Chapter 60: Youthful desires

Victoria's POV

''Stop it, please stop it.'' I yelled and stood up from my bed

''I've told you I would rather not hear it, I don't care if you see him every day, and if he keeps asking about me, I don't fucking care.'' I yelled angrily at Jane and stood by my window.

Jane stood up from my bed and stood beside me with a guilty face.

''I just thought I should inform you, that's all. for the past two weeks I've been seeing him in almost every party I attended, and he has been asking about you asking me, to give him your number or tell him where you stay.''she did not finish before I cut her off

''And you thought it wise to come to me and tell me this?'' I asked confused

''I just…''

''You just what, Jane?'' I demanded in anger

''You know I have a mate, and even though I'm not attracted to my mate, a time will come when I will get attached and bonded to him. Why then do you keep up bringing Bernard's name in every possible discussion. You are aware Bernard and I can never be a thing. He is a fucking human, and I'm a werewolf who has a fucking mate, you of all people should know that.'' I spoke angrily, while Jane just stood there with guilt.

Sighing heavily, I left the window and aimlessly walked around my room

''I'm sorry,'' Jane whispered, almost to herself.

Taking a deep breath, I strolled up to her and placed my two hands on her shoulders

''I'm not like you Jane, you are fucking lucky, You did not know the kind of hell I went through for good three years because I was wolfless and had no ability, people mocked and cursed me and even my mate rejected me because he thinks I wasn't up to his standard. But right now, I have the opportunity to pay them back for all their deeds, and I don't want some stupid youthful desires to distract me. Bernard is a youthful desire, going to parties and getting drunk are youthful desires and I want to leave all that behind me, I hope you understand.'' I pleaded.

''Yeah, I understand, I apologize for going too far.'' She apologized and vanished away.

Taking a deep breath, I sat on my bed and my thoughts went to Alpha Derick. In as much as I hated him, I couldn't help but get worried about him because of the constant dream I've been having for the past two weeks.

I always dreamt of dead bodies scattered everywhere, while I kept calling out for Derick to know if he was okay, but there was never a response from him.

I might have a thing for Bernard, but I know it's just infatuation and lust, maybe it's because I haven't been this close to a man as hot and handsome like him, so it was normal for me to have lustful desires towards him, but all that are in the past, there is a lot ahead of me and I have to work towards it.

I stood on my feet and walked out of my room. I took the stairs downstairs before walked to the backyard, which was the training field. I got to the training field and met aunt Laura having a discussion with Austin.

''Is something wrong?'' I asked while standing beside Aunt

''Not really, but we just got information that the vampires had a gathering few days ago in France, but we don't know the purpose for the gathering.''Aunt spoke up with a frown.

''Maybe it's about the fight,'' I murmured in fear

''Maybe.'' Austin murmured, and no one said a word.

I knew aunt was worried, and a bit scared, even though she doesn't show it to us, I could still feel that she sometimes gets scared about this fight.

''You are doing well Vicky, once you get your wolf and abilities I will have to send you back to the moon pack to be with alpha Derick, they are so many things you have to learn together, and he also has to mark you as his.'' Aunt said those words and quickly looked away

''Mark me.'' I asked with wild eyes

''Yes Vicky, he has to mark you as his mate and also mate with you, before the day of the fight, that way your bound would get stronger, and your powers will reach its full potentials.'' Aunt tried explaining, but I wasn't taking it.

''No, never, I can't let him touch me. I still haven't gotten used to the fact that he is my mate, and now you are telling me this.'' I spoke angrily while shaking my head in disapproval.

''It's for your good and that of Derick's, but you two can decide not to do it, but remember mating together strengthens your wolves and makes it easier to connected with each other. I hope you think about it ''

''There is nothing to think about.'' I grumbled and walked away

''Never.'' I yelled angrily while walking away

I won't let him touch me, not after all he did to me. I can't just give my body to him just because he is my mate,He will will have regret everything he did to me, and I would make him suffer for it.

I went to the kitchen and took out a bottle of cold water, drank everything in the bottle before leaving the kitchen.

I walked back to the sitting room and noticed Jamal was in the sitting room with aunt, aunt noticed me coming and flashed me a big smile, which I did not return

''I was thinking you go into town With Jamal and take a walk, I know you must be feeling caged here since you haven't left the mansion for months.

''Thanks, I would really need a walk.'' I murmured tiredly.

Aunt nodded her head before she moved her gaze back to Jamal

''Be careful.''

''We are not kids mom, we will be fine,'' Jamal grumbled and led the way while I followed behind.

We left the house and got into the car before the driver drove off. Few minutes into the drive, Jamal spoke up.

''I know you've been leaving the mansion with Jane.'' I heard him but did not say a word to him because so many things were going through my head, and I wasn't in the mood to argue words with Jamal.

Tiredly, I relaxed on the seat and closed my eyes as my thought went back to all aunt said.

I can't imagine myself mating with alpha Derick after all he had done to me. Why must he be my mate, why him and not someone else. I grumbled softly and opened my eyes when I noticed the car came to a halt.

''Let have some coffee, this is father's favorite spot.'' Jamal said those words and got out of the car while I did the same

I came out of the car and noticed we were standing in front of a coffee shop, the door, and windows of the shop were made of transparent glass which one could have a pleasant view while having a cup of coffee.

''Let's go in.'' I nodded my head to Jamal and walked in with him.

We took the seat close to the transparent glass where we could vividly see anyone walking in and out of the coffee shop.

Jamal and I placed our orders and waited for it before I took that moment as an opportunity to know more about Jamal's dad because they hardly talk about him.

''Where is your father?'' I asked

''In Germany with his family.'' Jamal replied nonchalantly

''Family?'' I asked confused

''Yeah, he has a wife and a five-years-old kid.'' Jamal spoke up in a tone that shows he wasn't bothered about it.

I stared at him bewildered and didn't know what to say anymore. This was indeed new to me

''Stop giving me that pity look, we are fine about it and beside father isn't mother's mate, mom hasn't met her mate yet, so count yourself lucky for having a mate as alpha Derick.'' He spoke in a serious tone and took a sip of his coffee.

I rolled my eyes at his words before speaking up

''Why did he leave'' I asked curiously

Jamal took another sip of the coffee and shrugged his shoulders

''Mother said a day came when she lost control of her wolf. He saw her in that state, got scared and decided to leave mom because he thinks she might harm him someday.'' Jamal murmured,

''I'm sorry.''

''It's okay, he left when I was just six, so I'm already used to it. Drink your coffee. It's getting cold.'' Jamal flashed me a weak smile before looking away.

Sighing softly, I picked up the cup of coffee from the table and took a sip before I moved my gaze to the transparent glass, only to be choked with the coffee in my mouth by what I saw.

''Holy goddess, what is he doing here.'' I murmured as I watched him walked towards the entrance door with two men beside him.