Chapter 45

MILA

I am so pissed at Sapphire. She blocked me again. I want to know what’s wrong or why she was acting like that.

When I come back into focus, Emily has left my room without saying a word, wonder where the hell she gone.

Still annoyed with Sapphire, I place a block up and let her realize how I felt every time she did it to me when she was talking to everyone, leaving me out of everything.

I pull on the skinny jeans; pull a sports bra on and baggy off the shoulder top over it also putting back on my sneakers. I head straight to the hall.

The hall itself was huge and tables lined up in rows. I spot George, Archer, Anna, Miles and Ella. I walk over to them when an Omega comes in with a plate full of food. She hands me the plate, it’s full of all the meats you can think off.

My stomach growls. I look around and everyone is smiling at me except Archer, his face full of concern.

“Little dove, why have you blocked your wolf?” he says through our mind link.

“She blocked me earlier to talk to Emily. She did it to me all the time in the past, while she was talking to everyone about stuff when I had no memories. I’m giving her a taste of her own medicine” I say feeling angry.

“That’s childish little dove, you both are one” he says but before he can say anything, I add “Well that’s what’s happening? I have had loads of secrets for most of my life, Sapphire should have told me everything. She hid stuff from me too, not just this morning but something else but I don’t know what. I’m not talking about this anymore, so drop it” I say and cut off the mind link.

I block him from my mind and also Drack.

I can feel Archer's eyes on me but he doesn't say anything, he gets up to leave “I have to go” and with that he moves from the table. Anna looks at me “I will make sure he is ok” she says nodding towards Miles but avoids my gaze as she leaves.

I begin to eat my food and I look up to see Miles looking back at me. George also went at some point. Why do they do that?

“You ok Mila?” Miles says which startles me.

I look at him and once I finished a mouthful of bacon, “I’m ok, I'm just having a weird morning with my wolf and Archer” I finally say.

“Can I help with anything? I want to get to know you but also if there is any problems you may have, maybe you could share them with me. I’m a good listener” he says with a small smile.

I look back at my food but I have slowly gone off it. I need to talk to someone. I have so many mixed feelings, I look back at him. He is talking to his mate, Ella. She has just finished her food.

He notices me looking at them, he smiles “Ella has been having a rough time with this pregnancy so she will take a nap as being pregnant is taking out of her” he say as he turns to a man who then leaves with Ella, following her.

“Can we go for a walk?” I ask suddenly “Around the grounds.”

He nods. He lets me finish my food and tells me about his favourite things while I tell him mine. Once I have finished, we leave and head through the front door.

We start to walk around the grounds but we head to the place where Dane, Emily and Nate found me before the fight. We walk to the cliff top, taking the short cut way.

Once at the cliffs, we take in the view. On the trail walk we still talked about some bits about each other while we take in the view, he can sense my hostile feeling. He turns me as I take a seat on the big bolder.

“Little sis, as much I love getting to know you, you need to tell me what is troubling you” he says. I look at him and sigh “I will tell you but can you keep an open mind.”

He looks back at me but I think he realize something “Why have you blocked your wolf from your connection?” he asks suddenly.

I look at the ground before telling him “That’s part of the issues I have, did anyone tell you that George took my memories about our mum, about the attack and even about Archer away” I say.

He looks back at me in surprise and shakes his head “No Mila, Why would he do that?”

I carry on looking at the ground, wanting to escape everything. Maybe talking to Miles about how I really feel without everyone even Sapphire knowing could help. He may help me realize what it is I want, also it might put a few things into order for me.

I sigh “Well as you know I got half of Archer’s heart as Devon killed me. I had no memory of anything. I was told I was found in the forest by George and his family who took me in” I look back at him and he nods “I understand, Mila, tell me everything and I won’t interrupt you at all. I want to know but I also think you need to tell me everything it will help you get it all out of your system too” he says and motions for me to carry on while he takes a seat next to me.

I told Miles everything that happened to me even the part about Nate and that slut. Miles never interrupted me, he listened and I have to say I felt the weight being lifting off my shoulders as I spoke.

