Chapter 115: Lily’s Thoughts

Hearing those words from Mirabel, Isabella became determined that she had to tell Alex the truth, even though she herself had no memories and just little glimpses of her past were coming back to her. She knew that she still had to tell him because it was obvious that the main point of all her memories returning was that she had cheated on Alex with James, and James still loved her. That was something she had come to understand.

But even though she wanted to tell Alex the truth, she still did not fully understand her feelings. Did she ever fall in love with James, or did she just act out of lust? She thought to herself, but she did not know what to do.

She stood in front of Alex, looking back at Mirabel, who was trying her best to avoid her gaze. Isabella knew what that meant, so she had no choice but to keep quiet before turning around and staring at the wall. Of course, she felt conflicted, even though everybody was so busy around her.

Alex walked towards her and placed his hand on her shoulder. "Did Mirabel say anything to you that you don't like? Did she question you? Did she ask you something you don't want to talk about?" he asked her, and she shrugged.

"Even if I don't want to talk about it, I have no choice. I still need to talk about it. I'm miserable, Alex. I'm miserable. I don't know what I did. I have no memories of anything, and everyone is literally pouring blame on me. What have I done so badly? Why am I suddenly labeled a bad person? I want to know exactly what I did. I need to know. It is very, very important," she said, tears welling in her eyes as Alex quickly engulfed her in a tight hug.

"You don't have to force yourself to remember things you don't want to remember. And besides, we both talked about this. You told me you were fine with going to the woman to find out what is wrong. We are going to do that, okay? Everything will be solved, and you don’t have to force your mind to remember things you don’t want to remember. Just relax and don’t force it, please. Do not force yourself to do things you don’t want to do," Alex assured her as she nodded, hugging him again even tighter. 

But her gaze was fixed on Lily, who had a smirk on her face. Just then, they took Lily to jail and locked her behind bars, but she stood there, still looking at Isabella. It was clear that Lily was at fault and would be tried in court, but another thing was that Isabella was still not feeling okay. 

She knew that in all her memories, she had glimpses of Lily—Lily being all nice and then Lily being all wicked. So she wanted to understand what bad thing she had done to Lily that made her turn from being so nice to wicked. She gently pushed Alex aside and smiled awkwardly. "I'm fine. You don't have to worry. I just want to have a little discussion with Lily," she said, and Alex nodded. 

She did not even wait to listen to Alex respond as she walked straight past him towards Lily. Lily could not help but smile. "What do you want from me? Why are you here?" she questioned as Isabella just smiled back.

"We've never really talked. Even though they are pouring so many accusations on you and saying you did so many bad things to me, we still have not been able to talk to each other. I want to get to know you. I want to understand why you did something like that to me. How was I your enemy?" Isabella began to question as Lily stopped her.

"Stop it. Stop acting all innocent. I don't need you here trying to put the blame on me. I know that I am a bad person. Yes, I did a bad thing by doing something like that to you. But you are also just as bad as I was, okay? You gave me no choice. You gave me absolutely no choice, and I continuously warned you, yet you never listened. But now everyone is suddenly labeling you as the innocent saint who did nothing while I am the bad person who did multiple things to you and tried to destroy you. I know that I was jealous, okay? That's it!" Lily said angrily to Isabella.

Not because she was trying to make changes or turn over a new leaf, or because she intentionally wanted Isabella to look like the bad person. She knew that Isabella was not going to be able to remember everything, so this was her opportunity to paint herself as the good person and make Isabella think she was really the bad one. 

Lily stared at her and could not say a word as she stepped back. "Do not worry. I promise you one thing. I will change. I will change everything. From every bad thing I did. I will make sure to tell the truth. I will tell Alex everything. Mirabel just had a little conversation with me, and she told me all the bad things I did. I will change my ways by telling Alex the truth. I think if I tell him the truth, then even you will find a place in your heart to forgive me," she said to Lily as Lily laughed.

"You really think Alex would forgive you? Alex would never forgive you because he asked you continuously. I remember Rachel telling me all the details of how he pleaded with you to tell him the truth, but you continued to lie. You kept lying like it was nothing, and I'm sorry but I will not let Alex end your engagement. I always remembered how you loved him so much," Lily said, hoping that Isabella would not tell Alex the truth because the moment she did, she would never be able to get James for herself.