Chapter 78: Pains

Victoria's POV

''Please talk to me, you've been silent since we came back from Bernard's place, what the hell did he say to you.'' Jane asked in panic, but I did not say a word, rather I stood on my feet and stood beside the window while Bernard's words played in my head.

A knock came on the door and Jane went for it.

''Alpha Derick asked you to join him for dinner, but I've declined his request'' Jane said those words and stood beside me while she placed her hand on my shoulder and gently massaged it.

''It's fine if you don't wanna talk about it.''she assured me, while I nodded my head as a reply.

''I'll go for a walk.'' I said those words, and rushed out of the room, so she wouldn't see the tears in my eyes.

The dining table was close to the sitting room and I narrowly escaped being seen by Alpha Derick.

I walked out of the house and left the mansion

I wanted to go for a walk and clear my head, but I noticed my eyes were filled with tears and wouldn't want anyone to see me this way, so I decided to take the woods, Alpha Derick's personal woods.

I walked into the woods and slowly took off my clothes and shifted to my wolf form, and this time it was easier because I followed alpha Derick's instructions.

While I wandered around the woods in my wolf's form, I decided to communicate with her

''Hey.'' I called out,

''I can hear you.'' She responded in my head, sounding exactly like me.

''Do you think what he said is true.'' I asked in fear,

''Yes, he is telling the truth.'' She responded

''But you don't have to get scared, we got Alpha Derick, so there is definitely a way out.''my wolf tried comforting me, but I wasn't listening

''This is Terrible.'' I spoke in pains

''I believe there is a way out.'' She assured me, but I shook my head in disbelief and raced around the woods.

It was already dark, and I wasn't familiar with these woods, which made me injured my forefeet.

I continue racing in the woods and cried out in pains, but it came out as a growl.

Not able to walk anymore I stood beside a tree and kept on weeping while my wolf growled softly in pains.

I couldn't believe life was so unfair to me, why must my death put an end to all this.

I noticed a presence behind me and quickly turned around and met alpha Eric, but in his wolf form.

His wolf stared right at me like he was trying to read through my mind and slowly walked up to me.

Unexpectedly, his wolf stood beside me and placed his head on the body of my wolf in a comforting way and inhaled deeply.

Not wanting to let him feel my pains, I moved away from him and strolled back to where my clothes were kept, and noticed his clothes were also there.

Easily I shifted back to my human form while Alpha Derick did the same and rushed up to me.

He held my both arms and made me stared right at him

''You've been crying, what's wrong.'' He asked while wiping away tears from my face with the back of his hand.

''I'm fine.'' I murmured and went for my clothes, I did not know my face was soaked with tears.

''No, you are not, please tell me what's going on.'' He begged, but I ignored him and hurriedly put on my clothes, while he did the same and walked behind me.

''What is wrong, please tell me what's wrong.'' He pleaded, but I ignored him and hastened my steps

''Vicky.'' He held my arms and stopped me from walking, which made me furious.

''Let me be!'' I yelled in anger and noticed a tree beside me cut into two pieces by the tone of my voice

''Calm down,'' he begged and tried pulling me for a hug, but I pushed him away and felt my wolf whimpered in pains.

''Don't tell me to fucking calm down, You are not the one who is going to die, you are not the fucking one.'' I yelled in pains.

''Throughout your life you've lived a perfect life, you had whatever you wanted and desired, never in your life have you felt pain, never in your life have you felt an atom of what I feel. and here you are telling me to fucking calm down.'' I yelled in rage and ran my fingers through my hair.

''Just stay away from me.'' I yelled and walked away from him.

I noticed he followed me behind, but he did not say a word, neither did he make a sound until we got to the mansion.

Hurriedly I took the stairs to my room, entered my room and tried closing the door, but he held the door and forcefully pushed his way in.

Ignoring him, I stood beside the window and heard him talking to Jane

''I don't know, she doesn't want to say anything.'' Jane murmured

Alpha Derick heaved a sigh and stood beside me but didn't speak a word

''I'll be outside.'' Jane said those words and left the room.

The room was silent and only my constant sniffing could be heard in the room, as I wept silently.

Alpha Derick didn't say a word, but rather he stood behind me and hugged me tightly from behind.

I tried to take his hands off me, but his grips on me were too tight, and I tiredly gave up.

We stood there in silence until he spoke up

''I'm sorry, I'm so sorry you went through those pains, but I'm here, and you are not alone, I wish to feel whatever pain you are feeling, I wish to cry with you, I want to share with your laughter and pains, I want to walk with you in every step you will take, please don't push me away.'' He pleaded in a whisper, but I notice the pains in his voice.

I heard him but didn't say a word, rather I took in a deep breath and wipe off tears from my face

''I need to use the restroom.'' I spoke up, so he could let go of me.

He hesitated for a while before letting go of me.

I met eyes with him and noticed his eyes were soaked with tears.

Quickly, I looked away, so he wouldn't see the concerned look on my face.

I got to the bathroom, stared at the mirror and noticed my eyes were swollen.

Quickly, I put on the tap and washed my face and dried it with a towel.

''Everything will be fine.'' My wolf assured me while I glared at the Mirror and exclaimed deeply.

I came out of the bathroom and saw alpha Derick seated on the bed with a sad and worried look on his face

''Are you okay?'' He asked

''Yeah.'' I murmured in a weak voice and sat beside him.

We were both silent until he spoke up

''Are you hungry.'' He asked

''Yes.'' I nodded my head

''Alright, wait a minute.'' I nodded my head at his words and looked away.

I knew he wanted to ask me what I meant by what I said in the woods. I knew he wanted to ask me what was going on, but he held himself because he didn't what to get me angry.

A knock came on the door. He went for it and came back with a tray of food in his hands.

''Here.'' He handed the tray of food to me, which I took and flashed him a weak smile

''Thank you,'' I whispered

''You are welcome.'' He tried smiling, but it didn't come out great.

I picked up the spoon and put some food in my mouth and forced myself to chew, but I realized I did not have an appetite to eat

''Give it here, you don't have to force the food in.'' He took the tray from me and kept the tray of food on the table.

''You should rest, you must be tired.'' He stood on his feet and tried leaving, but I held his wrist and stood on my feet.

''I'm sorry.'' I apologized

''It's okay…''

''No, it's not, I shouldn't have spoken to you in that manner.'' I apologized sincerely

''It's fine.'' He assured me and flashed me a weak smile while he placed his fingers in my hair and gently stroked it.

''Today you were wrong. You were really wrong with your words.'' He spoke almost in a whisper.

''You don't know the amount of pain I have felt in this heart of mine. For the past three months, I went through pains you can never imagine, I went through hell thinking I've lost you and now that I have you back, nothing is going to take you away from me, not even death himself.'' He muttered those words as a promise, placed a long kiss on my forehead and walked away.