After I finished, Miles looked pissed “YOUR MATE DID WHAT” he shouted.

“He didn’t know we were mates at the time, I don’t think” I say as I grab his hand in mine.

“I found out he was my mate when Sapphire told me which after the first sight of him when I came to kill two rogues but they headed here to the pack, but it was made true when he did that outside my apartmetn with her, it was heart wrenching and sickening” I tell him.

“Have you forgiven him?” he asks softly.

I shrug at him “I don’t know yet. Part of me does but I keep reliving that scene over and over in my head. Alyssa, the girls name was, knew I was watching. How could someone do that?” I say with a few tears appearing in my eyes.

“Some people are power hungry, when a young alpha is looking for a mate; all she-wolves want him. They will try and find a way to have their way whether it hurts someone else's feeling.” he says and squeezes my hand and lets go. “You take all the time in the world to forgive him, Mila, it is your choice no one else’s.”

I look at him “I know but I’m worried about Sapphire, I know she wants his wolf. I can feel her; I don’t want to make it hard for her either and I know she will give me the time I need to accept him and I know that but..” I look away as I never told a single sole of how I feel about Sapphire.

“But what Mila?” he says looking at me.

I look at him now and I know I have tears flowing down my face “This stays between us, not even Sapphire knows” I say and he nods his head “It stays between us, I promise.”

I sigh and take a deep breath “Well ever since I have known Sapphire and I are as one but there is something wrong. She doesn’t tell me everything. I think she knows more than she lets on. I trust her with my life but there is something that she has not told me, but has told someone maybe Emily, I don’t know but I can feel it when Emily is around. Sapphire would always block me out from conversations that she had with Emily mainly but sometimes George too. I would try to get through the block but they are strong. She promised she wouldn’t do it again but she did earlier to talk to Emily, after confronting her she never told me why she blocked me, so I gave her the same treatment so she could see and feel what it was like for me. I wanted her to know how it felt to be in total darkness. That’s where I would go, for an hour, the longest was three hours. Neither her or Emily would tell me anything, they kept secrets from me” I say I'm complete mess, crying.

Sapphire should be able to trust me, I know she is protecting me but why tell Emily.

Miles looks at me with sadness and concern on his face “Mila, have you told Archer about this?” I shake my head “No I blocked him this morning; he told me I was childish.”

He looks at me and sighs “Archer is your protector and guardian; he needs to know these things. He might not know what is going on but he can certainly find out and help.”

I suddenly have a feeling “You told Anna what I was saying didn’t you?” I look back at him, his face was blank but I know.

I’m completely angry.

“Why would you do that? This is the first time I have ever talked to you, opening up to you and also my first time even saying it out loud” I scream, I get off the bolder and turn to leave.

“Mila, it wasn’t Anna, it was Libelle her dragon, she wanted to know why you blocked them. She listened in on the whole thing. She even told them” he says and trying to follow me.

I am so ashamed now. No one ever trusts me; they know everything now.

I am so pissed at Miles and everyone.

“I am going to leave now, don’t follow me” I scream at him, turning in a different direction and to run way from him.

I can hear him shouting after me and running behind me.

I turn around and all the anger is building up inside me, it is like an inferno trying to escape.

I stop and glare at him, all of a sudden with a flick of my hand; Miles is sent back into a tree, hard.

I turn back around and run.

I don’t run to the pack.

I don’t run to the town.

I just run deep into the forest, I need to get away.

I don’t want anyone near me, I hate them all.

Everyone has hidden everything from me too many secrets.

I have had enough.

I have had enough of it all. I am not staying around here any longer. I don’t care anymore. I let my anger fill my veins with rage as I run.

No one knew I had powers either, I kept them to myself. Not Emily, George or even Sapphire. i was going to mentoin to Sapphire this morning as I have been feeling really funny since we met Archer but when she clocked me, all I could see was rage.

I need to get away.

No one is going to hurt me ever again.