Chapter 31: Crush...

Noah's POV:

I was kind of scared and pissed off of the game god was playing with me, which I hated. Putting me in problems, when I have literally no one to get me out of it, and I have a non-working brain right now. Seriously.

She was sitting quietly, unaware of the trauma I was going through, thinking of the time when her mom will come to know about her condition, about why she became like this, and that I laid in the same bed with her, which I'm sure will make her kill me with a knife that's been used a million times because she wouldn't want to waste a new knife to kill me.

Really.

Just then I thought that she has kind of moved here. So, we have to place all the things back to her house.

We didn't bring everything, just some clothes, some make up stuff, some beauty products, and some random stuff put by me, when I wasn't aware what to keep and she wasn't aware that she should speak.

Hell!

Oh crap! I had to meet the doctor today. Anyways, let's first go to the doctor. We can move even tomorrow morning, like ghosts at 4 am because I don't know when her mom will be coming back, and I don't want to get myself buried alive when she comes to know that I took her to the hotel because then she wouldn't even want to use that million-times-used knife too.

I'm such a mess!

I took her to the hospital, and she was in the room. I went alone to the cabin to discuss about her to the doctor.

"Doctor. Yesterday she was angry at me. Is it a good sign???"

"She was angry? You made her angry?"

"Actually.. She asked something that wasn't right, so I denied, so she got angry.. Then I.. I was compelled to do it"

"Noah.. Her condition is truly complicated. Listen to me. She might have showed her emotions yesterday. Maybe because she wanted something badly. But if it wasn't right, you shouldn't have done that"

"But doctor, you told me that I should do anything and everything to make her happy"

"Noah. That anything & everything shouldn't be wrong!"

"So what should I have done then—"

"Crush her emotions"

"Crush? Crush her emotions that are already dying? Doctor... Why do I have to suppress her emotions?"

"Noah. Listen. Calm down. It isn't like you have to go against whatever she says. You just.. You just have to avoid doing anything that's wrong. Anything that might hurt her when she recovers"

"But doctor. If I don't make her happy, and don't do the things she wants me to, then"

"But when she recovers, she will understand why you did that but if you do that then she might get the wrong idea"

"Huh. Mam. Whatever the case may be. Whatever may happen, even if she starts to hate me but still I'll not crush her emotions, I will do whatever she will say"

"Noah, you need to understand!!"

"But mam"

"Listen Noah. She will not be able to express herself every time. She will never be able to understand other's emotions at all. She won't know that what she's saying or doing is affecting you. So, you need to understand that you have to do only the right things"

"Okay doctor. I'll do anything. Just.. Just tell me that she will come back soon if I do so"

"Yes she will. Don't worry"

"And.. Her mom is coming back tomorrow"

"What? You haven't told her, have you?"

"No. But I won't. I have many plans. I'll get through this while making any trouble for her at least"

"Fine Noah. Just call me if you need any help"

"Thanks doc.. There's.. There's a doubt in my mind doctor"

"Hm? What, Noah?"

"Did I.. Did I do wrong yesterday then?"

"Noah. Yesterday wasn't wrong because you had no other options. But next time, be aware"

"Oh okay doctor. Thanks"

I said and went back to Astrid.

"Astrid, let's go back to your home"

"Okay" she said and then we went back to the hotel, to take our stuff.

No. Let me correct.

To take her stuff. Of course, I'm not staying there!

We arrived at her house. I helped her place all her stuff in their correct place. After an hour or two, the work was done. But it was late now.. Very late.

"Astrid.. I'm leaving, bye"

"Noah! Stop!" she said, and it scared me.

"Hm?"

"Noah. Stay here. Just for tonight. I don't feel like living alone, please" she said.

Just then the doctor's words repeated in my mind.

"Crush her emotions to bring her back fast. Don't do the things that are wrong"

"No Astrid"

"Noah.. Please"

"I said no Astrid, please listen"

"No Noah, you have to listen to me!"

"Astrid that's enough! I'm leaving!" I yelled and stormed out, literally crushing her emotions. I didn't go back, I really couldn't. I just stayed out of her house, at her door. Making sure she is fine, making sure she is good.

I woke up at 4. I didn't want to get caught by her mom at any cost. I hurried back my home. I didn't run from the problem, leaving her alone. But I have to get ready and come back to her. She's gonna hate me tomorrow, but I'll not leave her.