*Navya Pov*
“Navya!” I heard three voices calling me then I felt someone shaking me.
Why are they shaking me? I didn’t even faint at all, and my eyes are still open. Then why are they shaking me? I thought, frowning.
“Navya!” I was again called, and I can easily know whose voice it is.
My husband! It is my husband’s voice. But am I the one who is his wife? I thought and looked up at the three people who are bending in front of me.
“I am fine!” I mumbled and got up slowly with them following my suit.
I looked at three of them for a few minutes, and they are looking at me nervously. Why are they feeling nervous? I thought, shaking my head.
“You both will miss your flight.” I said, walking towards the living room.
I heard the footsteps which mean they are following me. I opened the door and turned towards the two people who are looking at me guiltily.
The look they are giving made me remember something else. I calmly said, “At least inform me when my niece or nephew is born."
They both flinched making me look at them confused. Why are they flinching when I am actually asking the request which I am still sure will not be done by them?
“We wanted to tell you this Navya, but I don’t want Suhas to know about some good news in our life.” Di said, and I can tell that it is an honest reply.
You don’t want him to know any good news right? Then what about me Di? What about your sister who is living with him? Is it ok for you?
I want to ask and say all this, but I don’t know why I don’t want to utter even a single word to them. When they realized I am not going to say anything they hugged me.
But I couldn’t return it. How can I when I know that both actually hid something, which would have helped me in not losing my heart?
Releasing me, they started walking, but I stopped them for one last time and asked, “Does our parents know about this?”
After a few seconds, they shook their heads. I nodded and said, “Don’t let them know at all. They will be hurt if they know this.”
Jiju closed his eyes and nodded slowly. As for Di, she is slowly crying. I should comfort her, right? Then why my legs are not moving towards her to do that.
I must be a very bad person! I thought and turned towards Jiju saying, “Just take care of her Jiju. She needs you.”
“Oh Navya!” Di said and hugged me again. This time I raised my hand slowly and patted her back.
I signaled Jiju towards Di. He nodded and took her from me. They both left and I closed the door completely.
I turned slowly and saw the next person who is looking at me guiltily. So that means all this is nothing but true. Until now, I felt somewhere that this is not at all true, but now, his look clears all the doubts.
Why is he giving that look? I thought, frowning.
He did what he thought from the beginning right. Then why is he acting like he is guilty? I thought and shook my head.
I calmly walked towards the stairs and started climbing them gripping the railing as hard as I can.
I even heard the footsteps behind me and then heard him saying, “Navya! Please listen...” but I didn’t let him finish it, because I don’t know if I can hear anything.
Entering our room, I directly went inside the washroom and closed the door. I closed my eyes and leaned into the washbasin.
I bit my lip and then opened my consciousness which I shut after hearing those words coming from those three mouths. When I again repeated their words in my mind the ground underneath me, shook again, but this time I held onto the basin tightly.
I opened my eyes only to see my face looking at me back. I looked even more into it and felt that I actually look like her but not completely.
Then these few features which are similar to my Di’s are the reason for him to marry me. I hit the mirror repeatedly where my face is there chanting to myself, that ‘I am not Kavya!’.
your revenge of thinking Navya as Kavya and living with her like that forever.
your revenge of thinking Navya as Kavya and living with her like that forever.
your revenge of thinking Navya as Kavya and living with her like that forever.
“No! I am not Kavya.” I shouted outside which I have been shouting inside all this time and picked up the stool from the floor.
“I am Navya!” I again shouted and threw that stool at the mirror.
When the mirror shattered I fell on my knees and cried. I cried remembering the way he held my hands for the first time and then the way he kissed me for the first time on the day we got married.
Kiss! The kiss! He said… he said ‘Kav’. After kissing me, he said 'Kav', and I am sure of it. Kav.. Kav… Kavya. He was going to say 'Kavya', and my reply stopped him.
“Oh my god! Oh my god!...” I continuously chanted and breathed fast along with gasping for air.
He said something about a slip of the tongue, and I believed it. How stupid can I be not to see it beforehand when I can?
“Navya! Please open the door. I will explain everything.” I heard him knocking on the door.
I looked at it and got shocked because I didn’t hear my name. Why am I feeling that as my sister’s name when he is saying it?
“Go away!” I shouted and pressed my knees to my chest and hugged them rocking myself.
“Navya!” he again said.
“My name is Navya not Kavya.” I shouted and sobbed.
“I know, Navya. You are my Navya.” He said, knocking on the door.
“I said my name is Navya. It is not Kavya so please stop calling me with her name.” I said begging him.
He still continued calling me by my sister’s name. I don’t think I can hear it anymore, so I stood up slowly but flinched when little glass pieces pierced into my hands as I used them as my support to get up.
I moved away from the pieces and started walking towards the shower where if I close the door, I will not hear him calling me by her’s name.
I entered and closed the door, but I still heard the banging on the door. I moved away from the shower door too and flopped myself far away into the small space.
I again pressed my knees to my chest and started remembering the time I spend with him. The time when I told him that I liked him and the time when he surprised me with the date.
Why Suhas? Why? Why did you do all those things for me and why did you lead me into giving my heart to you? Did I do anything bad for you? I don’t remember doing anything bad for you.
You held me everyday when I am sleeping. You kissed me and made love to me all these days.
Did you do all those things thinking me as my sister? I thought and immediately felt something burning inside me and outside too.
My whole skin felt like it is going to turn into ash by the repulse feeling I am getting on myself. I rubbed my hands to stop the feeling, but it is not going away.
“I am not Kavya!” I said to myself and rubbed my face.
“I am not Kavya!” I said again and continued to chant rubbing my face, hands and legs.
I chanted myself and rubbed where ever I can but why is the feeling not going away? I don’t want to feel like this. I really don’t want to feel like this.
Maybe water will remove it? Yeah! That will help me from removing this feeling.
We use water to clean the dirt on us right, so this water will also help me with this. I looked up and saw that everything is in a blur.
What happened to my eyes? I thought and rubbed them. When I looked up, it was clear for a few seconds and again got the blurry image.
I am crying! I realized and cried more. I don’t want to cry, but they are not stopping at all.
I crawled near the shower and started it. Then I felt the water falling on me slowly and then with force.
For a few minutes, I just sat there and let the water touch me and wash away the feeling of something dirt on my whole body. I slowly lay on the floor and looked far away.
The tears didn’t stop from my eyes along with the water from the shower. I wish they both stop, but I am sure they will not.
As both are started by a person and can only stop by that respective person. But I am not sure if I want that person to stop my tears and also for me to stop that shower.
“I am not Kavya. I am Navya.” I mumbled and closed my eyes, wishing to go far away from all this.
And then wishing for the better wish to make this is all nothing but a dream.
“I am not Kavya.” I mumbled again and drifted off into somewhere where I can stay away from all this.