“But isn’t Daniel your power of attorney? If something happens he’ll be too far away. He should be close in case a decision needs to be made. Baby I really cannot lose you.” He sees me starting to freak out so he gently pulls me in close and rubs my back cradling my head in his neck and I start to calm down.
“You will not lose me. I just have to do some physical therapy then I’ll be out of here before you know it doll.”
“I know you will baby, but I have to go home this Sunday and it is already Thursday.” His face matches how I feel right now. I don’t want to leave. We both knew that this would be a possibility once we finally saw each other, but I took the chance anyway. Actually I thought I’d be okay with staying this week and leaving and that it would be him not wanting me to go, but it looks like I was partially wrong. He doesn’t want me to go and neither do I. Now what do I do?
“You could move out here and find somewhere to work. I could support us for a while until you find a job here.”
“Baby you don’t have to do that but you’re very sweet. If I were to move here, I do have some savings so I would be pretty good for a while. Besides we do have an office out here that I’m sure I can transfer to but are you sure that we’re ready for that or is it just fear talking?”
“I think it is a little of both. I was so afraid of losing you.”
“Baby I’m the one that would have lost you. I was fine and in bed. I had made our reservations for dinner and bought our tickets online then….” I trailed off remembering that I never cancelled any of that stuff. I don’t care about losing the money or anything but it’s just funny how none of that crossed my mind during this whole encounter.
“What is it doll?”
“Oh nothing really. I just remembered that I never cancelled anything because I was so worried about you.”
“Well I will give you the money back that you lost.”
“No you will not because I don’t care about the money baby. I’d gladly lose it again if it means that you’ll be okay. Besides, it was only a few bucks for the tickets and as for the reservations, I’m sure the restaurant filled that spot when we didn’t show up.”
“Okay my Queen. Have you been sleeping?” Quickly I turn away from him and begin playing with my fingers.
“I know that you heard me Renee. Have you been sleeping and eating?” Ugh why does he have to call me by my name? Now I have no choice but to answer him.
“No, I haven’t been sleeping that well without you next to me. I eat because your friends make sure that I do. They escort me to and from the cafeteria like I’m a damn baby and won’t let me order anything that isn’t considered real food like sandwiches and salads.”
“Well they are just making sure that you take care of yourself. I’m glad they did that because I need my Queen to be healthy for when I get out of here. I have plans of keeping you awake for a couple of days.” He wiggles his eyebrows at me suggestively and all I can do is smile at him.
“Mister you will not be getting that kind of action anytime soon because you need to recover.”
“Do you want to bet that I won’t get my way?”
“What do I get if I win?”
“Whatever my Queen wants. What do I get if I win?”
“You already know what you will win since you’re making the bet.”
“Yes I do and it will be a great prize being between those thighs again.” Immediately I start blushing and I put my head down so he won’t see.
“Aww is my baby blushing? So cute doll.”
“Oh hush you. I need to order our food. What do you want to eat tonight?”
“Something with a steak I think. Don’t think I didn’t notice you changed the subject.” I blush some more and open an app on my phone to order our food then I put my phone away.
“Doll come sit with me.” I get up and sit down on his bed and he grabs my hands and holds them between his.
“Doll I want you in my life but I only want you to move here if that is absolutely what you want to do right now. I can wait for you.”
“I know baby. I need a little time to think about it and I’ll let you know but for right now I just want us to focus on getting you back healthy.” I lean down and kiss him gently then sit back up.
“Mmm I’ve missed your lips. I will be fine doll and once I’m out of here I will show you.” I just roll my eyes at him.
“You have a very one-track mind sir. Get your mind from between my legs and try to focus please.”
“But between them is a very good place to focus and to be from my experience.” He smirks at me and I begin blushing again.
“You are just too much baby. I know you love being between my legs as much as I love you being between them. Can I ask you something?”
“Sure doll, you know you can ask me anything.”
“Can you please not scare me like this ever again? First you were shot and now this has happened, and quite frankly I am tired of almost losing you. My heart can’t take anymore of this. I need you with me.” He pulls me close and I bury my head in his chest as he rubs my back and makes calming noises.
“Doll I promise to try not to scare you like this ever again. I know you were scared and so was I but I was scared of losing you not of dying. Guess what?”
“What baby?”
“I start my physical therapy tomorrow and hopefully I’ll be able to go home after two days of doing the physical therapy then I’ll do out-patient therapy.”
“That’s great baby. I can’t wait for you to get out of here.” I start to yawn and lean my head back against his chest.
“My Queen is tired. You should get some rest doll and I’ll let you know when the food gets here and wake you up.” I climb out of his bed and curl up in the chair that I was in and slowly starts to fall asleep.
When I wake up it is dark outside and I can’t really tell if it is day or night but I smell food and I can hear him talking to someone. I pretend to still be asleep until I hear his voice raise as if he’s yelling at someone. He shouldn’t be yelling because he is supposed to be recovering. This upsets me that someone is making him angry during this time. I start to get up when he says a name and it makes me stop. Why is he yelling at him?
“Daniel, she is practically dead on her feet. Why in the hell did none of you make sure that she was getting sleep?” I can’t hear the other side of the conversation but I need to put a stop to this because he can’t blame them for me not sleeping. Unfolding myself in the chair, I sit up and stretch before speaking.
“Baby please stop yelling and you can’t be mad at him for me not sleeping. I couldn’t sleep with you in here and not knowing whether you were going to be okay or not. If you’re going to be mad at anyone then be mad at me. I should have gotten more rest but it was hard. I’ve gotten used to my King being next to me at night so I was lonely and missing you. He did try to help me. He told me about the music playlist that you listen to at night and I tried it twice. The first time it didn’t work so well but once I knew that you were going to be okay it worked a little better. Now I need to eat because I am starving.” I kiss his lips gently then go to the bag to get my food. He had steak and a loaded baked potato with broccoli on the side and I had chicken fried steak with a loaded baked potato and corn and I ordered us each a soda. I sat in my chair and ate my food quietly while I listened to him talk to Daniel. When I felt him looking at me I looked at him and smiled then I mouthed “apologize to him” and went back to eating my food. I heard him apologize and then I finished my food and started cleaning up.
“Baby are you finished eating?”
“Yes doll.” I take his empty containers and throw them away while he ends his conversation with Daniel telling him that he’ll talk to him after therapy tomorrow.
When he hangs up his call, I am standing near the window just staring outside thinking. “I can’t move here right now. I’m just going back to work and there’s plenty that I have to get caught up on at my own office before I can ask for a transfer. On the other hand, I did almost lose him and what if that had happened while I was still in Louisiana? Would his friends have even contacted me or known about me to contact me? Are we ready for this kind of commitment, but more importantly am I ready? God I wish I knew the answers.”
“DOLL!” I hear my name practically being screamed and I turn around quickly walking back towards him thinking that he’s in some kind of pain or trouble.
“Yes baby I’m here. What do you need? Are you in pain? Do I need to call someone?” I’m frantically looking him over trying to find the source of his distress. I even check under the covers looking at his legs and feet and I know I must look very comical because he bursts out laughing and I look up at him confused from under the covers.