Chapter 115: Fatherly

MIA

He closed the door behind him while staring at me.

"Big Kai."

He moved his eyes to the crib.

I looked at the crib as well and then him.

He is still staring at the crib.

I walked towards the crib, claiming his attention.

I stood close to the crib, placing my hand on the edge.

Jay Jay is still asleep.

I looked at Big Kai.

He is staring at the crib.

"He is asleep," I said.

He nodded slightly, putting his hands in his pockets.

I hold out my hand to him.

"Come,"

He stared at me.

I nodded.

He walked towards me. He placed his hand on my mine and moved closer to the crib.

He rested his eyes on Jay Jay.

I stared at him as he stared at Jay Jay. He might not be showing emotion right now but I know he is in pain.

His eyes carry everything.

I can tell he wants to hold him too.

But Jay Jay is asleep. We can't wake him. Maybe tomorrow, he can hold him all day.

Jay Jay would love that.

I will love that.

I looked at Big Kai.

He is still staring at Jay Jay.

"That's your Lil Kai."

He looked at me.

I smiled, holding his arm.

I returned his eyes to Jay Jay.

I rested my head on his arm, rubbing it slightly.

"I feel like shit."

I looked at him.

He looked at me.

"I don't deserve to be his dad."

I shook my head.

"No, don't say that."

"I don't, shawty," he said, looking at Jay Jay.

"It is not your fault."

"It is."

"Your sister deceived you."

He scoffed. "I let her deceive me."

I stared at him.

He looked at me. His eyes scream a lot of the pain he is feeling right now.

"I almost killed him."

My heart clenched.

"I aimed my fucking gun at him while he cried. I almost killed him if not for Caleb."

I lowered my gaze.

He sucked his teeth.

"I was pissed. I was fucking pissed at the fucking news. That bitch made me kill my fucking cousin. Why didn't I see the fucking signs?"

I massaged his arm, consoling him.

He might not be crying but his words are similar. He is really grieving.

"I should have done another test myself. I shouldn't have believed that bitch. She fucking ruined my fucking life, shawty."

I held his hands, making him face me fully.

"It is fixed now, okay?"

He stared at me.

"Jay Jay is your son."

He looked away.

I held his face with my two hands, making him look at me.

"I am sorry about your cousin. It is not your fault. Imani pushed you. At least she has gotten what she deserves."

He scoffed. "I should have killed her ass too."

I shook my head. "You have had enough bloodshed. You did the right thing sending her away and stripping her of everything."

He stared at me.

"If she ignores your warnings and comes back here, you do whatever you want with her."

"Oh, I'm gonna fucking do it."

I nodded.

"I'mma chop her legs off. Nah. I'mma chop her entire body to tiny pieces."

Geez.

I nodded regardless.

"You will do whatever you want. But right now, I want you to be happy about Jay Jay." I said, releasing his face.

He looked at Jay Jay.

"You can get to call him Lil Kai again."

He huffed.

I smiled.

He looked at me.

"Jay Jay or Lil Kai. All of 'em," he said.

I chuckled. "Yeah."

He stared at me.

My heart raced.

He moved closer to me, making my heart race faster.

He held my chin, moving his fingers further to my cheek.

"Thank you."

I smiled, placing my hand on his which was still on my face.

"I didn't even think of doing a re-test. I am glad you thought of this and did it for me."

"I would do anything for you."

He rested his enchanting eyes on me.

I smiled.

"That's supposed to be ma line, girl."

I rolled my eyes.

"Well, it is our line now, boy." I teased.

He scoffed.

I chuckled.

He leaned closer to me and kissed my lips.

My heart and core throbbed at the same time as he moved his lips on mine.

I wrapped my hands around his neck and he snaked his hands around my waist.

I ran my fingers through his braids as we kissed passionately.

My entire body relaxed to the kiss and his hands around my body.

Slowly, he pulled away but rested his temples on mine as we caught our breath.

"I love you."

My heart is dancing to the words.

"I love you too," I said, smiling.

He pulled away, caressing my cheek softly.

"I gotta go to my room now," he said, withdrawing his hand.

I held it, stopping him.

"Sleep here instead."

He looked at the bed where Vicky was sleeping and then at me.

"Your bed is occupied."

"What about the floor?" I asked, gesturing at the floor close to the window.

He stared at the floor momentarily.

"We could sleep together if you uh.....if you don't mind."

He kept staring at me.

"I just....I would like you to stay here till Jay Jay wakes up."

He didn't say a word.

"You um....you don't like the idea of  sleeping on the floor?"

He moved closer to my ear, making my heart race faster.

"I fucked you on the gym floor, shawty."

My cheeks heated up as the gym moment filled my head.

He tilted away from my ear, looking at me.

"I don't mind a room floor."

I pursed my lips.

He winked at me.

I chuckled.

"I will go get bed sheets and pillows," I said, walking past him.

I walked towards the closet, opened it, and took out my spear sheets. I closed the closet and walked towards the bed.

I stared at him.

He is staring at Jay Jay.

I smiled slightly, staring at him.

I reached for two pillows carefully so I wouldn't wake Vicky.

I turned to walk towards the window side. I walked past him and got to the spot I would like us to lie on.

