Chapter 46

But I knew that was nothing but my animal instinct not wanting to believe that she was dead. Deep down, I already knew it. She was gone. I could not feel her pulse. I don’t think anyone would be alive going through that. “Sure, you need to see this” the physician said snapping me out of my thoughts. “No” I said shaking my head vehemently. I did not want to see her like that at this moment, at least not like that. I looked down at my hands that rested on my thighs as I stayed in a kneeling position. “leave me” I growled out tightening my already formed fist.“please your-“ I snapped my head to his direction, ready to pull off his head from his body. “I said I don’t want to see it any more!” I yelled, standing up to my feet which seemed a bit difficult because of how heavy my cloth felt from the soaked blood of my mate. “…are you so deaf that you cannot hear my request?!” I said moving a little bit closer to him. “Sire!” my second in command, Allen, said, halting me in my steps. “I believe what he is trying to say is that, they found something unusual with the Queen’s death and it would be best if you see to it.” I looked into his eyes for a whole minute, trying to process what he had said, before I nodded my head in agreement. We walked briskly, or at least I did while the rest tried to catch up with my steps on the way to the infirmary. “What is it that I need to see?” I asked as I felt sick already standing beside the bed where she lay. Her blood on my body making me feel heavier as I look at her motionless and skinless body. “I checked her nails and some of her joints while cleaning her up, sire” he, the physician said, trying not to stutter. I found out that it was a forced shit back to her human form.” He said making me look at with confusion. “How does that mean anything to me? You called me out to tell me that worthless information?” I could feel my canines elongate and the urge to sink my teeth in his neck seemed to grow by the minute. “Why don’t you just skip to the important part” Allen said, stepping in between us in order to block my path to the Forsaken fool. “Wh.. what … what” I was loosing it. My second must have sensed it too because he immediately said. “You need to calm down and speak. You are putting us in suspense and it is very much not appreciated.” He said looking back to me and then back to the man, as if to prove his point. “She was killed in her wolf form.” He said in a tensed voice as if scared that I was going to loose it and honestly, I was. The room was silent after he said it. We all know what had happened if she was killed in that state. It was simple. Humans killed her. They had skinned her for her fur. I tried as much as possible to bite back the bile and anger I felt from the news. “And one more thing sire.” I could literally see the sweat that dropped as he waited for me to give him the permission to speak. “She was with child.” I lost it after he said those words. Everything went black. The only thing I know was when I got back to my senses, the physician was dead and Allen was badly injured and holding me from the already dead body. “By the goddess!!” he swore at me, looking at me with fearful and annoyed eyes. “Leave me be this instance!” I growled out. “He is already dead. There is nothing more you can do. Besides, he is not the one that killed your mate” his words ran like cold water down my spine. I knew she wasn’t coming back. But even for a moment, I needed someone to blame, someone to be held accountable for my mate’s death. But as I say on the floor, looking at the dead body of my mate, I realized that there was no one to blame but my self. If I had said no to her going out to the woods, if I made the maids get the fruits instead, then she would still be by my side. Slowly, as the thought settled in my mind I could not lose my mind bit by bit.

“She is not meant to have this much visions at a time!” I could faintly hear Melissa scream from panic

“what are we to do?” Eric’s voice came.

“Can you hear me?” I heard Melissa's voice again.

She shook me to my core but nothing.

“You can not! Close your eyes” she shook me awake again

“My head…. It hurts” I whispered. Everything in the room seemed to be heightened. The sound, the air. Even the lights were brighter. And my eyes were closed.

“whats that smell?” I asked, trying to shake the pain away so that I could focus on the smell

It was a mixture of old spice and blood.

It was coming from Eric’s direction.

“You smell… of blood.” He looked at me confused.

“She’s changing” Melissa said. A look of realisation hit Eric and then he held me up and Carried me from the bed bridal style.

“where are you taking her!” the laid back and cruel Melissa said. She tried hard to cover up her fear with annoyance and frustration, but I could see right through her.

“She needs open field if she is changing we don’t know how her other side would be.

I was confused.

Other side?

Changing?

All these words seems familiar yet strange to me at the same time.

“What do you guys mean by…AHHHHH” It felt as though my hands were pulled out from their original position.

“What’s happening to me!!!” he laid me on the floor outside where the grass felt soft under my hands. It temporarily pulled me away from the pain I was feeling.

“Ely love, please listen to me” Eric’s voice was like the warm sun just after winter. It was calming. “I’m sorry. Okay. You were dying. It was either watch you die or change you. And I would rather have you hate me and you live than for you to die.” He said hurrying his words that i.could barely get the boys of what he was saying.

“I don’t understand, what do you mean” I said panting.

I just wanted this pain to end.

“Don’t fight it. Just take deep breaths. I promise not would be fine” he didn’t seem so sure of the promise he just made.

“what do you mean by I was dying? What did you do to me? “ my voice trembled from fear. I felt the pain intensify and I heard screams surround me. It took me a while before I could recognize that the screams were mine.

“Please just calm down and breathe. I promise it would be fine