I went to bed directly after taking the medicine. I felt Hugo lying next to me, but I quickly turned away from him. I turned to the side table and was forced to close my eyes. I immediately felt his hand on my stomach, so I woke up. I know he knows the reason I don’t speak.
To be honest, I don’t care whatever he wants to do; I think I need to get out of there— to his life. I will not stop Soleil from her plans. I just want to focus on the child I’m carrying. If one day we end up in separation and we need to end what we talked about, maybe that’s all we are. I can do nothing about it.
As he hugged me, I could feel his breath in my hair. I wanted to push him, but I didn’t. I’m weak and I don’t think it has any use. Maybe I just need to accept that I can only go on paper — I have him in the paper. It doesn’t hurt me anymore, maybe it’s because I’m gradually accepting it.
“I am sorry.” He hugged me tightly, but not in a way that would hurt my stomach. “I just saw her in the kitchen that it was hard to reach the soy sauce. She is cooking and we just talk. I didn’t notice the time.” He explains to me, but I just close my eyes so as not to hear that. Until my eyelids slowly fell off.
When I woke up, our position didn’t seem to change. He was still hugging me so I removed his hands from my stomach. I like to eat fresh coconut with ketchup. I don’t know why that first entered my mind. It’s delicious, I think it’s flavorful.
Fortunately, Hugo didn’t wake up as I removed his hands that were wrapped around my belly. The lobby and outside is the same scenario again. I guess more people now. I noticed that mommy Helena was sitting in the lobby while holding the magazine. There were also many brochures and other magazines in front of her. Maybe she was already looking for the venue where the wedding would be held.
When she saw me, she quickly called me. She waved her hands at me. I suddenly saw Estella making a different flower shape now. Amazingly, she can make different flowers using only paper. When I sat down next to mommy Helena, I looked at those on the table. I wasn’t wrong because those are venues; the others are clothes that the attendees will probably wear.
“Adele, come here and choose a nice place. It is said that in Yuhla Province there is a beach and the church is already there. Here in Revom City, the beach area is wide. There are also many rooms, so there will be no shortage of sleeping quarters for the attendees.” She shows me what she says, but no one seems to enter my mind because all I have in mind is the coconut and ketchup I want to eat.
Mommy Helena noticed I wasn’t listening and was just staring at what she was pointing at, so she stopped and smiled at me. “Don’t you like the ones I chose for you?” I seem to have disappointed her because she has been talking before, but I don’t listen to her.
I shook my head and frowned. “I want to eat a coconut with ketchup.” I guess that’s what my baby wants, so maybe I can focus. I squeezed my belly because it seemed to hurt.
She touched my thigh and then laughed. She called a male helper and instructed, “Can you find a fresh coconut? Don’t open it. At least about 20 pieces because it looks like someone will be looking for it every day from now on.”
After she spoke, she looked at me again. She took my hand and squeezed them. “Thank you, Adele. Thanks for understanding, my son. I know that’s difficult, but I hope you don’t give up. ”
I was saddened by what she said because it seemed like I couldn’t do that anymore. I just go with the flow because I don’t know if I will last much longer, especially when they find out that their supposed daughter-in-law is just here, with them preparing.
Don’t worry, Soleil. Even if you don’t do anything, just 100 days later, you can get Hugo back.
I just asked her so she wouldn’t have too many questions. It would be better if Soleil comes back. Hugo doesn’t have to go crazy every time someone leaves him because the person who caused it is already there and the only one who can cure him is that woman. I don’t know if Hugo’s heart is still wounded, but I know the crack will remain there. It is a symbol that he once fell in love deeply and truly. The pure and honest.
If I was the first one you met? Will you love me as much as you love her? In the middle of my thoughts, a woman stopped in front of me.
It’s Soleil.
She was carrying orange juice and smiling at me. I don’t know what else she wants from me. I left her last night. Hopefully, that will be a reason for her to see that I don’t have time for her. It’s only now that I realize that I don’t have to fight her anymore.
The truth is, I am the antagonist. If anyone had to back down, I had to. She was the first and knew Hugo. I won’t fight her anymore. All I want is the safety of my baby.
Maybe I was the dog of the two of us. I’m eating the words I’ve to spit out. Now I can’t blame her if she chooses to take Hugo back from me.
I also want Hugo to be mine because I want my child to grow up with a whole family. I want him/her to see how much fun it is to have a complete family, but even if I wanted to give that thing, I knew, I couldn’t.
I should no longer fight a war that I have no chance of winning.