Chapter 35: False Alarm

I am wide awake. I don't know what time it is but I know it's already afternoon. I don't want to get up, I feel that I don't have the energy. My heart is still aching.

Why?

My body is heavy.

I just want to die, it feels like my life doesn't have any purpose. My life is a lost wheel. Nowhere to go and I am lost.

I didn't sleep, who can't sleep in this kind of state?

I feel so weak at loss.

I couldn't open my eyes, they were aching, I had been crying for the whole night and he didn't care. I also heard that he left the house at 3am.

He makes my heart ache more.

I really hate him for doing this to me.

I am hearing sounds downstairs. If a thief comes into this house, it's his problem and it's his karma.

I have no appetite.

I wiped my tears and went to the bathroom. I am angry. I want to eat.

I will look in the fridge if there's an ice cream. They say, eat ice cream if you are broken hearted.

I wash my face and go downstairs.

“In law, you are here too? I brought fruits for Shielyn.” I heard Mom’s Kier voice.

She is here? What is she doing here? Maybe she knows about us.

“Ah, yeah, I just want to visit them, I just want to see if they are okay.” My mom is here too.

What are they doing here? Maybe this is the right time to tell them what's going on between the two of us.

Arranged marriages will never work. My friend is right for saying it. She is in arrange marriage too and they got separated. She and her husband found their soulmate and they are happy now about their lives.

They once had a main lead in their story and now they are happy in their own story.

It’s better to end this too. I don't see any purpose of this marriage.

“Selene, daughter, how are you, huh?” Kier’s mom approached me. “You just woke up.” She kissed my cheeks.

“Did you brush your teeth?''Ask me. “Joke!” She kissed my cheeks too. “Why didn't you go home yesterday? I will cook your favorite liempo.”

“She just woke up, that's how pregnant is. They are lazy and always sleeping.” kiers mom said happily.

Pregnant? Who is pregnant? “Where is your husband? My son shouldn't leave if you are especially pregnant.

He should have a leave and take care of you and your baby.”

What is she saying? I don't understand. I am not pregnant.

“I brought you fruits, I bought all the fruits, I don't know what is your favourite.'' She showed me the baskets of fruits and they are a lot.

They sit me on the sofa.

My gasps. “Oh, you are pregnant, selene, daughter?” My mom looks shocked and tear-eyed.

“Yes, she is! They don't have plans to tell us this! If Layla didn't tell me until now, we don’t have any idea about it.!” Kier moms said.

“We are going to be grandparents!” My mom said, she is happy.

“Yes!” they cheered.

They both look happy.

“Layla, told me yesterday and I just went here because I prefer fruits and search for what fruits are the best for the pregnant woman.”

“Why didn't you tell me that you were pregnant, huh? That's why you are being emotional.” My mom said and fixed my hair.

“Let's buy clothes for the baby!”

“Yes! Yes! I hope it's a girl. It's so hard to raise a boy. They won't listen and do whatever they want.” kiers mom said.

“I want a baby boy, since my daughter is my only child.”

“Then let's pray it's a twin, one boy and one girl.” they clap their hands.

I cringe.

I still don't understand what they are saying.

They really look happy.

It's 6pm and they are still here. I don't know how to interrupt them and tell them the truth.

I am not pregnant! How can I be pregnant if we are both busy and tired from work.

Layla makes up stories again.

There's a part of them that I shouldn't make them sad and let them believe that I am carrying a child. I don't want to disappoint them.

Or should I pay someone to make me pregnant. I don't want to make them sad. It makes me feel guilty.

They are really happy and their topic is all about the babies.

"Selene, why are you crying?!" Kier's mom rushed to me when she saw me crying.

My mom and she are busy talking about the looks of the baby.

I am just here, sitting on the sofa and watching Peppa pig.

I wipe my cheeks. I didn't know that I am crying.

They rush beside me.

"Ay! You shouldn't watch a series like that! I don't want my grandchild to have big eyes." My mom scolded me.

It's evening and he is still not home.

Does he still have plans to go home?

Where is he?

I don't know what to reason anymore.

I cry in front of me.

"Heh! Heh! Don't cry, Selene.", Kier's mom hushed me.

"Let me call my son! What is he coming home?! Didn't he know that you are pregnant?! I am going to scold that child!" She called his number.

"Mom, I am just here, why are you calling me?"

That voice.

Where has he been?! I want you to tell me.

I was waiting for him.

"Son, what happened to you?!"

"This is nothing. By way, what are you doing here, mom?" He asked gently.

I am still not looking at him.

Don't look at me.

Don't turn around, Selene.

"Why did you get home just now, huh?! You shouldn't leave your wife!" Kier's mom scolds him.

