Chapter 37: Emotional Turmoil

Lily had suddenly become so furious it seemed as though she had become somebody else. Like she wasn't the same Lily who was dragging for everybody's rights. Yes, even though everyone would say that he is a different person, that James is a different person. He always had this intimidation. This intimidation that nobody could escape. Any woman who comes close to him, or even tries anything, always falls madly in love with his charm. And that was what happened to Lily that afternoon while she tried to warn Professor James. She had fallen madly in love with him and did not realize it until she had gotten home. 

Only for her to feel this rage, this kind of intimacy. She felt like she needed him. Even staring at his face back then brought her so much emotion that she could not control herself. Waiting for her to get home and really know what was going on. So she had fallen madly in love with this man. She felt frustrated as she stood in her room. She couldn't help but shout, feeling so much agony as she scattered things around. 

"I cannot be in love with Professor James. I am trying to protect women. I can't fall for my own professor even though he's so young and so handsome," Lily said to herself, unable to control everything she felt as she paced back and forth, thinking of a possible way she could get rid of those emotions. Just the way Isabella had tried her best to control herself but couldn't. It was happening exactly the same thing to Lily. Now Lily could understand putting herself in Isabella's shoes. She realized why it was very, very difficult for Isabella to let go of Professor James. 

Lily really felt so frustrated as she calmly sat on the bed, thinking maybe if she could meditate, she would be able to get over James. But all she could see was nothing but his face and the way he smirked at her despite her whining. During that time, everything just came rushing back to her, flooding back to her memories in ways she couldn't control herself. She tried her best to have a sign of relief, praying that everything would be resolved. But yet she was still thinking about him, unable to control herself. 

Just then, her roommate entered as she rolled her eyes. 

"What made you scatter this room? Do you know how difficult it is to arrange this room?" Beatrice said to Lily, who scoffed. 

"I don't care, okay? I am frustrated right now. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have made a huge mistake. Meanwhile, I was thinking I would be able to protect everybody. I was thinking I would be able to help everyone. But I cannot do it at this stage. I can't do anything. I am in a choked-up situation. In short, I can't move; I can't shake what is going on. I don't know what to do anymore. Please help me. Please do something. Help me. Professor James is taking over my mind," Lily pleaded as Beatrice felt confused. 

"What do you mean he's taking over your mind? Why would he be taking over your mind? Why are you thinking about him? What exactly made you think about him? What is so special about him?" Beatrice asked because, for a weird reason, they had always been arguing. Yet, because Lily was trying to expose the truth about Isabella and Professor James, all of a sudden she was unable to control herself around him. 

"I don't even believe you. You can't tell me you went to stand in front of him and try to warn him. Only for you to come back and you are falling in love with him. It is not possible. You need to remove that idea from your mind, okay? He is your professor, and you are trying to do the right thing. Do not make the mistake of doing the wrong thing. Because doing the wrong thing is even the worst thing you can ever do at this moment. Right now," Beatrice warned Lily. 

But Lily could not control herself anymore. 

"What do you expect me to do? Yes, I went there just as I planned, and I tried to warn him. But he is so fucking stubborn. He is so freaking stubborn. He told me he would not leave Isabella because he's obsessed with her. All of a sudden, I did not know what got over me. It felt like I was now the one obsessed with him. Unable to control myself even as I…..I couldn't help but feel angry and agitated at the fact that Isabella was easily able to get possession of him. And she did not even have to do anything. Meanwhile, I was here pleading and trying to make him understand. But yet he was acting so stubborn. All those things made me so frustrated. And that was when I realized I did not just want to stop them; I was actually so obsessed with this professor that I couldn't even control myself in his presence. And I did not want him to know. So I had no choice but to escape. I had to escape him." 

"I don't even know what to do at this moment. But I know one thing for sure: Isabella is not getting him. If I don't get him, nobody else will. It is me, and me getting Isabella out of the way. Too bad. I have evidence about her. I don't mind destroying everything just so that I can get him as mine. I don't mind doing anything. I am ready to go to any extreme to make sure that he sees me and he falls in love with me instead of her. Do you understand?" Lily said to Beatrice, who was confused. 

"You are really, really confusing me at this rate. Like you're making me feel in a way I can't even speak right. I don't know what to say to you, but you need to stop this, Lily. This is an obsession you're not supposed to be having. He's not someone you should be obsessed with. Find somebody else and be obsessed with, not him. I plead with you. Do you even know the kind of rage and war you are about to cause between you and Isabella? Because you have done everything in your might just to separate them. Only for you to come out of the blue and say you are in love with him," Beatrice tried to warn, but Lily was gone. 

Meanwhile, back in Isabella's hostel, Rachel was already enraged as she stormed out of the room. 

"How dare she? I was the one who tried to save her relationship. I have been the one telling her what to do, telling her how to save her relationship, only for her to come back with him and push me away like that. I was even trying to warn Alex. That fool. He didn't even realize it," Rachel said as she walked down the stairs, talking to herself. 

Just then, she bumped into Tricia, who seemed happy as she hummed a song while walking up, only to see that Rachel was angry. 

"What is wrong?" she questioned. 

"What is wrong? Oh, go upstairs and see that Isabella and Alex are back together," Rachel muttered as Tricia laughed. 

"Of course! I'm finally happy. I couldn't believe it. I knew that Isabella was going to change, but I never knew she would do it this quickly. I am so happy. She listened to our advice," Tricia tried to be positive, and it made Rachel even more angry. 

"Are you that daft? Why are you even happy for her? Why are you happy for her exactly? With everything she has done to Alex, she has cheated Alex. Yet Alex is so dumb. Yeah, I was trying my best to tell him that his stupid girlfriend is cheating on him, but he refused to listen. A stubborn fool," Rachel said as Tricia gasped and covered her mouth. 

"You can’t say that ever again. Why would you call him a fool? Yes, he loves her, but he is not a fool. Okay? I do not want to hear you say those words anymore, and I hope you are not planning on making any wrong move. Do not interfere in their relationship. Do you understand?" Tricia warned, hoping that Rachel would listen, but it was too late.