Does he not remember my number anymore?"
"Please, please pick up the goddamn call," I chanted as I continued dialing his number like an idiot. "Why must he hurt me like this? What's wrong with me calling him? I just want to hear his voice…"
For an hour, I kept calling him before finally giving up. I crouched down in one corner and buried my head into my folded arms, allowing the tears to wash over me.
RING
I was jolted out of my remorse when the phone began ringing. My eyes blinked as I quickly wiped off my tears and received the call.
"C-Caspar," my voice hitched and sounded raspy from all that crying. "Caspar, I missed you. How are you?"
"He's sleeping. I'm his fiance, Nancy. Would you care to introduce yourself, Miss?" I heard her voice and my blood boiled in my veins.
I waited no more and retorted, "Why are you having his phone? You are not yet married to touch his things!''
"Excuse me," she reacted. "I'm going be his wife soon, and you are talking about who I am? Just tell me who you are, otherwise, I'm going to give your number to the cops!"
I was about to lash out at her but someone grabbed the phone from her hand and answered, "Hello, who is it?"
Caspar's voice? I got goosebumps all over my body as I gulped in nervously. It was awkward however I managed a sweet smile on my face and gently replied,"Caspar, I missed you… I know I was wrong so I wish for your–"
"So you had the audacity to call me after everything you did," he growled from the phone, scaring the shit out of me. "And now you want me to understand your situation at that time on why you had to kill me blah blah. Do you take me for a fool, Bella?"
"I dare not… Please don't get mad," I tried to calm him down. "I regretted every second of my life without you. I can't express how peaceful my heart is after finding out you are alive…"
He kept quiet, and I could imagine the kind of expression he must be making right now. His silence has always scared me, and I felt at a loss because he was not with me. If only he could come to me, I would be able to explain everything to him…
"What else do you have to say? I don't want to make my fiance wait for me. I'm going to make out with her," he spelled out each word which pierced my heart hundreds of times.
"Come to me."
I allowed my jealousy to get the best of me and summoned danger upon me.
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