Since that night, I’ve wondered if Nick’s last words to me—“it’s okay”—meant that he knew he had been turned, or if he really thought he was dying and was trying to tell me that he was fine with that.
In either case, he was wrong.
It’s not okay.
Nothing is okay. Not really.
I never planned to become a vampire hunter. Then again, I don’t think anyone ever plans on something like that. It’s not usually considered a viable career path.
But with Nick gone, I don’t have much other choice. Alec Pearson says he has a call in to someone to come take Nick’s place—the woman who used to be on Nick’s team, the one he mentioned when we were training. Scarlett. No one will tell me much about her except that things didn’t end well. The guys get all shifty-eyed and evasive when I ask for details and Alec just shook his head and said, “Let’s wait to see if we hear back from her.”
I’m worried, though. Nick trained all of us. He knows everything we know, and more. Some small part of me hopes that just because Nick turned doesn’t mean he’s suddenly on the other side, instantly a bad guy. But the fact that he didn’t stick around to discuss it with us suggests otherwise.
So now I spend my days training with the rest of the team. I took a leave of absence from my graduate program; suddenly, things that happened in England’s history seem much less important to me than the things that are happening right now in New York. Things that I might be able to help change.
Greg turned Nick because of me—to punish me for killing Deirdre. I can’t change that.
And I can’t change the fact that I didn’t kill Greg when I had the chance—any of the times I had the chance.
I will regret that every day for the rest of my life.
So when I’m not training, I’m hunting.
I don’t know where Greg is, but I know that I will find him. And when I do, I will put a stake through his heart.
I know I said that the worst thing about vampires is that they’re already dead. But that’s not strictly true.
The worst thing about vampires is that some of them used to be my friends. One of them used to be my fiancé.
And now I have to hunt him down and kill him.