Chapter 58

"Hey," he grabbed me by my belt loops on my jeans and pulled me back towards him unexpectedly, causing me to fall onto him while letting out a shocked giggle. "Don't try me, Summers," he threatened with his eyes, smirking down at me. "Or what?" I smirked back, reaching up with my right hand and traced along the side of his face. I was lying across his lap sideways, one of his hands on the bottom of my head and the other gripping my waist. He leaned down and planted a soft kiss on my neck as I sat up a little taller, taking in a sharp breath. I bit my lip as he continued, making me feel immobile. I broke away and made eye contact with him, temporarily getting lost in his eyes before I turned around to straddle him. Leaning back in, he let one of his hands wander down to the small of my back as the other went to the back of my neck. The kiss had started out slow, but grew in intensity as it went on. I gently bit his ear and I felt him shutter under me, making me grin. He reached up the sides of my shirt and massaged my sides, making it feel like my insides were on fire- despite the cold night. "I wish we were alone," his voice was deep as he spoke against my skin, and I bit my lip. "Me too," I breathed out, subconsciously pressing my body further into his. "I'll make up for it when we get back," he spoke again, and a tingly sensation went down my spine at it. "You better," I flirted back, and he grinned as I returned my lips to his, softly bringing his bottom lip between my teeth. I began hearing faint sounds of people kissing that weren't our own, and broke apart from him to look around us. Obviously not hearing them, he shot me a confused look. We quietly got up from the chair and peered around the corner of the cabin, to find the silhouettes of two people making out against the side of the house. It didn't take us long to realize that the silhouettes belonged to Scarlett and Eli. We shot back around the corner and looked at each other surprised, holding back our laughter. We went inside and finally let it out, not quite grasping what we just saw. "Well then, I'll be mentioning that to her tomorrow," I said, calming down my laughter. We went into my room, considering Scarlett was preoccupied at the moment and my room was therefore empty. "So we're leaving tomorrow," I said, plopping down on the bed. "Yup," he said, not sounding disappointed in the slightest. "So I take it you had a good time?" I joked sarcastically. "I did," he said sincerely. "But I don't think I can hold back from Justin much longer.. I mean seriously. The guy admits to kissing my girlfriend and then thinks he can just shoot me a smile and everything's fine?" He said, making me chuckle. "I doubt anyone's ever let him have it," he added. "He's not a bad guy, Ash," I told him and rubbed his arm. For being so mature he was acting pretty damn immature. It was kinda cute tho.. "Well according to everyone I am a bad guy, so I don't really care," he said and I let out a laugh. "I had you pegged as a hidden softy from day one, you might have been an ass but you never had me fooled," I told him, and he scoffed. "Trust me, I haven't shown you how bad I can be," he said, sitting upright with a playfully threatening glance. "Trust me, neither have I," I fired back, and he shot me a casually surprised and enticed grin. Just as I started feeling the magnetic pull between us, I hear someone at the door. I looked up to see Scarlett looking at us with a slightly embarrassed smile, Eli right behind her. Ashton kissed me on the cheek and hopped off the bed, strolling towards the door. "Atta boy," Ashton said as he walked by Eli, ruffling his hair. He pushed Ashton's hand away and chuckled. Eli awkwardly said goodnight to Scarlett and followed Ashton to their room. Scarlett shut the door and turned to face me, letting out a squeal and running over to me on the bed before plopping down next to me. "Scarlett!" I said as she giggled. "Oh my GOD he's such a good kisser!!!" She squeaked, sitting up and looking at me with an eager look- clearly about to spill everything. "He's so nice and sweet and it doesn't feel like he's just tryna get in my pants- like I get he has that history with girls or whatever but it just feels so different this time.. He's just so.. UGH!" She word vomited, making me laugh. "And Savanah with Justin!? What the hell?" She added. "She literally hasn't said anything to me about any of it." "Seems like a Savanah thing to do," I chuckled and she agreed. "She plays things wayy too chill sometimes," she chuckled lovingly and laid back down. A few moments passed before I broke the silence. "He told me he loved me," I told her. She shot up and for a second I thought she fell off the bed. "WHAT?!" She screamed. I laughed and shushed her. "Ashton, he told me he loved me," I said with a small smile, feeling the cloud charm around my neck. "And did you tell him you love him back?" She asked, urging the story forward. "Yes," I said. A strange feeling struck in me. I felt off. "Do you?" She asked, sensing my weird vibe. "Yea, I really do," I replied sincerely. "Then why does it sound like you don't?" She asked in a sincere tone. "Because, I don't know," I shrugged, "I guess I'm just afraid to love someone.." I stuttered out. I felt weird being vulnerable. "Why?" She asked. I could tell she was trying to comfort me, even though she didn't know what was wrong. "I don't know I just, like, every time I've loved someone it's gone to shit, you know? It's almost like I'm cursed or something. Everyone I've loved is just, gone," my voice faded into a whisper at the end. I felt a single tear fall down my face as I stared over at my door. I could tell she didn't quite know what to say. I've never shown this side of me to Scarlett. Or to anyone, really, besides Ashton that is. She reached over and hugged me, tight. It was exactly what I needed in that moment. I cried into her hair. "If it makes you feel any better, from what Eli's told me," she leaned away to look me in the eyes, "you've made Ashton's life worth living. No matter what your past is, you aren't a curse to him... Your a blessing."