Chapter 10 The Cost Of Being Powerful
Marcus pov
The room was silent, dark and tense just the way my mind is at the moment. I stared at the wall with indifference, my eyes cold and quiet like the pulse of the person my personal doctor was taking wasn’t mine—Like I didn’t just finish destroying a room due to my loss of control.
Suddenly, the quiet in the room was broken with a soft but heavy sigh. My hand dropped gently on the bed where I lay, and my doctor sat up.
“Master, things are getting more complicated. We need to find a solution immediately!”
I heard him, but was there a need to respond? I didn’t say a word, but the air in the room changed. I didn’t look at him, but stared at the wall silently, and only after a while did I slowly sit up, but the chains that were around my body made a shrew sound that echoed in the room making me furrow my brows in annoyance but I knew I couldn’t remove this now.
Now seated, I tried to adjust but the chains sounded again, irritating my brain. I lowered my head, and I stared at the big chains with indifference and coldness, as if I wasn’t staring at something that held my freedom but at something that could be broken into pieces by me.
Looking at the chains, I couldn’t help but remember how I had gotten here.
At that time, my energy had suddenly gone into hysteria. My body had felt like it was about to explode and I just couldn’t control it. The pain, the feeling of helplessness as I tried to rein in the power and the thought to destroy everything, but I had still kept a trace of my consciousness which made me remember to knock Elena out.
That pain…
I couldn’t help but close my eyes tightly, my fist clenched and the chains dangled, but my face remained calm like I wasn’t recalling something dangerous and crazy. Maybe it’s just because I have gotten so used to it and it’s part of my life.
Before losing total control of my sanity, I had managed to call Dennis, my personal doctor who knows about me, and also my personal guards, then I had stumbled down the stairs to put my chains around myself so as not to kill the innocents, and when they came, I had ordered them to take me away from the house, and lastly, I had made sure someone put Elena in her room.
Suddenly, a frown appeared on my face as I recalled something.
“Elena…”
The thought of that little girl made my eyes darken with rage and annoyance.
I remember how she had kissed me even when I told her to go back to her room. But this little woman actually disobeyed which made my pheromones go berserk.
I felt my fingers become stiff at the thought of how I had almost had my way with her. I had fucking torn her clothes and…
“Darn it! That little vixen!” I cursed under my breath.
If her tears hadn’t stopped me and made me regain consciousness, I’d have taken her there.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know about that little woman’s thought, but I don't take it seriously. I could remember how she had approached me years ago with her shy smile..
“Marcus, I like you! I want to be with you!”
Her determination, her little stubbornness, they were cute, but—
My eyes flashed with mockery and indifference at the thought of Elena because just like I had told her then, she can’t take me! I know about my condition, and I know how I treat omegas or others during sexual moments, and Elena… That’s even more impossible.
I don’t have feelings, and I don’t have the time to check some little girl’s emotions. When I have sex, I go hard, rough and wild just like she had watched me do it to that sex partner of mine.
I narrowed my eyes and something flashed in them, “She should fear me now that she has seen how I fuck. She won’t dare think about it again.” I muttered under my breath then nodded.
Elena isn’t just James’s daughter, to me, she is just a soft little woman whom I can squelch with just a touch of mine.
I suddenly frowned again as I thought about her boldness, and then at the fact that I still have to continue living with her.
Irritation flashed in my eyes, “I shouldn’t have agreed to this. But,” I frowned coldly, “She still has to be punished!”
“Alpha..?! I.. is there a problem?”
The familiar voice snapped me back to reality. My brows furrowed into a light frown and I shifted my head slowly to the side, then focused my eyes on Dennis who looked startled when I turned.
My bloodshot eyes stared at him closely—Sharp, cold, and dangerous like I was staring at nothing.
Dennis trembled, he jolted back and I saw the sweat that lined his forehead, but I didn’t shift my eyes away from him. His fist was secretly clenched beside him, and he lowered his head, unable to look at me.
The room became tense and gloomy, but I felt nothing. After a minute passed when Dennis was about to collapse, I finally shifted my gaze from him with indifference.
I turned to look at the window in the room I had been locked in since I came, and slowly I stood up from the bed with Dennis also standing up immediately as he stood behind me with his head bowed.
My cold eyes stared at the window which showed my reflection, though not clear, but I could imagine what I looked like at the moment because it wasn’t new to me.
Bloodshot red eyes, a pink pheromone oozing out from my neck even though it had been suppressed, blood, scars and bruises all over my naked chest, and finally… the heavy chains that are meant to suppress me when I go berserk like a beast that I know I am.
My eyes stared coldly at my image, and I knew why Dennis wouldn't stop trembling.
But, I have never cared about how my people view me and as long as they don't betray me, then it is fine, but if they do…
“Hmmph!” I snorted coldly, my eyes becoming sharp and darker, my blood surged with killing intent, and the room plunged into my murderous thoughts.
“I’ll destroy them all! Cut off their ears, gouge out their eyes and make them beg to be killed!”
I have never tolerated betrayal!
Finally, I began to walk to the window side, the chains around me made sounds as I moved, but I didn’t notice it as my gaze only held the moon that peered through the window. I stopped in front of it and let my deep, dark gaze linger on it, but I couldn’t enjoy it, because I’m not meant to.
“Find another way out. Because there is no way I can find another person with a similar energy to me!”
The room became silent after my words, but I didn’t shift my gaze away.
I know it. I have always known that my energy was crazy and dangerous. It was so powerful that it could destroy so many things as the only SSS+ alpha in existence, but it comes with a huge price. I know I might explode one day if I don’t find a way to contain the power inside me.
They don’t need to tell me. I know it! I can feel it! The beast inside me wants to take total control. And when it does, the world would never be at peace or I might explode. And this is one of the reasons I kept my existence a secret, a reason I chose to keep the status of my energy hidden and tell everyone I’m an SS+ Alpha, one whom everyone thinks is the highest one in existence.
I don’t fear anyone, but I choose to do so until I find a solution to tempering my energy.
But, it has been impossible so far. I invested in research but it was a total failure. And the only thing that came out was so difficult to find—A person who could match my own energy.
A person with a powerful energy that could melt the ice of my pheromones. But that’s something impossible!
The women I have sex with always end up with injuries, some almost losing their lives. So, who would have that insane ability to counter mine?
My eyes turned chilly, and my mind surged at the thought that I have little time left to find a solution. Finally, I turned around to face Dennis who stood quietly behind me, then I spat;
“Even if it’s just a little and an impossible chance, I need to take it!”