Chapter 24

"Kate. Kate."

I look around, but all I see is darkness. I hear the same voice calling for me, but once again, all I see is darkness.

I keep walking in the unknown darkness until I see a light far away. I keep walking towards the light, but everything becomes dark once again before I can get there.

The place starts rotating suddenly, making me feel dizzy. I close my eyes to stop the dizziness.

I open my eyes to find myself in a field with trees everywhere and the sounds of birds flying, but what catches my eye is a woman wearing a floor-length flower gown.

Sitting on the floor and playing with the butterfly flying around her, her aura is powerful, pulling me towards her.

I can't see her face clearly because her back is facing me.

I walk closer to see more of her, but the closer I get, the tenser she becomes.

Immediately, as I get close enough, she starts sobbing, making the butterfly around her fly away.

"Excuse me, can you please tell me what this place is?" I ask, but all I get is silence in response.

I keep touching her shoulders, but she refuses to acknowledge my presence. Have I now become invisible?

"Lady, please say something," I plead.

She is making me scared with all this crying. Why is she crying so much? If she could only talk to me, maybe I could help her.

Or am I dead, and the Moon Goddess is punishing me for my evil deeds?

"You murderer!" she screamed, suddenly getting up.

She looks into my eyes. Her gown is covered with blood, and her face looks so familiar.

"Mum?" I ask, shocked.

I have only seen her in a picture my Ma gave me when I was just a pup, but seeing her now sends fear into me, making me shake uncontrollably.

"Who is your mother?" she asks with disdain. "I could never be the mother of a murderer like you," she screamed, her eyes burning with hatred.

I can not reply or even feel anything. I am numb, and my body is shaking uncontrollably.

"Murderer, you killed me!" she screamed. This time, it echoes, haunting me.

"Stop, please! Please, stop!" I cried, falling on my knees and pleading.

"Murderer, murderer," she keeps on screaming until I am only able to hear her voice as whispers in the air.

I use my hand to cover my ears, trying to block her words out when something pulls my hands down forcefully. It feels hot, burning into my flesh.

I open my eyes to find myself no longer in a field but in a dungeon with my hands and legs in silver chains. From the smell, it is also coated with wolfbane, and from my experience, silver and wolfbane are dangerous for werewolves.

I try using my strength to pull the chain off, but it seems the more I try, the tighter it gets. I whine in pain, smelling the burning of my flesh.

"You have to stop trying because the more you try, the worse it gets."

I look up towards the voice to see my dad and Hunter smirking in satisfaction.

"Please, let me go," I plead weakly, hating I sound this weak in front of them.

"Why would I do that after you took my mum from me? You deserve to die," Hunter says, laughing maliciously.

"Hunter, please, I was just a pup then," I try to reason with him.

"No, you deserve death," he yells this time.

I cry for help, but no one can save me from this torment. I am once again let to their mercy.

"Kate, wake up," a voice calls, pulling me from the thrashes of the nightmare.

I jerk up from sleeping, looking everywhere to see it was just a nightmare.

I was breathing heavily, and my clothes were soaked in sweat.

"Kate, what's wrong? Say something," Lawrence says, pushing my hair away from my face, panicked.

I choose to ignore him, standing up from the bed and walking straight into the bathroom with shaky legs.

I splash water on my face, washing away the memory of the nightmare, and look into the mirror to see a girl with messed up hair and scared eyes.

What a shame that the girl who once believed in fairy tales and magic has to be struck by reality with demons in her mind and the fear of never being loved. A girl whose nightmares wrap their evil hands around her soul at night and try to pull her deep within a world that's ruled by fright.

Those dark thoughts may follow her, but they'll never win the fight.

She escapes the looming shadows with the help of dawn's first light.

She hates getting flashbacks of things she doesn't want to remember.

She misses her, the old her, the happy her, the bright her, the smiling her, the laughing her, the gone her.

I look in the mirror to discover this girl is me. This broken girl is me.

These nightmares haunt me for the evil I did, the people I killed.

I can never be the queen and Luna of these people. I am a murderer, but their Alpha King is also a murderer from the stories I have heard of him killing and destroying packs.

Maybe the Moon Goddess was right to pair us together. Either one of us kills the other, or we both die because I know I deserve to die, not him.

I can't bring myself to tell him what hurts me at night because I can't kill his soul. He would run in fear of the demons in me.

"Kate, are you alright ?" Lawrence calls from outside the closed door.

"Yes," I yelled back.

He groans in pain. My bad. Lycan hearing.

"Sorry."

I walk out to find him leaning against the wall.

"You okay?" he asks, concerned.

"Yeah, just nightmares," I say.

"You mind talking about it? I mean, you were screaming for help," he says warily.

"No."

I trudge slowly towards the bed, reaching for Lawrence's phone on the nightstand to see it is midnight.

I turn around to see him leaning against the wall, staring at me intensely.

"I am going to the gym," I say, walking towards the door.

"Okay," he says, walking into the bathroom.

I go into the gym to fight my worst enemy, a battle I can never seem to win.

My worst enemy is my memory.