Chapter 219: Chapter XLVIII-4

He once told me it was lust that could ruin, but the right kind of desire that could cure. That cure I had found in him. And he in me, there was no doubt in that.. I just couldn't understand what had him holding back before. He perhaps thought I was mad to wish that kind of forgetting, or it simply frustrated him when I tried turning his anger into an insatiable wish that I knew neither of us could resist.. And I didn't fail to. He was kissing me like he had found his salvation in that kiss.. Having me take a few steps back until I felt the solid wall at my back.. Ravishing my lips like he was explaining angry words, yet having me melt against him like it was rather a serenade his lips performed. Hands on my hips and down my leg, and kisses that found their way from my lips to my neck within seconds.. It was the moment he pressed his hand against the wall behind me that made me feel truly trapped, having me release a sigh of a further wish, a rather gasp that was almost as desperate as a plead. And he knew what I wanted.. I wanted to make him forget about that plan for a second, forget about the anger towards me because I was a part of that plan.. And I wanted myself to forget the past few events that could've meant my own ruin if I didn't have him by my side.. I was yet to show him just how thankful I was.. For simply having him as part of my life. It was when he pressed his lips against my ear that had me holding my breath, when his kisses stopped and his raged breath gave me chills.. It almost made me smile at the closeness I was able to trust with him.. But his words didn't allow my smile to find its way on my lips.. "Come back to me, alive and well, and I will make you forget your own name, Lana." It was his hand that soon gripped my chin, his breath that I felt move against my own, having me open my eyes and look back at the pitch black pearls. "But don't ever think that I will love you like it's your last night on this Earth." With letting those words be his last, he pushed himself away from me and the wall, taking a few steps back while keeping his eyes on me.. And then with a simple turn, he left the room like he had never entered. But he had. My lips were still pulsing from his demanding kisses.. My mind still repeating his words over and over again. Words that I wished to trust in, but still had that hesitation circling around in my stomach.. Perhaps he was right. I was just desperate to forget. And yes, I did want him to love me like it was my last night. But with those last words, he managed to have them finally carve in my brain.. If I come back to him, I'd be forever his. ~ "I will not have my brothers harmed. So they will not know of this.. Of any of this." I sat up and walked towards the window. "My father's most trusted men have already showed their loyalty to me, when they agreed to a further allegiance. My uncle has also agreed to follow me, and that is enough people, adding my mother's pack that will also keep our back." The whole day we were going through the plan. I had barely slept that night, and many before that.. But this one.. Hell, it was even harder to shut off. After the argument with Christian, I wasn't even able to stop thinking about it.. He came to bed, a bit after he left. He didn't know I was awake. It was the feel of his hand caressing my hair, before pulling me in his arms that had me soothed.. That gave me the kind of encouragement I needed. That had me fall asleep the very instant I felt him near me. I knew he didn't approve of our plan.. That he refused to think it was our last night together. But that wasn't the case. I just wished he could understand that. "It's more than enough." His gaze was locked on mine as he spoke.. Long enough to be meaningful. And it was the first words he had said that were approving. "And the Vesnetsovs?" It was Amelia that asked, having me walk back towards the table to look at the maps.. "I don't trust Alexander, despite the vows he swore to my father. The marriage did not happen, meaning that he is not bound to my family in any way." "He has fled. There hasn't been a word from him ever since the attack." Of course Dimitri would know such things.. He knew everything that was going on in Venedocia, Moondale and beyond.. "And his pack?" I found myself ask, looking around the map and wondering where Alexander could've gone.. It was understandable to be terrified after what happened. He must've thought that he was next on the list. Everyone had heard about the death of my father, and the loss the whole pack was going through.. It was no secret. But Adam was surely not after Alexander. Even though he had the necklace. Calliope claimed the necklace was out of no use.. For killing Adam. But for rising him, it was possible. So everything we thought was wrong.. That the necklace was Adam's weakness.. Hell no, it turned out to be his strength. And he was after it not because he wanted to destroy it, but because it was what was keeping him alive. "They've separated.. Those that decided to stay loyal to their Alpha and wait for his return.. And those that need a new leader." Dimitri explained, and soon I had all eyes on me.. "Which is you." Christian's voice took my attention.. His words had me look at him in disbelief.. He never doubted in me, I knew that, but he most definitely wasn't a supporter wither, thinking that I might end up dead.. "They will swear their allegiance to you. I'll make sure of it." There was no doubt that he would make sure of it. They all feared him. But if I was to lead them, it was me they had to talk to. I was just glad Christian and I were finally on the same page.. Which had changed over night, but still.. We had to discuss it later. So I gulped down and found myself asking. "By tonight?" "By tonight."