Blair's POV.
I was naive to believe that after you survived the storm in your life, everything would be wonderful. You have to fight for another battle in life at all times. Not everything ends right away; your death will bring an end to it all. That's why I now think that no matter what occurs in life, the issue will be resolved.
We just strolled around as I waited for him to say something, anything at all. Everything ran smoothly. Did anyone believe that all was well? The state of affairs is only more chaotic.
"I'm not fine," he began. "You know...things that are unusual as if it's all my fault because this is just me?" He took a deep breath before turning away from me, but we were still together. "Is it hard for me to love Blair? Am I just on a one-night stand?"
"W-what?!" I didn't mean to blurt out because I wasn't just used to it that he was like that. I knew Hiro was gay, but he didn't do that kind of thing, so my mind wouldn't accept what he confessed to me right now.
"I know. It's my fault; I shouldn't have gotten to that point, but he's hard to resist, so I'm here now, and he gave me something to cry about." He sadly admitted, "I hate him so much!"
"It's maybe part of your life, hmm?" I was trying to convince him that everything has a purpose, as I can't even apply it to myself.
"But he's hot; he knows damn well where he could get me, fvck! He picks up on my weaknesses, so I'm fvcking crazy that fast." His cheeks blushed, and a playful smirk suddenly lifted from my lips. How could he suddenly change his mood?
"I thought it was what! I've been worried for nothing." I rolled my eyes and pinched his biceps.
It came out that the sheet he had been carrying earlier was the one he had laid down on the Bermuda grass. He reclined, folded his arms behind his head, and rested his head there. I had on my spaghetti-strap shorts when I was merely sitting. As time passed, we continued to stare up at the star and draw shapes on it, but awkwardly, we grew quieter.
"I don't want us to have a conflict; you know that you are my only ally." He pointed to the star, so I didn't know if he was talking about me or what, so I just kept quiet. "I am talking to you, Cbiara Blair!" He got up and sat down to match me.
"I know. You can trust me no matter what you do," I told him, so we just laughed and talked about something that we could talk about.
"I have a fault with you," he said, twirling his tongue inside his cheeks. I can see it because I have been an observant person lately. "But I know that you need to wake up." I frowned. "They have to know about the truth, Cbiara; it's so unfair to them to be clueless."
"What are you talking about? Direct to the point." I was holding his hands. I wanted him to say to my face what he wanted to say.
"You'll know it tomorrow." There was nothing I could do because he seemed determined not to answer me. Left with no choice, I just kept quiet and followed the gaze of the round moon.
***
Early in the morning, my kids wake up so early and are too excited because tomorrow is their birthday. It's a habit because, before their birthday, I always give them my first gift. Unfortunately, this time I suddenly forgot, so I looked for an excuse.
"Mom was busy, and I'm not packing it, so I'll give it later with the second gift; is that okay?" Red gave me a disapproving look, and I caressed his hair. "I'm sorry, baby; mommy will come back."
"Okay, mom, promise?" Red eyes was excited, as if he wanted to say something, but Rayden kept on hitting him, so they fought, but I just ignored it because I thought it was a kids' fight.
I kissed their heads saying, "Yes, babies, I promise.” And then they went to their uncle Hiro, who had everything ready. Maybe I can take care of my kids if I'm not too exhausted and preoccupied. But things do happen, none of which I can even remember. I can't help but forget despite everything I do to make my kids the center of my universe. Perhaps I should be paying even more attention to them because, for some reason, I got sidetracked this time.
"I covered you from the kids. I said you ordered me." Hiro whimpered when the kids went to me and gave me a hug on my leg.
"We love you, Mom," they said, showing Hiro and me those gifts. Red and Rayden were damn glad to get them.
"We promise that when we grow up, we won't forget you and Uncle Hiro." I smiled at their words, "but...me and Red hoped that you would introduce us to Dad." His voice weakened, and the world suddenly stopped when he said that.
"We won't pressure you, mom. We know dad's had another family, but me and Rayden just want to see our dad, and after that, we don't care anymore." I swallowed hard, knowing that my kids think this way; it looked like they were both prepared to say this. I looked at Hiro, and he shook his head.
"Babies," I honestly don't know what to say. I was terrified because I didn't think that these babies would think about this.
"Mom, we're at the right age to know who our father was," Rayden stated. It wasn't a question, but he wanted to express that he wanted to see his father.
"Rayden, Red, are you two sure about it?" They both nodded as if they were determined by their goals. Is there anything I can do?
It's like I just wish they weren't geniuses, so I wouldn't even have to deal with their side like this. They wouldn't understand things like this at such a young age.
"Mom," I said, sitting up so that the three of us were equal. "We know that Mr. Raven is our father." Suddenly, my eyes widened by their confession. How?
"H-how?" I panicked. What did I do to make them notice? I was trying not to tell them because this was not the right time. How can I miss it?
