After a few hours of dancing and drinking we finally were ready to leave because my feet were starting to hurt and I was getting tired. I had a full day and was not used to being out so long but I don’t regret a minute of this day. We pay for our drinks and head back to the hotel and take a shower then get ready for bed. I turn on the television, mostly for background noise because I am too tired to do anything else tonight and he wraps me in his arms pulling me close and kisses me long and deep. Okay maybe I have a little energy for something besides sleeping, but when I try to sit up he chuckles and holds me tighter telling me to get some sleep. I start pouting and he laughs even louder. “Oh my Queen, what will I do with you?”
“I’m trying to do something with you but you won’t let me.”
“Baby we have all week to do that but you’re tired and need to rest. Get some sleep love and I promise to take care of it tomorrow.” I pout even more and he kisses my forehead and holds me close, rubbing my back gently. He knows that’s my kryptonite. Rubbing my back or head will get me to submit and he knows it the sneaky fox.
“That’s cheating baby. You know that will make me sleepy.” My eyes slowly start to close and I can hear him laugh softly as they finally close and I fall asleep.
That night I dream of marrying him and having children and the whole fairytale ending but then the dream changes and suddenly I can see myself sleeping in our bed and waking up to four men holding me down while one is on top of me raping me and two men are holding his slumped over bloody body against the wall across from me. The room is a mess like a fight took place before I woke up but how did I sleep through all of that and I can’t figure out if he’s unconscious or dead. The men holding him and me are laughing while the guy on top of me is making grunting noises as he repeatedly thrusts inside of me. I’m crying and screaming but not because of what he’s doing to me, I’m like this because I am trying to get Jameson to wake up and let me know if he’s okay but he never answers me. Suddenly I’m jolted awake and sat straight up in bed screaming. Arms are around me rubbing my back and holding me making calming noises and telling me that I’m okay. There’s tears falling down my cheeks and I can’t get them to stop. He tells me to calm down and that it was only a dream. When I finally focus on him I hold him tight and cry into his shoulder. He lets me cry and holds onto me a little longer then asks me to tell him what the dream was about and I tell him. When I’m done he has this fierce look on his face that I’ve never seen before, not even in our video chats, and he tells me that he would never let that happen and I have nothing to worry about as long as he’s around. As scary as he looks right now I feel very safe and I’m not scared of him but I am scared for anyone that ever tries to harm me. During our talks he told me that he was in the Air Force but up until that moment I only saw him as a regular guy I guess you could say but now I’m seeing the “fighter” I guess you could say in him. He was and technically still is a Captain but he’s retired now. His friends told me that he was the toughest in their unit and nobody could touch him in competitions. Yeah my baby is a real badass. I didn’t learn that much more from them because he showed up and said it was time for us to go. He left me with them for a little while. Now that I think about it, that must have been when he bought the necklace and bracelet, or went to get it from its hiding place.
Finally I calmed down enough for us to go back to sleep. He let me lay on top of him as he rubbed my back and it was surprisingly calming. I think that will be my new favorite way to sleep. God this man is making it so hard for me to be able to go back home. How in the hell am I going to be able to go back to sleeping alone after this visit? Well I’ll have to just get used to it because there is no alternative at the moment. My breathing finally starts to calm enough for me to sleep and I hear his breathing calming as well as I slowly fall asleep again.
The next morning I awake to the smell of bacon and eggs and coffee so I sit up in bed but I don’t see him anywhere. “Baby?” I don’t hear the shower and I quickly get up and look around the room but I don’t see him anywhere and I return to the bedroom and sit in the bed. Maybe he changed his mind about staying with me after the dream. He could have at least said goodbye. I grab the tray of food and see that there’s a note there addressed to me, so I pick it up and begin reading.
“Good morning doll. I’m sorry that I’m not there when you wake up but I have to go home and handle something then I have to go to my job for a few hours. I took off to be with you but they really needed me to come in and help out for a little while. I promise that I’ll make it up to you later tonight. I love you so much my Queen. Try not to miss me too much. I’ll be back as soon as I can and we’ll go see a movie or something. Pick something out for us to go see.”
Love Always,
Jameson
Reading the letter has me sad at first that he had to go but I understand and I smile as I start to eat my breakfast and look up movies on my phone to watch. I finally find a movie and look up the times picking a late show so we can have dinner before and then just come back here afterwards. I’m not really in the mood to stay out late again tonight. I pay for the tickets online and then look for a restaurant that serves seafood since that’s what I’m in the mood for and make reservations then take a shower and just lay in bed relaxing. I must have fallen asleep watching my favorite show because I wake up hours later to my phone ringing and when I answer the call I must be still asleep because what the person tells me is definitely a nightmare.
“Hello?” It’s a number that I don’t know but I know the area code because it is the same one that Jameson has and a man tells me something that changes my entire mood.
“Hey Renee, this is Daniel. Can we talk?” He’s one of the friends that I met the other day. How does he have my number? Maybe Jameson gave it to him for emergencies or something. I don’t let myself think about it too much though because of the tone of his voice. It sounds very serious.
“Sure. What’s going on?”
“It is about Jameson, he is currently in the hospital being treated for his injuries.”
“What injuries? What happened?”
“A pallet collapsed from the third floor and fell on him and someone else.”
“OH MY GOD! Is he going to be okay?”
“They’re trying to stabilize him now. He’s been labeled as severe, close to critical as of now.”
“Okay. Can you keep me updated until I can get there? Just give me some time to get dressed and text me the address.”
“Of course ma’am. If you need to talk I’ll be here.”
“Thank you so much for telling me.”
“Of course you're welcome.”
I get dressed and hurry to the hospital as fast as I can without getting a ticket just to be told that I can’t see him because I’m not a family member. That hurts but I have to obey the rules because causing a scene and getting thrown out of the hospital or in jail for disorderly conduct would not be good for the situation so instead I have a seat with his friends in the waiting room and finally the tears fall. The girl in the group of friends comes over to me and hugs me, letting me cry. I’m mostly angry that I can’t see him than sad. I just want to scream. Why can’t they see that we are his family? Well Daniel is actually allowed to go in because he was listed as his emergency contact and is power of attorney. That’s good at least.