Chapter 93 CHAPTER 93
My heart hammered at the fact that I may have gone ahead and worsened the predicament I found myself in. I couldn't help imagining what our child would look like, long hair, probably a mix of my white streak and his dark strands, maybe a little dimple and a bright smile but then, the rest of reality came crashing down and it fizzled away.
The responsibility, the fact that my child might go through the same madness I went through on earth.
If I got pregnant, then I'm stuck here, no gainsaying that.
But being pregnant for the library instructor wasn't a walk in the Park either. I would be ridiculed, and I would never ride a dragon.
I didn't even know when I started wanting that but then, isn't that the whole point of all of this? Crazy considering how terrified I still am of heights.
But that was a problem for a different Alira, for now, I just had to figure out how after pills worked in Drakkonia. I wanted to ask Zade, he's very understanding and all but then, I feared he'd take it badly, he already felt rejected by me.
And I guess it would just… cement everything.
Baby talks were for couples in a settled state in their relationship, I barely know the man's middle name. Fine, I should have asked that before climbing his tree but talking about it would make everything feel more real, like I'd made the decision to stay with him and the children, even if they won't come now, they will come soon.
I should want that, in fact, I do want that.
But I also want it with them.
Guilt racked my body and I rolled into his body.
“Hmm, you want more?” He chuckled and his hands began wandering down my body.
I let him, afterall, it was the best sexual experience of my entire existence. If I eventually get to leave, I'll want to have as many memories of it as possible.
Zade had explained the scales, it was his marking on me but it only managed to worsen my fear.
Everyone will know we've bonded.
EVERYONE!
My heart hammered as I prepared to head back. I'd spent the past two days in his house, in his bed, with him inside of me most of the time. His family had tried to get me out to join dinners but I feigned sickness all through and got all my food in here. Zade's plan to move house was in motion but his mother insisted I must rest some more.
But I woke up this morning determined to bring down the entire walls of this building if I wasn't allowed to go back and tell the girls I wasn't dead or something and thankfully, I didn't have to. She'd deemed me fit to go but with warnings and all of the stuff human doctors loved to do to assert dominance.
“I'm scared,” he suddenly whispered and I turned sharply to see his form sitting at the edge of the only couch in the room.
A one seater.
My cheeks warmed at the memory of us on it.
But I looked at his eyes and it all dissipated.
“What's wrong?” I asked, heading to him.
“I feel like I rushed you. You were vulnerable and I took advantage of that. It wasn't intentional, I swear by the old gods but I fear once you leave here, you will become distant again.”
“Oh you worrywart,” I rolled my eyes and pushed him back and sat on his lap, “I'm not going anywhere. At least for now. I plan to spend all my free time in and on top of you until you get tired of me.”
“You promise?” He asked with a small smile.
“Yes, now come help with these ropes before your Mom comes back in with those suspicious eyes of hers.”
“I don't even know why you bother hiding, everyone already knows what we did.”
“Everyone?” I gasped, mortified.
“I'm sorry Sunshine but your voice was quite loud at that last one. Whoever didn't hear before definitely got an earful.”
He said all of that with a straight face by the way.
We'd gone through the entire room at different times having sex in different positions.
His room was a cluster of books and very little personal stuff because he spent most of his time away from his own house which left very little… positions but we were creative.
I didn't even know I had that part of me, but Zade made me so comfortable and free that I discovered a freaky side of me.
I'll blame him and my pussy for that, for now, I needed to figure out how to face the entirety of his family who now know what I sound like getting fucked.
Not a good impression to leave on the first meeting I'm sure.
“When you worry, I fear you'll bite off your lip,” Zade said with a smile.
“I'm not worried,” I defended
“Yea sure, that crease on your forehead is a decoration. There, done,” he said, finishing my dress and then he pulled me back to his lap. “Almost everyone in this house is at least a hundred years old. They have had way too much sex to be bothered about it so stop worrying about it okay?”
I let out a breath I'd been holding and I nearly started crying from how overwhelming his concern and care were.
“Thank you,” I whispered, looking into his eyes.
“For what?”
“You see me. I've never experienced that before now. In this way and at this level of intensity. I'm not this much of a crybaby I promise,” I sniffled, going to clean the tears that had managed to pour out.
“With me, you can be whatever you want,” he said, taking my hand away from my face, “I'll take whatever you can get. I'm lucky to have you so why won't I take care of you? And speaking on that, we need to get some food in you before you go back to the Academy.”
“There's no need for that, I'll get something to eat in the cafeteria.”
“Are you sure?”
“Don't worry, Erin is as obsessed with feeding as you are. I'll be fine.”
“And you'll come to the library once you're done with the classes?”
“Yes, but I'm not coming to see you, I have to catch up on missed classes and I have some personal research to do as well. So keep your dick away from me sir.”
“I will Ma'am, just don't look at me like that or touch me or smile at me or –”
“Message received,” I chuckled, pushing him away, “I'll be sure to stay away from your tempting self. Now come take me back.”
He kissed me again, nearly sending us both into another bout of lustful activities but his Mom came in and saved me from my pussy’s demands.
He took me back to school on his own Steed, and throughout the ride, I felt like I was cheating on Styx.
Ugh, I'm fucked in the head.