Chapter 29 Abuse of power
“Maybe he accepts me but what about what I want?" I continued, as my vision blurred but I wasn't concerned about that.
Plain ate me deep.
“The only friend I thought had betrayed me. I currently don't even have anyone I could rest on.”
“Aria, you know you have the Alpha and even though everyone leaves, he never.”
I scoffed at this.
“You all will leave like you did! Like my mother did! Like Philip fucking cheated on me!” I yelled again, anger pumping more blood into my veins.
I felt a rage I've never felt before, like I was burning hot.
“You don't deserve my forgiveness, Susan because I will never forgive you,” I assured her in a shaky voice.
She was sobbing so much right now but I wasn't even moved by it. She could go to hell for all I care.
“Leave my room, now,” I said softly.
“Please Aria, I beg you. I miss you,” she continued softly, “I don't care what the punishment will be, but please, I miss you.”
I frowned. “That's the punishment, Susan. Get out of my fucking life! And don't ever come back!” I snapped, pretty sure I was using my aura on her.
Not that I mind at this point. I don't ever want to see the disappointment I used to call friends.
Tears cascaded down her cheeks as she turned around, moving by whatever Lucian said I was using.
“Stop!” A deep voice ordered, and Susan was forced to a sudden stop.
Almost immediately, Lucian showed up from behind the door. He looked up at me, his expression stopped before he moved closer to Susan. He whispered some words to her and I saw the back that had stiffened, release.
“Just leave now. You can always talk to her later,” Lucian advised.
When Susan looked at me, I knew whatever Lucain had done, had taken away the power I had forced on her.
The Alpha have the power to do that?
Susan stepped out anyway.
He hesitated by the door, leaned against it while his eyes rested on me. His gaze was sharp and maybe penetrative.
“You didn't have to do that,” he muttered.
I feigned ignorance. “Did what?”
He regarded me for another moment before he stepped inside fully, only talking a long two strides before he was quickly filling the space between us.
My heart quickened at our closeness even though we were still a step apart. I was supposed to back off but even that felt difficult.
I know it's the mark at work which is why I'm going to hate Susan even more. She put me in this mess in the first place.
“If you must know, Susan really cherishes your friendship, and she was hesitant towards helping me, but what can she do? For someone who is bonded to their Alpha, like she is to her Luna,” he hesitated briefly. “She didn't have a choice then because I didn't let her like how you didn't let her now,” he explained.
A blade in my heart twisted. Was that true? I just used my aura on her and even though she didn't want to leave, she still had to.
How much more is your Alpha? I don't think one can ever defy their Alpha. It's the power they have over them.
“But then, aren't you the same as me?” He continued.
I raised a brow with disgust. “I'm nothing like you!” I spat out.
He scoffed. “Seriously? Because I doubt it. If you can misuse your power like this, how much more if you were truly the Alpha? Even if I haven't used my aura for so long.”
Awareness hit me instantly.
“If you ask me, I will say Susan is better than you. At least she was hesitant because of your friendship but you_” He clicked his teeth in pity. “A little power and you are almost out of control. Though,” he looked away, an evil smile spreading across his face. “It pleases me.”
I couldn't believe it.
“But I didn't even know I had the power when I used it on the maids,” I defended.
He smirked. “But you knew about it when you used it on Susan.”
The fact that he was right made my heart hurt instantly. Maybe there's truly no difference between Lucian and me. We both have abused our powers.
But then I wonder if Lucian is truly at fault and if I should just hate on him, instead of putting the blame on Susan.
No, I still don't want to accept it. Susan truly threw our friendship away. It doesn't matter the circumstances, it won't change the whole thing.
“Anyways, do as you like. You are my Luna anyway,” He teased.
A deep frown graced my face. “I'm not your Luna!” I argued.
He regarded me for a moment, with a sultry look that made me struggle within myself.
“Anything you say, pumpkin, while I pin you against this wall and claim you mine,” He grinned while I gasped.
What the heck is he talking about?
He laughed almost immediately. “Not today,” he muttered and turned around to leave. “Do as you like anyway, I won't judge you, little princess,” And with that, he was out of my room.
I stood still for a while, my breath coming out very fast. I wasn't anxious this time. It was what caused the closeness between Lucian and me.
I can't believe I will be like this for the rest of my life. There should be something I could do, a way I can get rid of this unwanted mark on my body or is it truly the end?
Maybe I should calm down and ask Susan. Why should I go through the trouble when I can just use my power on her?
But that means abusing it again. I'm not Lucian, and I won't let him turn me into one.
Well, she might choose not to talk to me about it since she would be trying to protect her Alpha's interest.
Well, her Alpha already has me. I think it's time for her to prove to me that she truly values this relationship. Maybe then, I could finally forgive her.