"Stop scolding me and it's just fucking early mom." He answered annoyed.

"Okay, okay! You are old enough! You know what you are doing. Take care of your wife, since you are here. Don't stress her out." His mom warned her.

I turn around to look at him.

He is looking at me.

Our eyes met.

He loosen his tie, unbuttoning his grey polo sleeve.

He looks fine.

"Don't make her stressed or the baby will be stressed too."

His eyes furrowed.

I looked away and played with my finger.

"What baby?" He removed his coat.

He looks better than yesterday.

I look at his hand. His fist is bandaged and there's a small cut in his lips.

"Ay!" Mom reacted frustrated. "She is pregnant! How irresponsible you are!? I didn't raise you to be irresponsible!"

He raised his eyebrow. "Then congrats."

"What congrats?!" He pinched his ear but he didn't react.

"What congrats?! She is pregnant with your baby! You are going to be a father!"

"We haven't consummated our marriage." He hung his coat on left shoulder.

I am avoiding his stare.

He's making a sound on his knuckles and it makes me nervous.

He makes me nervous. It's like he is ready to punch someone hard in the face.

"What?!" Our parents reacted.

They look at me.

"I am n-not pregnant." I told them the truth.

"Selene!" My mother exclaimed. "We have been here since afternoon, why didn't you tell it earlier?!" My mom is the one who scolds me.

I look away. I was shy to tell the truth and scared to make them sad.

I bit my lower lip

I saw his face become relaxed.

"We are fixing our d-divorce papers." I told them while looking at my slippers.

I am scared to see their reaction.

"My goodness, Selene!"

"Son, is that true?!"

They both look shocked and they don't know how to react.

I look at him in my peripheral vision and he is just relaxing. While I am nervous to the highest level.

"Selene, my god! So, this is the reason why you came home crying?!" My mom yelled at me.

I shake my head.

"The two of you, you are giving me a heart attack." Kier's mom sits on the sofa and massages his chest.

"Mom, Momma. Can you leave us? We will just talk." Kier said in a pleasing tone.

"Yeah! Yeah! We better leave! You just gave me a heart attack!" Kier's mom.

"Kier, I know you are a good son , but we have words for each other." My mom reminds him.

"Yes, Momma." He answered.

Kier's mom pulled my mom.

They left and we are still silent.

This makes me feel awkward.

"Just leave the divorce paper in my office, if you already have it."

He is emotionless.

He is cold.

I want to hug him right now. I already miss him so much.

He became cold.

He used to be sweet to me.

"If you aren't going to say. I'll go to bed." He stood up and his coat was hanging on his coat.

That fast?

I was joking.

I want to punch him.

I threw the pillow on his back for him to stop from walking.

"I hate y-you!" I shouted as I continued to throw the pillows at him.

He faces.

"What's your problem? I am giving you a favor."

How mean he is.

I cried in front of him.

"I hate you to death! I hate you!" I go near him and punch him in his chest multiple times.

He is receiving my punches.

"Why is it okay for you to let go?!" Reproach.

"You gave me hope. One day you make feel that I am yours and the next day, you act that there's nothing to happen! I hate you! I hate that I have feelings for you! I hate that I miss you so much!... I hate you!!"

I yelled while crying. I am trying my best not to stammer.

"Why is it easy for you to let me go?! Why?!"

He is not reacting.

"You gave me false hope! I thought you loved me too! But I was all wrong. If I could turn back, I wouldn't have said yes to this bullshit arranged marriage!" I cried out loud.

"It's so painful here." I pointed at my heart weakly.

I am crying but he doesn't care.

"I hate you!"

I started to punch him but I am too weak. Less force.

"I hate you so-"

I couldn't finish my words when he pulled me and embraced me from a hug.

I cry harder.

Why is he hot?

I am burning from his hug.

His embrace is too hot.

"It's fine if you hate me but please don't divorce me, wife." He begged in a weak and lower tone.

"I hate you!" I murmured between sobs.

"Don't c-cry."

His hug is different.

There's something on him.

"I won't go to an overseas meeting, but promise me, you won't divorce me again." He said it in a difficult way.

"You forgot me! You prioritize your work over me. You are so busy that you forgot to call me! I thought you wouldn't come home-" I couldn't finish my words again when I felt his body fall into mine.

I tried to push him but his weight are all mine.

I put my palm on his forehead and he is hot. He is burning.

I gasp.

He is having a fever. That's why there's something on him.

I abruptly dialed someone.

"Please, come. Kier lost consciousness!" I said in fear.

"I am sorry." I apologize.

We are just two in this house. The driver sent our mother to their home.

"Please don't leave me." I whispered.