Chapter 37

“What’s on your mind?” Eric’s voice rumbled as we were still in the hug.

“It… it’s nothing, just a stupid thought” I said dismissing it. “Come on, nothing you thing is silly” he teased. “ You know you can always talk to me ? Right?” I nodded my head yes, even though I was skeptical about it.

“What’s the thought then?” He asked. He seemed like he wasn’t going to let it go. I sighed.

“Would you… “ I kept quiet after that, thinking of how to word it properly.

“Eric, how do you feel about me?” I asked, almost face palming in the process.

“What do you mean by how do I feel about you” he said giving me a look of confusion.

“No, not that. Look” I sighed, trying one more time. “look, I know that you live me and all now, but what if, one day you switch up on me, what if you wake up one day and see that I am not what you really want?” I could not remove from my mind the image I saw when he found out that his former mate was dead.

He looked so crushed, so broken, like he didn’t want to function anymore, he basically couldn’t.

He took my hands in his, entwining our fingers together. “Eloise” he said looking me straight in the eyes. *Look, I don’t know what might happen in the future, but I am sure of now. I am sure that I don’t want to let you go. You are. ….” He paused, making sure that he had my attention. “You are home. I want to wake up every morning to see you” he smiled a bit. “the moment you were gone…” he took a deep breath, his eyes hardening a bit. “When I thought you were gone, I didn’t know what to do, but I knew one thing” he cupped my face and looked at me. “I didn’t want to live and I thought, even for a little moment about death. And that says a lot cause even though I lost the will to live after Solaria, I never once thought of ending myself.”

I knew it was selfish, but I felt a little more relief when I heard the last part. “So yes. I don’t know about he future, but I know that In this moment, right here, and right now, I’ll die before I let you go” he said then wrapped his hands around my waist and pulling me closer to himself.

“Can we… lay down?” I said in a low voice. He nodded and gently led me to the bed. I almost did not feel myself move.

I felt warm, calm and safe in his embrace, I did not expect to feel this way. I remember how my mum always loved cuddles. .she was never a touchy feely person, but when it came to my dad, she was a while different person. I felt a little sting inside my chest.

I let him kiss me, it was a welcomed distraction that I didn’t know I needed.

“Do you…” he paused, as if waiting for me to catch on to what he was saying.

“Huh?” came my famous reply.

“Do you want us to, you know take it deeper? I just.. want to be closer to you” I felt my stomach have a dance party as the bats escaped my stomach.

“Yes” I said in a low voice. He pecked my neck again, going further into the valley that was my breasts.

“E.. Eric.” I moaned unable to hold it in.

“Shhh” he said putting one breast into his mouth. My eyes rolled to the back of my head as I tried my best to keep the sounds in.

“I want to hear your sweet voice.” He mumbled going from one breath to another.

“W.. was.. wait” I yelled in pleasure and fear, but he didn’t stop. His hands travelled down south. Stroking me through my underwear. I shuddered.

“s.top” I said but my brain wanted nothing more than to continue. I wanted him to keep in doing what he did to me”

“Are you sure about that?” he said, stroking me through my underwear again.

I moaned. Unable to say no I wanted him so bad, I felt as though I was going to die if he did not continue.

All of a sudden, everything stopped.

It was like I was thrown from the top of a cliff into a cold pool

“You… you stopped.” I stammered, looking at him like he was holding a knife to my throat.

“You said I should. I don’t want to push you over the edge. I have to respect your wishes, no matter how much I want to do the opposite.”

I could tell that he was teasing me. Either that or he was playing tricks on me.

“but… I… I want” it was embarrassing to say in the least.

“You know love, you can tell me exactly what you need. I’ll be Happy to comply” he said looking at me as if expecting me to break.

I looked at him, ready to explode. How was I going to tell him that I wanted, no needed him without sounding like a needy fool?

“Eric… you can’t do this” I said, the annoyance was evident in my voice.

“do what love?” he said Looking completely innocent. I hissed a total of thirty times in two minutes because of the frustration that held me at a choke hold.

“I have a meeting to attend to. I’ll meet you later” he said, standing up and trying to move out.

“yeah, you do that. I’ll have someone complete the job.” I said and watched him freeze in his spot.

He rushed towards me with a speed I could not handle and pushed me further into the bed.

“what did you say?” his wolf was in the surface.

Good' I thought to myself as I watched him loose control due to anger.

“Do you need me to repeat myself? I said I would find someone to…” he cut me off with a growl.

“Listen. You rather not do what I think you want to do. I’ll kill the person and make you watch. I promise I would do it in the most gruesome way ever. Don’t test me Elly” he just threatened to scar me for life, but for some reason the only thing I could think about was how my Nick name rolled off his tongue which was a turn in for me.

I held his face.

“Say it again, call me that name again” I said a little out of breath he seemed to be a little confused, so I kissed him. I kissed him like my life depended on him, and for a while it did.

“I love how jealous you looked just now. And I love how you called me Ely” I said biting my lips. I probably looked like some unseasoned cow right now with the way I bit my lips, but I didn’t care. Eric was jealous. He was ready to kill for me. And that was all that mattered. His lips was all I needed at this point.