**Calder's POV**
I watch her walking away this girl drives me nuts I’m addicted to her the way she moves; the way she talks I want to know her better I want her she is my other half, but I have a duty to my pack and right now I’m torn. I could chase her right now Vidar is urging me too I can’t my feet to move to go and get her to chase after her and tell her how much I want her.
In the next instant I’m caught up with her walking to at her pace she is trying to ignore me but I’m not going to let her I grab hold of her arm and pull her into the closest room closing the door behind me I can feel Vidar pushing me to take over.
When I look up her beautiful green eyes are staring at me.
"Calder. Did you want something? I really do have to find my sisters " She looks nervous and, but her voice is still soft and calm.
As if she just stole the air from my lungs, I cannot find any words to say, I’m just here staring at her the strongest Alpha around lost for words. I take a step towards he and she doesn’t move her heart is beating fast and I feel that addiction I have to her rising in me. I wrap my arm around her waist pulling her closer to me her eyes haven’t left mine and now they look like they are glowing staring into them I lose it I lean in and kiss her, at first, she doesn’t respond and then I feel her whole body relax into mine her hands wrap around my neck small moans escaping her lips as we collide into one another.
I slowly walk her towards the wall our lips never leaving one another her back pushed against it and I lean into her more, her hands are in my hair and gripping my back I lift her legs of the ground and she wraps them around my waist I can smell her arousal it kisses down her cheek and onto her neck sucking and kissing at the spot where she is to be marked, she lets out the sexiest moan, so I carry on until I hear her.
"Calder stop, please not like this" I feel her pushing against me, it is taking all my strength to pull away from her.
I pull myself away both our breathing heavy I take a step back knowing full well my eyes are dark I try not to look at her I don’t want to scare her I focus on my breathing and then I look up at her she has her eyes fixated on me when but just as soon as our eyes meet, she looks down and begins to smooth out her clothes.
"Selene, I’m sorry I don’t know what came over me " She quickly dismisses the remark and makes for the door.
"Its fine Calder I should go “She picks up the pace again and I make it to the door before her.
"Selene, will you stop running from me”.
She stares up at me.
"Calder I..." I’m waiting not knowing what she is going to say I remove my hand from the door and cross my arms, she takes a deep breath.
"Calder, I have to find my sisters " She puts her head down and leaves the room.
For the second time today I’m watching her walk away from me.
I always thought when I found my mate it would be this amazing thing, she would want me, I would want her there would be no rogues in this scenario, no crazy family members.
I can’t commit to this and to her I can’t protect her and protect my pack. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born into this life I spent my life closing myself off to feelings but the reality of it is all I’ve ever wanted was freedom.
**Selene's POV **
I sped out of that room, what the hell just happened and why did I like it so much, well I know why I liked it, but I gave into him so easily I thought I had more willpower than that, Clearly, I was wrong.
I pass a few people in the corridor all of whom stare at me eyes wide shut! I must have his scent on me I quickly link Arti to find out where they are, and she find me before I find her dragging me into a room.
"Well, well, you smell like you had fun last night " She has a stupid smirk on her face.
"It’s not what you think I was cornered this morning after falling asleep in the library”.
"Okay sure! Go and get in the shower we have a lot to discuss and Cynth will be here in a second "she laughs at me a little more while I shuffle to the shower.
I’m showered and clean smelling a little more like myself and waiting for Cynthia to arrive apparently my bedroom was next to hers last night, so I won’t end up sleeping in a chair again tonight. We all sit the room is cosy and super big it has a sofa and an armchair it and big wide-open windows.
Artemis has a pretty stern look on her face and I know like normal I’m not going to like what she has to say.
"So, here’s the thing, Sel is 21 now and we need to work out what gifts she has we already know you can do a weird thing with shielding so I want you to train so we can test the limits. Also, when you were running Calder said he lost you scent I suspect you can mask it Sel! I wonder if you can project that”.
Cynthia and I are just nodding along we know that we won’t be able to argue with her so it’s just easier to agree, however we do exchange the odd eye roll towards one another when she isn’t looking.
"Cynthia we also need to work out what we are going to do about you, I know you’ve made you decision this morning with regards to Sigi, but how are you going to contact the moon goddess she’s not exactly in the phone book”.
I interrupt a smile on my face "Wait you’re going to give back your gift? this is amazing”.
Cynthia nods "Yes Sel, I spoke to him this morning and explained everything, I thought he wouldn’t want me, but he does, and our connection felt so much stronger after that I owe it to myself and to Kari to try and move on the wouldn’t want me to live a lonely life”.
She is simply beaming, and her happiness radiates across Arti and myself its beautiful to witness.
Arti talks for a little longer about training she mentions how she mentions that she wants us to go on a run, her wolf has felt restless since I bonded with Seleste it’s like a yearning we agree to it in a few days. Lastly there the matters of the pack Ryan have been made temporary Alpha until we decide what to do but neither Ryan nor Arti are happy with the fact that Arlo is related to Calder.
Because of this it has been agreed that out gifts should be kept secret until we can trust him, it feels weird to not be truthful to the one I’m supposed to be with but then again, I’m not even sure what we are at this point, but it has been less than 24 hours.
Once we finish up Cynthia and Arti head to find Ryan and to the hospital to check on everyone, I however seem to have nothing to do so I head to find a training ground I need to focus on my goal and let off a little bit of steam in the process.
As I’m walking the halls my mind wonders off, lost in thought about the attack, about my new gifts, about my sisters and about Calder in less than 24 hours my whole life has been tipped upside down. Without realizing I’m playing with the ring on my finger the gift from my parents I wish they could be here. They would know exactly what to say and what to do, I feel the sadness sweeping over me, but I don’t dwell on it I may not have gotten my parents forever but I for sure will love them always.
I shake of the feeling and walk outside I see a few people sitting enjoying the sun I’m about to ask them when I hear someone calling me, I turn around and a smile erupting on my face.
"Jackson! Good morning, your looking fresher than when I saw you some hours ago”.
He strides over and pull me into a hug leaving his arm draped over my shoulder.
"Hey little one, I’ve been looking for you I didn’t know if you had plans today but I’m going to train I thought you’d want to join”.
"Funny you should say that I was just about to ask someone where to go”.
We carry on walking until we reach a huge clearing there are people everywhere sparing and fighting but also people playing games, this makes our arena look like child’s playground.
We spend the rest of the day there; I get to know some new wolves and some of the injured form my pack are healing and joining all of them ready to train a fight again.
There is so much sadness among what’s left of my pack but so much determination for those we lost to have not died in vain this unification for one cause made us all train harder and I know now that this has to be my focus, I have to protect them if I have extra gifts then I need to use them to help my family.