Chapter 85: Jazzamine

I feel funny. Almost like I'm in a dream state but awake too. I feel hot and antsy while also feeling like I'm on my period. It's a weird feeling, one I’ve never experienced before. It's warm and oh man does it smell so damn good wherever I'm at. I can hear voices but it sounds like they are under water with how distorted they sound. I try to focus on what is being said but it feels like my brain is in a fog with how hard it is to focus. I sit up in my shared space and see Zelene and Maya off to the side talking quietly. As I watch them, they twitch like they are in pain or something. I frown and try to stand up only to crumple in on myself in pain.

“Fuck that hurts.” I groan out as I wrap my arms around my middle. I lift a hand to see if there is any blood or something to explain why I'm in this much pain. My groan of pain causes Maya and Zelene to rush over to me. “What happened?” I ask them as I try and breath thru the pain. They glance at each other without speaking to the point I am getting a little pissed off and a little concerned that something is very wrong. I try to stand up again and ask what’s going on when Zelene gently places her paw on my shoulder to stop me. “Jazz, I need you to stay seated for a moment," She tells me, Fuck what happened. Is it mom? I want to ask her but the look she is giving me keeps me quiet. “Z please tell me what’s wrong?” I ask her softly. This waiting is fucking torture. Zelene's face softens and she lays down next to me and rubs against me as she purrs. Damn it she knows that trick works every time. I feel the tension leek from my body slowly the longer I lean against her. “Not fair” I mumble into her chest. She chuffs at me and I smile. They wait a little bit before Maya sits down in front of me with soft affection in her eyes. I also catch a little concern too but it’s gone so quickly that I don’t know if I even saw it there.

“How are you feeling Jazz?” She asks me and I have to furrow my brow as I think of a valid answer. I feel hot achy like I have the flu but I also feel really horny to which is weird. The only answer is “I feel weird. What is happening to me Maya?” One of them has to have an answer for why my body feels like it's opening up waiting for something. She looks to Zelene who nods her head at her then looks back at me. With a long exhale she tells me, “Jazz you are going into heat.” I just stare at her dumb founded because that can’t be true. “No” I tell her as I shake my head and force myself to stand up. Zelene makes a noise as I move but I can't sit still. It hurts to move but I push thru it and pace in front of them how on earth am I going into heat. I thought that was only for omegas and maybe some betas a couple times a year, to help them get pregnant.

I’ve never heard of an Alpha going into heat so how am I. I stop my pacing to face them and ask the one question that is sitting forefront. “Why or how am I going into heat?” They side eye each other and I growl in displeasure and stalk towards them. “How?” I snarl out, with a wince I know I need to apologize but I could care less right now. They have answers and once again are leaving me in the dark. That ends right now. I turn to Zelene and say, “Z what the hell is going on?” She continues to stare at me as she’s quiet. When someone finally answers it's not Zelene that does tho, “Jazz when you mated Creed it jump started both of your heats. The Moon goddess did this so that way your mate bonds would be solidified before the council finds out you’re a direct descendant of Annalise.” I sharply turn towards her in disbelief. How in the fuck did that happen and why does she get to make that decision. Being in heat means there is a chance I could get pregnant. I am not ready for a pup. I need to stay hidden so I can find out who killed my mom and prove to my dad that I wasn’t a pawn or a wasted space.

“What” I croak out why rubbing my throat. This can’t be possible. Maya slowly stands up and approaches me “Jazz I know what you are thinking of the risk behind this but there is a fully logical reason why this is happening right now.” She tells me and I just stare off into space and nod dumbly at her. I resume my pacing tenfold and try to figure out what that reasoning is. “Why Maya?” I ask her as I rub my hand absit mindedly across my stomach. I need to figure out what is going on and the plan moving forward and come to terms that this is fast tracking mine and the guys mating and putting me at risk. I don’t know if I can put them or a possible child at risk if the people that killed mom finds us. Maybe there is a way to delay this and hide away from everyone so they are safe.

But even as I think down that route, I’m shaking my head because I’ve already mated with Creed. He and Trent will scour the world for me if I ran. Shit, I have to face this head on and accept the fact that I might be a mom at the same age as my mother.  I stop my pacing and center myself. With a deep inhale and slow long exhale, I turn back towards Maya and Zelene feeling a lot calmer and more secure in my decision. With them by my side I can handle anything that is thrown at me.