Chapter 35: Love Confession

Noah's POV:

I've made my mind to let her know about how I feel. It's not that I just came to know I love her. It's a feeling that is just increasing every second I'm with her. At her every word, every touch.

I'm just sure I love her.

And if I really love her.. Then my love should be strong enough to bring her back.

I have decided that I will celebrate her birthday again, because last time, the next day was hell for her. I want her to forget that birthday and remember the birthday on which she will celebrate to her fullest.

It's night time. I booked a room. It's a ball, actually. I made them do all the decorations and it was pretty ready. I just waited for the next day to come, so that I can finally have my last try.

Last try because.. If she doesn't feel anything, it's a clear sign, she doesn't want to spend time with me, she has just no effect of my feelings.

Dad. I promised you to take revenge. I've found them.. Your criminals... After a great research of some years. It’s the last try. Tomorrow, if nothing happens.. Then I'll go to meet them myself. Maybe I'll be dead.. Maybe I'll win. That's all - If I'm not able to get revenge then I'll better die.

Xander has also been not here, because he transferred. He messaged and told me yesterday. That was painful, to let your last friend go. He was ready to stop here for me, but that would only make me destroy ONE MORE life.

So, I let him go.

Now, today is the last day.. And tomorrow will decide the biggest decision I'll ever take.

Live or Die.

The next day, I went straight to her house.

"Aunt. Can I take Astrid with me to a party? It's of her & my friends, and they told me to invite her" I said.

"Oh, okay Noah. When will you both return then?"

"Just three hours later"

"Okay, then you can surely take her" she said, and I went inside.

As I knocked on the door, she opened it. She took me inside by my hand again and made me sit on the bed beside her.

"Astrid.. You have to come with me, there's something I need to tell you. Also, it's a celebration for your birthday again"

"But my birthday-"

"I know. Just come with me"

"Okay" She said.

I looked in her eyes. I came down on the floor in front of her. I started looking deep into her eyes. I thought it's a better way. To know about her emotions before really confessing. But all I saw was blank eyes. But... But slowly they changed. A little emotion came. I widen my eyes at the change of emotions in her eyes.

"Noah.." she said. I came back and looked here and there, finding something to change the topic.

"Noah!" she said yet again, making me look at her. I looked at her, and she stood up from the bed.

"Why did your eyes.. They were all hurt and in pain?" she asked.

Did she just read me?

"Astrid, what—"

"Noah. Is it related to me?" she asked, quite full of emotions for a second.

"No, Astrid, it isn't!" I said and she turned back to her emotionless self.

"Let's go" I said, and we went to my car, and then to the ballroom.

She entered the hall with me. There was no one else. I decided to celebrate her birthday all alone with her.

I've prepared to sing her favorite song. Yup. I like singing, and I've won a few awards in that. So.. I'll try my luck.

First of all, I wished her happy birthday. And then, I took the mic in my hand and the music started.

"My heart is pounding It keeps trembling Every night, sleepless days They keep increasing I dream of you by myself I look at you by myself Now it’s not that hard, because you’re here I’m loving you, if only I can be with you I think of you, it’s such a good day Baby for you, I’m dreaming in your arms right now My person is you Your face that reflects in the sunlight It’s so pretty Today, I will confess to you Before the night is over I dream of you by myself I look at you by myself Now it’s not that hard, because you’re here I’m loving you, if only I can be with you I think of you, it’s such a good day Baby for you, I’m dreaming in your arms right now My person is you Sometimes, I might let go of your hand because things are hard But I know, I know You are everything in my heart (Baby for you)"

I sang it the way it was. I went near her. She was not moving, nothing. Just froze at her position. The music was still playing, the last paragraph was left. But I didn't want to sing that. It was not the boy's part anyway.

When I saw her still not replying, I looked down.

"Sorry Astrid. There's nothing I can do now.. I'm leaving.. You with your mom" I murmured and was about to leave when she started signing.

"I’m loving you Even if I can’t tell you (You always)

The person who was always by my side (Some day)

So I can call out your name Will you wait for me?

I’m thankful that you’re here"

I stopped. I didn't know what was going on. I turned back to see her. She was smiling a little. I was... I was so... There are no words to describe my happiness. I went to her.

"Astrid... Are you.. Are you okay.?" I asked her hurriedly.

"Don't leave" she said.

"Ast—"

"Promise me you won't leave" She repeated on a low dull sound.

"I.. I. Won't! I won't, Astrid.. Tell me are you okay?" I said, but she stopped smiling and went back... To... To her emotionless self...

"Astrid!" I said but she didn't speak anything. I didn't know what just happened. Did I lose her after getting her back?