Chapter 58: Heartbreaks And It Hurts

Noah's POV:

We drove back to Xander's home the next morning. As we went inside, I saw no lights were on. I thought he was still sleeping.

I could hear heartbreak songs from the second floor. I went to his room on the second floor.

Just as the song ended, another song played. Another heartbreak song. What's going on here?

I saw him lying on his bed, with his eyes facing the ceiling. He didn't even blink his eyes.

"Xan?" I asked.

He didn't reply.

Did he.. ask her out?

"Xan" I said. He didn't reply again.

"Xander listen to me!" I said. No reply.

I went to him and sat beside him. I now notice the tears in his eyes.

"Xan... Lis—"

"She said we aren't friends" he spoke. "We aren't EVEN friends"

I looked at him. Not even friends? Why did she do that?

I took out my phone to call her, but he snatched my phone. "NO!" he screamed.

I got scared. What's happening with him? Why is he screaming like that?

"Xa—"

"Don't call her back" he said. "Don't.. Just don't" he said.

"Okay.." I said. "Get up" I added.

"I wanna die Noah" he said. "I-I can't bear this.. Why did I propose her? What was I thinking? This is... this is unbearable..."

"I know.. I know Xan.. Don't, don't think like that please. Everything will be fine" I said. He threw away my phone on the floor and it broke.

"Nothing will be fine!" He yelled.

"I am going to call Charlotte" I said to him.

"I beg you.. don't. I'll die if you do so. I can't bear to see her again" he said.

"Xan.."

"I don't want to talk. To anyone" he said.

"Talk to her at least. You'll sort the things out" I said.

"I'm stopping. I'm going to stop liking her. She broke me completely. If I knew it would be like this.. And she.. she will just leave like I meant nothing to her.. Then I would've never started. But now it's late, isn't it? But never too late to rectify my mistake" he said.

Oh Xan..

"Xan I understand. I'm here for you, okay?" I comforted him.

"Hm" he said. "Listen.. She went in a cab yesterday.. Take care of her"

"Okay I will" I said to him.

He nodded his head.

"How's it going with you and Astrid?"

"She's downstairs. We're good. And you have to be good too now" I said.

"How?" he asked.

"By thinking to move on and by—"

"I asked how are you good now? Did she forgive you?" he asked.

I sighed. "Yeah she did"

"Good. Now go back to California"

"Are you kicking us out?" I asked.

"Yes. Get out"

"Why?"

"I just want to be alone. Please" he said.

"Okay" I said and went downstairs.

I told everything to Astrid.

"Why did Charlotte do that? I can't believe!" She exclaimed.

"I know.. But he's broken.. completely.." I said. She looked at me and asked me if she could meet him.

"I don't know. He's angry.. He can shout on you" I said.

"It's completely fine" she said and went to his room. I sat down and took Astrid's phone that was kept on the table and called Charlotte.

Astrid's POV:

I went to the room and saw him.

"You haven't left? Just get out please Noah!" he yelled.

I took a deep breath. "It's me, Astrid" I said.

He sighed. "Astrid.. Please leave"

"Xander listen to me. I know what happened and I know how you must be feeling. You just need to think about it with an open mind" I said.

"I don't want to think about it. I think I'll go crazy if I think about it any longer. I-I just want to know why can't we be friends? Does she hate me so much?" he said.

"I'm confident she doesn't hate you at all. There must be some reason, okay?" I said.

He chuckled. "Leave Astrid I'm losing my senses" he said.

"I'm here and you have to calm—"

"I SAID LEAVE NOW!" he yelled suddenly, and I flinched.

Suddenly Noah came inside running.

"Is everything okay!?" he asked me. I nodded my head.

"Xander are you out of your mind! How can you shout at her!" he yelled at Xan.

"Noah!. It wasn't his fault.." I said.

"Yeah it's my fault. Why don't you all just kill me? It's better. Wait. You don't even need to do that. I will do it myself" he said and finally got up.

He had a knife in his left hand.

I ran to take it but he pushed me aside.

"I finally made this decision" he said and cut his hand while a screamed left his mouth.

We both ran to him again and as he was almost unconscious, we threw away the knife and took him to the hospital.

"Stay with me, Xan, please" I wished.

"He has cut his nerve. We are trying our best" the doctors said and took him to the operation room.