I arranged everything properly and then turned to him.

He is still staring at Jay Jay.

"Kai?"

He looked at me.

"It's ready."

He gave Jay Jay one last look before walking towards me.

I sat on the sheet as he approached. He undid his buttons, making my heart pick up.

He took off his shirt, exposing his perfect body. He tossed his shirt on the couch and joined me on the floor.

He lay on his back and rested his wrist on his forehead. I rested my head on his chest as he held me closer.

I moved my hand randomly on his abs as we lay there silently.

What Imani said came to my head.

I raised my head, placing my chin on his body and looking at him. He rested his eyes on mine.

I smiled at him slightly.

He caressed my hair gently.

I rested my head on his chest again.  He moved his hand to my shoulder, caressing it gently.

"Isn't Imani your blood sister?" I asked.

"Nah. My mama married her dad."

I furrowed my brows.

I looked at him.

"Really?"

"Yeah."

Whoa.

"She ma stepsister."

Geez.

"Mr Pete Kincaid, ma stepfather took us in when ma real family kicked us out on the fucking streets."

What?

"I was fifteen."

My heart tightened.

"Imani was ten. Her dad was good to us. He sponsored my education. Ma mama made us cook and clean for them as an act of appreciation. He fell for ma mama and we became Kincaids. He named me Nathaniel but I preferred Kai. I did a lot of things. Legal and illegal. Mostly illegal."

I moved my hand on his chest as he went on.

"I took care of the hood even though I wasn't with my real family. Bricktown was still my root. A lot of controversies stirred up but I pulled through. I had some OGs back in the day who mentored me. My stepfather died and I picked up full responsibility of ma mama and Imani.  I ended up growing my empire. Kincaid Empire. I named it after my stepdad to keep his name going."

I get it now why Imani was surprised to be stripped of everything about Kincaid.

"I changed Bricktown to the luxurious town that it is right now. I earned the name, Big Kai. Some call me OG and shit. All this while, I didn't think Imani could do this kind of shit to me."

I looked at him.

He is staring at the ceiling.

"She is an annoying woman. She has always been and I am used to her but I need fucking thought she would....." he paused, letting out an angry breath.

"Let it go," I said.

"She fucking lucky." He said, looking at me.

"Her ass is lucky. She should thank her fucking late dad cause I spared her because of him. And she knows that fucking shit."

"You have to let it go, Kai. The more you think about it, the angrier you become."

"Fucking bitch." He muttered.

"She is out now. She won't come back." I said.

"I wish she would. Then I will do what I plan to do without ma fucking conscience judging ma fucking ass."

I scoffed.

He looked at me.

I pursed my lips, suppressing my laughter.

"Sorry. You sound funny sometimes." I said, caressing his chin as he kee

"Just let it go, okay?"

"I already did."

"You know that's not true."

He stared at the ceiling.

I gripped his chin gently, making him look at me.

"For me?"

He kept staring at me.

"Let it go for me."

He placed his hand on my hair, pulling me closer, and kissed my forehead.

My heart fluttered as I rested my head on his chest.

He held me closer, making me feel secure and warm.

I love this.

I love him.

I love the way things are now.

With Imani out of this house, we will live in peace.

I can't wait for dawn.

I really can't wait.

NEXT DAY........

I opened my eyes slightly, taking in the bright day.

I closed my eyes and turned on the bed, still feeling sleepy.

Wait.

I am in the bed?

I opened my eyes and I saw Vicky sleeping next to me.

I furrowed my brows.

Where is.....

Jay Jay's voice caught my attention at the window.

I saw Big Kai, still shirtless but standing close to, and facing the window with Jay Jay in his arms.

I couldn't help but smile.

First time seeing this.

And it is beautiful.

Jay Jay isn't crying or being cranky as usual but he is literally reaching for Big Kai's braids.

I got out of bed and walked towards them. I watched as Jay Jay took one of Big Kai's braids in his tiny grip.

"Well, good morning Big and Lil Kai."

They turned to me.

I chuckled.

"You are awake." Big Kai said.

"Yep. And I found myself on the bed." I said, folding my arms.

"I wanted you to be comfortable," he said.

"Uh, duh. I was comfortable."

"You weren't."

I scoffed as Jay Jay said his meaningless talks to me.

"I know right? I told him I was comfortable but he said I wasn't." I said to Jay Jay.

Big Kai furrowed his brows.

I tilted my head to the side.

"You speak baby language now?"

I chuckled. "Yeah, I do."

He hummed.

"That's weird as fu....."

"Big Kai," I retorted, gesturing my eyes at Jay Jay.

Big Kai cleared his throat.

Smiling, I moved closer and caressed Jay Jay's hair.

I moved my lips to Big Kai, standing on my toes and pecking his lips.

"You two look good together," I said, smiling.

He looked at Jay Jay.

Jay Jay is playing with his braids.

"Maybe we could shave your hair and glue it to a doll for Jay Jay you know."

He looked at me with furrowed brows.

"Say what?"

I burst out in laughter.

"I see what you did there."

I kept laughing.

"You playin' with me right now huh?"

"Uh huh."

He scoffed.

A knock came on my door and it opened instantly.

"Mia, are you....." Coco trailed off the minute she saw us.