Chapter 30

Eric led me into the house.

“Hey” I called in a low voice. “I am sorry about our first date. I was pissed, my dad died and my mum… my mum is not sane. It was a lot to take in, and then I didn’t know how to process it. I am sorry…”

“Hey hey hey” he said shushing me calmly. “It’s totally fine. I shouldn’t have told you about that, or even put them there in the first place. They are your parents no matter what, and I should have respected that.” He said then hugged me. “And I am sorry about earlier. I shouldn’t have expected you to act a certain way. I am aware now that I do compare you to Solaria and I know that thee would always be a special place in my heart. But I’m with you now. I should be glad that I have someone like you to call my own, and not try to change you to be someone else.” He said all these while holding my gaze.

I lowered my head. This was the first time someone was considering me this way. Someone other than my parents and Anna that is.

“About that date? How about we have another one? My treat this time.” I blushed at him shyly. He nodded.

“Tomorrow then?” he said with an excited going in his eyes.

“Sure.” I winked. “I’ll pick you up” I joked and went into the room for the night. “Care to join me?” I won’t lie, I really enjoyed his company before I slept off the previous night. And I wouldn’t mind it again. Only this time, I would want him to wake me up.

He looked nervous again.

“I thought you would want your space or something” he said giving a nervous laugh. I felt my heart drop to the puts of my stomach.

After the speech he had given me earlier, I bought he was going to want to be so close to me with every waking breath that he had.

“ you don’t want to be near me do you?” I said trying not to sound disappointed, but it was evident in my voice.

“Eloise…” I waited for him to give me an excuse, anything, I was ready to take whatever excuse he was willing to give but no. He just stood there looking at me like I was some weirdo.

“forget it. I can’t act like I don’t care. It hurt me the last time you did this but u was willing to let it slide, and you are doing it again…. “ I swallowed my words, before I was going to say something I was going to regret. “Don’t worry about it” I smiled.

I turned to enter the room, about to slam it, but he stopped me.

“Eloise.” He called. I hated the way my body shuddered anytime he called my name.. “I am not ignoring you, far from it,” he Looked at me, his eyes desperately begging me to believe him.

“It doesn’t seem like it.” I said giving him a sad smile.

“Its just… look” he sighed.

“I’m in heat.” He could have turned several shades of red if not for his tanned skin.

“What?” I had heard of the word before, but it was still slightly unfamiliar to me.

“I am in heat.” He said like it was going to help me understand what the fuck he had just said. “ it means..” he said trying to explain when he saw that I didn’t follow. He looked at me, hesitant to tell me what it was. “My instincts are to be inside of you and feel you up till you’re filled to the brim and spilling over with my sperm. To have it smeared in your body till your body is silk with it, to have you scream my name till your lungs almost collapse from the lack of air and then have you begging for more like some slut. He seemed to take a step with each word that he said.

I did not know how, but I found the words to be disturbing but at the same time a turn on. “E..Eric” iz moaned, biting my lips to stop the moans from coming out.

At this moment, his eyes had turned darker, his muscles more defined, begging me to run my hands through them.

He stopped in his tracks, shook his head and looked me in the eyes. This time, his eyes were clearer. “I’m sorry. I am not in total control of myself right now”

I was so close to telling him that I didn’t mind. I didn’t mind him doing all the things his dirty mind had just imagined.

“I am trying to go at the slow pace that you need and I promise I am not trying to overwhelm you. I am trying as much as possible to respect your wish.”

I nodded. *So you can understand why I don’t want to sleep with you. it’s not because I don’t care enough about you, or anything of that sort. It’s because I don’t think I would be able to control myself around you” I nodded again, still not being able to fully comprehend what he was saying.

“good night baby girl” he said in a deep voice. It didn’t sound like his own.

“Eric” I called. I saw how much his body tensed up. As if stopping himself from doing something.

“ I want a good night kiss” I don’t know what pushed me to say it, or what made me say it. But I didn’t regret it. Not with the adrenaline pumping through my body and making me high.

One second he was frozen, and the next he was in my front, directly looking me in the eyes. “Are you sure about this?” his voice had completely changed to a voice three tones deeper. And his eyes were a completely different time.

I didn’t say anything, I couldn’t. I just grabbed his face and slammed my lips to his. I was in a different heaven. He quickly took over from me, grabbing me by my butt and then hoisting me up. He held me effortlessly. We broke apart for air, well I did. He looked like he wasn’t fazed or out of breath but the kiss.

“I want you” he said looking me straight in the eyes while rocking his hips around my core. I swallowed my tongue and just went in for the kiss. I heard a tearing sound and a soft feel beneath me.

Bed.

My mind registered.

I continued to kiss him with everything within me. There was no going back now. Soon, he left my lips and reattached himself on my breasts.

I wasn’t expecting it as it had not registered that it was my shirt he was indeed ripping apart.

“I want you Soo bad” he growled.

Soon, he pushed himself away from me just when I was feeling like I was reaching my peak.

“I am sorry” his voice was no longer as deep, and his eyes were back to normal. *I can swear it was not my doing” he said in a panicked voice and rushing out, not even giving me a choice to explain that I might have infact enjoyed it…..