Ryder sighed deeply as he ran his hand over my side. "I had a brother." Gulping I continued to gently caress his skin. "His name was Lucas but because of the difficult birth she had with me he died a couple of hours before she was able to give birth to him." I was in tears as I listened to his story and it seemed he was trying to keep his own back. "I was there when it happened. I saw how much it tore up both of my parents. The pain and heartbreak nearly killed my mother and I never want to see that happen to you." Sliding my hand from his neck to his cheek I gently move my fingers beneath his eyes to wipe the few drops of liquid. Turning his head he kissed my palm. "You still want and need an heir. No matter what I have to do, I want to give you that. As long at the end of the day I still have you. I love you Ryder." His lips land on mine as he pulls me impossibly tight against his half naked body. The second he entered the room I knew it wouldn't go further than a kiss, which was proven to me as he drew away from me only a few seconds later. "As much as I want you to conceive and carry our child, I will not put your life in danger." His voice was tense and I could feel, even as he said it, he couldn't protect me from something like that happening. "I don't want to ever leave you Ryder." Burying my head into his chest I press a kiss to his warm skin. His chest heaves heavily and he presses a kiss to the top of my head. "Get some sleep gorgeous and I'm sorry that it's all anyone can really talk about." Ryder was still giving off waves of stress and frustration. I felt that I should have been talking to him about whatever he was feeling but I knew he was worried about the rebels and the best thing I could do for him now was let him hold me and know that I was safe. Waking up in the morning was difficult, I didn't want to move but as I forced my eyes opened I noticed that Ryder wasn't next to me for the first morning in three weeks. Pushing up on the mattress I look around the room knowing that he's still somewhere in the suite with me. Since we had mated I felt even stronger and more connected to his wolf. I didn't even have to strain my ear's to tell that Ryder was in the other room shuffling papers around on his desk. Getting out of bed I slowly make my way to the other room. Ryder is sat at his desk shuffling papers around. He sniffs lightly sensing that I'm in the room with him and he smiles as I move over to straddle his hips. His paper work was forgotten as his hands moved over my bare thighs. "I want you so much right now." He groaned lightly as his hands moved up over my hips that were just covered by black lace panties. "I'm not stopping you." My hands slide up over his chest as I lean in close to kiss him. Ryder groans again and I feel his hands wrap around his shirt that was the only other thing that was covering me. His lips were moving slowly against mine but I wanted him to move faster. When he felt me trying to deepen the kiss he pulled back his hands stilling back on my hips. I whimpered when his lips retreated from mine and my fingers gripped the hemline of his shirt. "We can't now Lottie. The guards are close enough to be able to smell you. They will be able to hear everything and I don't want them hearing that, and I know it won't make you comfortable either." He chuckled when my hands froze against his chest, leaning forward he pressed a quick kiss to my lips. "That doesn't mean we're not going to be able to do it whenever we want. I'm not going to risk sending the guards to far away with the rebels out there. Of a night time though..." his voice grew cocky as warm fingers hooked around my panties to feel more of my skin. "The guards are on a different rotation and patrol the gardens more than our floor. That means you can be as loud as you want." Sinking my nails into the exposed skin of his chest and dragging down slightly I growl lightly at my mate. Ryder lets out a hiss and his hands shot out to grab mine to prevent me from marking him further. "I am not loud." Again Ryder is chuckling at me. "Oh, baby, but you are." I moaned lightly when he bucked his hips into mine. "You moan as I kiss my way down your gorgeous body but the thing I love the most is the way that you scream my name when I push myself into your ti– ," "For my, already questionable sanity, please don't finish that sentence." Reynolds says as the doors to the suite are pushed open. Ryder growls deeply from within his chest and his hands slide his shirt further down over my thighs. "He has his eyes closed Ry." It's my turn to chuckle at him now as he continues to watch his best friend enter the room with a stack of papers covering his face. Reynolds picked up a blanket from the back of the lounge and continued over to us with the papers covering his face as Ryder emitted light growls. When he was close enough, Reynolds passed the blanket over to Ryder and he quickly lifted me from his lap and wrapped the blanket around my shoulders. "Am I safe to look yet?" Reynolds questioned which resulted in a growl for a reply from Ryder. Turning back to Ryder I see that his eyes are black. Raising my hand I run it along his cheek, his breathing calms as he leans into my touch his eyes slowly swirling back to their normal colour. "Go get dressed, you have more training." "Training?" I question as Reynolds finally looks at the both of us as he drops the papers he had down to the desk. "I thought I was done with that." "I'll explain when we get to the training field. Please put on clothes that cover you." Ryder gently pushes at the small of my back and towards our bedroom. They're speaking in hushed tones now so I can hear that they're talking but I can't hear there topic. Pulling on a quarter length sleeved top that was long and covered me in the long tights, I walk back out of the room as I pull my hair up into a ponytail.