Pleading

**Daisy**

We sit in silence for a moment.

“Do you not love us?” I look up hearing Marcello.

“It isn’t about that.”

“Yes, it is! How can you say it isn’t, if you love us that’s all that matters.” Demitri explains.

“It doesn’t, because I accepted there is no way I can live with you three and ignore how I feel about Calix. I accepted that if I don’t get all three of you, I want none of you. I’m also sure you three agreed with Rosalie it was all three of you or none.”

“What if we don’t live with Calix?” D looks at me begging, and I almost cry seeing Calix look hurt.

“He’s your brother, your family, that would be wrong.”

“You’re our family!” D shouts at me and I shake my head.

“D I never was, for me to be family it meant all three of you accepting me and you didn’t all accept me.”

“Tell her!” Marcello looks at Calix.

“No, don’t. I have had enough of him telling me shit. I know what he thinks.” I don’t want to keep going in circles.

“No you don’t know, because he fucking lied, so tell her the truth.” Marcello looks at Calix and he looks up at me.

“The morning I gave the contract, I was worried, You cried after that night, sure you said it was because you thought about the past, before us. Part of me was worried you cried because we did something you really didn’t like.”

“What…?” I stare at him

“You had only been with us separately, never in that room. Then we all joined together, in that room. You said after you were crying because of something from the past, but somewhere I felt like we pushed too hard, too much.”

“Why wouldn’t you just say!”

“Because it was a reason to make you think I didn’t want you. So I let you believe that was why.”

“I didn’t lie about why I cried Calix. Being with you three made me realise how different things were. Not once did you three go too far, not once did you hurt me. I never at any point felt scared.” I look at him, he should have told me.

“So now you know, please come back.” D looks at me and I shake my head.

“D that is one small fucking thing. He was happy to push me away and make me leave, how he felt is the same, that is just one thing that he lied about it doesn’t change how he feels.”

“Do you really think he doesn’t love you?” Marcello looks at me, and I look at Calix.

I don’t know, I shrug my shoulders and look back at Marcello. “I don’t know Marcello, but tell me something, how would you feel if I did what he did? Refused to touch you for months, said you had Stockholm syndrome, fucked someone else, gave in and then pushed you away again.”

“I’m not saying don’t be hurt and upset by what he did, but please. He pushed you away through fear again, and this time he ran, you actually left us.” Marcello looks at me waiting.

“Little birdie, how he acted is proof he loves you, he’s scared. You’re both running and pushing each other away. Please don’t leave us.” D sits looking at me waiting. I wipe my eyes and look around.

“What will it take to prove I do love you?” I turn and look at Calix. “Tell me, Daisy, I will do everything.”

“I don’t know anymore Calix, because when you do something that shows me you love me, you wipe it out and make me feel even worse.”

“Then give me time. I’m sorry, I was worried that when you realised you lost a baby you would hate us. I thought it would hurt less if I made you leave us before, but I was wrong it still hurt the same. Please come back.” He looks at me waiting.

“I don’t know what to do. Part of me wants to say yes because I missed you all, and I don’t want to lose you. Part of me though, wants to say no to protect myself from next time, as there will be a next time when you do this to me.”

I look between them and nod.

“I will agree, on one condition, and I want this written down and signed.” They all look at me now. “If you push me away Calix and I walk, you all accept I am gone. You don’t chase me down, you don’t come finding me. You leave me the hell alone.”

“No!” I turn and look at D.

“D, just agree.” Marcello looks at him.

“No, because that’s not fair! If Calix pushes her away and makes her run we just have to accept it? No. I have a deal for you little birdie. If he ever makes you feel like this again, I kill him.” D stands looking at me waiting, and I roll my eyes.

“He’s your brother.”

“And you’re my wife, that doesn’t mean I should lose you because of him.”

I laugh. “I’m not your fucking wife D, are you crazy?” He shrugs and smiles.

“To me you are. Please?” He looks at me with his puppy dog fucking eyes and I nod, barely finishing the nod before I am unable to breathe and his arms are around me. “Please don’t leave me again.” His words are whispered in my ear. “I don’t want to live without you.”

Moving, I wrap my arms and legs around him and he holds me. I feel like I’m going to regret this.

“Home, let’s sort through things and talk.” Marcello looks at us and I shake my head.

“No, we had things to finish today. We do that first.” I don’t want to go back and know Dean and Richard are there waiting.