"Whenever you are exhausted due to work, there is one name you always mention when you are deep in sleep. At first, we didn't mind it because we didn't understand, but when you called him one time when we were here in Itacha with a love, that's when I asked Uncle Hiro about Raven; unfortunately, he slipped." I looked at Hiro and narrowed his eyes. "Don't worry, Mom, we're not mad. We just want to meet him, and then that's the end." He held my hand, and I froze in my seat. "And Mom, I doubted when you avoided the Governor given the fact that we have the same angle and eyes. And when I ask you, you immediately change the topic and you seem anxious." I was speechless.
"Rayden." No words came out of my mouth. Damn, I'm running out of words with these two. How could they fvcking notice every little detail about it?
"Mom." Red approached me and touched my cheeks with his small hands while Rayden was holding my hands tightly, giving me an assured smile. "We understand that he had a family like Uncle Hiro told us, but... it's our right to know him, right?" I nodded. Water filled my eyelids. "We promise to be good boys to him, and you know us, so please."
"Or just a birthday gift for us, Mom." Was there anything else I could do when they made puppy eyes? Since they know where to get me.
I'm honestly afraid of what might happen and what the consequences of all this will be. I was trying my best to remove all of this, but I couldn't. What if, argh! I don't know.
Raven's Pov
My heart beats in confusion due to the fact that there are so many people on this globe. Eight billion, so why did she move away even if I was able to discover the calm I was seeking with her? She keeps avoiding me, but why? Am I not everything she desires? I knew me, she knew I could change, and she knew I could do anything for us both.
I went to the man's apartment where she was staying since I couldn't wait for her to respond. I got even more unhappy when I tried to get in touch with Hiro to get any information, but he was out of coverage. This time, my heartbeat was quicker. I would like to know what she is doing right now.
As I approached my destination, my body became agitated, and when I did, I spotted her and a guy emerging through the gate. The man's back had been rotated, so I was unable to discern his face, but I was always able to identify what Cbiara was putting on or how she was standing. Stepping out of my car, I followed them to their destination. I didn't feel odd about the man while I was with them. I'm not sure what I was sensing, but I think Cbiara was safe with that man.
It's too bad to follow them and act like a stalker, but hey? Am I a stalker? No, I was just curious as to what kind of person Cbiara's man was who replaced me. I was just thinking that they were doing what Cbiara and I were doing when suddenly my ears started burning in fire. Thinking about it. Like, how dare they?
I was clenching my fist and gritting my teeth, totally unhappy to see how the woman smiled at the man. I couldn't see the man's face because it was too dark around them. I want to blow them if I can, but well, why do I sound fvcking so desperate?
Oh no! What a nuisance! And I turned my back on them right away, not wanting to find out what the two of them would speak about. I have to let go in order to clear my head because I could kill that man right now. It pains me to watch Cbiara content because of another man.
When I got to my condominium, I undid my necktie and took a look at myself in the big mirror. She used to get my suit and untie this, but now look at everything. Everything has altered, but is this what I want? No, I want her to be at my side here with me. But how? How could I fvcking steal from that man?
By how they look at each other they look so in love, I can't take it away to Cbiara. I don't want her to think of me as a fvcking jerk for taking away the man who made him happy.
We need to have a conversation to understand everything between the two of us. I may sound desperate at times but why am I ashamed? I am always desperate when it comes to her. I recalled those days whenever I tried to catch her attention but she just rolled her eyes. It was one of the happiest things in my life, indeed. Being with her, annoying her, and ghosting her is the only solution that I need to do. I need to act like I don't care about her because my dad would be furious when I engaged with Ashton. But I hope I've been a tough man before. Things wouldn't be like this.
I sigh and shut my eyes imagining the two of us if I wasn't sheepish.
The next day, I called her a hundred times but she didn't answer any of it. Until my battery was off and I needed to charge it. I didn't even think of it until it was lunch and I saw her missed calls. When I was about to call her back, the door of my office suddenly opened.
"You're late." Even though her face was soft, she still got to me quickly. She's so good at making my heart beat so loudly that I backed away when she tried to reach my distance. I don't want her to be near me at the same I want her to be near me. I like it, I want it but I'm afraid of it.
Every day I fell for her, I admit that.
She didn't appear to sleep well, as I can see from the way she looked like she just got back from crying while trying to hide it. Her movements suggest that she is reluctant to express her feelings, and her eyes seem to be speaking. It's palpable to me.
She just gazed at me for a moment, so I asked, “Are you okay?"
"P-please," she said, biting her bottom lip. She gazed up at the ceiling, her voice trembling as she said, "Don't be mad at them; just be mad at me. Don't throw hurtful words at them, or else just pretend that everything is fine with you.”
"What is it, Cbiara? Tell me." I held her hand. I couldn't bear to see her like this. She pressed her lips. "Is there something I need to know?"
She sighed heavily. "Yeah, I don't want to, but they are the ones begging, and they're waiting for you, Raven."
"W-what, Cbiara? Tell me, I'm confused by your actions."
"Don't give them a cold treatment; even if it's just me, don't give them, please." She begged and almost knelt down, but I stopped her. "Raven, we have children." She shut her eyes, and I suddenly felt weak for the first time in my life. "I'm sorry, Raven." She whimpered, and I let her go. She completely fell on the floor while I followed, and we were both dumbfounded. “And I have bad news, R-Raven,” she swallowed.