Chapter 21

I watched my mate fall asleep to the rhythm of my heartbeat and I couldn’t help but smile. It’s almost unreal that we have completed my part of the mating ceremony and I couldn’t wait to find out what Chaos’s mating ceremony would entail. I took in a deep breath and let my mind wander on all that had just happened. Fuck! Just thinking about it had my balls filling and myself hardened again.

With a grunt, I started thinking about thinks to deflate it and just the memory of catching my parents going at it like rabbits when I was a kid had me softening and shriveling in an instant. I had been scarred at that very moment. My innocent ten-year-old mind had been tainted. That day was and forever will be the worst day of my entire life.

I let the wind dance over and around us in perfect synchrony till I was sure my mate was really deep in her slumber. I searched around the bed and found a loose pair of basketball shorts my mum had hidden there and after dislodging my mate from my arms, I swiftly pulled them on. I got off the bed and after wrapping her warmly and firmly in the duvet, I lifted her into my arms and headed straight for our bedroom….

Chaos’s P.O.V

I woke up to the pressing pressure on my bladder. I woke up in a haste to relief myself only to be stopped by an arm wrapped tightly around my waist. With extreme carefulness, I managed to free myself and replace my body with my pillow to prevent my mate from waking up and accompanying me to the washroom. The walk to the washroom was not an easy feat because my legs felt like jelly and I feel like my insides have been torn into shreds.

I was sore and not the minimal kind of sore. Though it was a good kind of sore, it still hurt. I go to the washroom and quickly do my business before going back to bed. I needed it for my part of the mating ceremony tonight when the moon was at its highest peak.

This ritual has been in my birth pack for generations and no matter your status in the pack, it will be held for anyone joining the pack or during his or her mating ceremony. It is only performed on a full moon because it is believed to be the moment when the moon is at its powerful potential. The best time for meditation, energy healing, recharging our inner wolf’s energy field and….

My mother once told me that the full moon shines down so much unaltered energy that anything it touches is imbued with incredible radiance and love. And also, to show us physical proof that fate and the goddess; As well as our ancestors are always watching over us and are present to show their approval and also bear gifts to us. The energy healing during this potent time can bring about mind blowing results. The supreme illumination the full moon provides is not only physical, but on the soul level as well.

Lightening up corners of the subconscious and giving those who access it insights into their emotions, their souls and paths.

The explaining part is a little lighter on the individual but the doing aspect is not an easy deed. I was brought out of my thought by the repetitive banging on my door. I pulled my first pillow from under my mate’s arms and threw it over my head. I allowed my noisy surroundings to lure me into sleep and pull my mate out of his peaceful slumber. I slept off peacefully knowing Kiara was very capable with handling the preparations since we both had help prepare for others so many times to last us a lifetime.

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I woke up to the sound of my door opening and closing carefully. Havoc was edgy and I could even sense the most careful movements around me. Making it known to me that the sun was down and the moon was moments away from surfacing. I pushed my pillows away from my face and turned to glance at the alarm clock beside me and I knew I was right. It was almost a quarter to seven and I knew the time was up.

Nerves woven themselves around each other so complicated that it had me breathless. I felt a set of eyes on me and gasp when I was met with the same warm eyes that I had first seen when I entered this cruel world. The piercing hazel eyes of my mother. My strength. My pride and joy. But today her eyes weren’t filled with the warmth I was used to. They were filled with unbridled pain and anger. But there was also sorrow and worry. I rushed out of the bed and threw myself in her arms.

A sob tore through my lips as the tears I have buried so long rushed out of me. I didn’t know why the sudden floodgate of my emotions have broken open. Maybe it was because it was a full moon or it was because I have been strong for far too long and my body, mind and soul needed a break. I let my walls down and wept freely in the arms of my mother.

I was so caught up in my breakdown that I didn’t realize when my mother moved me. Next thing I knew; I was lying on my bed with my head resting on my mother’s chest. I let the tears flow till there were no more left and that was when I allowed myself to breathe freely. And it felt good. It felt like I had discarded a huge weight on my shoulders and though I know my problems where far from over, I was grateful to enjoy this problem-free period in bliss. I sat up on my bed and my mother followed suit.

“Are you okay now honey?” My mother asked softly

“I am for now” I replied her honestly

“I know… be strong and have courage. Always remember that I and your brothers are there for you and your father too.”

“Thanks mum. What time did you get here? I didn’t know you were coming”

“About an hour ago and I was helping Kiara outside. I decided not to come that is why I didn’t tell you beforehand but after Kiara kept calling and asking about this herb and that herb;

I decided to stop by and help her out and also use the opportunity to check up on you and help prepare for tonight since your father and uncles are not around and I’m the only person available to help perform the final rites.”

“Oh, I see. Have you seen my mate?”

“Yes… he met me at the border when I arrived and it took everything in me to not castrate him on the spot…”

And this had me laughing. The angry but regretful look on my mother’s face just had me bursting with laughter.

My mother has always been known for her lack of restraint and I know in my heart that it will only be a matter of time before she snaps and so fortunate for my mate because he will be taking the full brunt of her anger. I spent the rest of the time catching up with my mother. Talking about anything and everything. We were still chatting each other’s ear off when Kiara rushed into the room

“You are not ready yet?” she asked with irritation when she saw me sitting unprepared on my bed

“I was about to” I lied through my teeth

“Liar! Auntie you were supposed to tell her to get ready” Kiara said to me and my mum

“Well you can’t blame me for not wanting to. I don’t want my only daughter bonded eternally to that poor excuse of a mate and man. I just wish I could convince her father and your father to do something about it. Believe me I tried but they said it was not in their hands” my mother said heatedly

“Auntie!!! You did not!” Kiara exclaimed with mock horror

“Oh, I did…” my mother said nonchalantly

“Well I’m going to take my bath now” I said before exiting the room in a hurry.

Those two are a crazy bunch but they are my family and if anything, it makes me love them more. I took off my clothes before turning on the shower. The water was cold but I didn’t mind. It was what I needed at the moment. I allowed it to rain on me for a while before grabbing the wash cloth and lathering it with soap. I turned off the shower so I could properly scrub my body and scrub I did. I then washed off the lather and just stood under the shower afterwards.

I was still sore from last night and now that I have taken my bath, it seems to be the only reminder of last night that I couldn’t erase or wash off. I know pretending it didn’t happen was useless but that is all I can do to prevent my wolf who has been extremely silent today and I from going on a killing rampage or doing something I will regret. My mother didn’t ask me because to her, it never happened and if I know Kiara, she will pretend it didn’t happen too.

A couple of minutes later, I turned off the shower and walked towards the towel rack. I grabbed the first towel I saw and quickly pat my hair and body dry with it. Wrapping it firmly around my body, I let out a shaky breath before walking out of the bathroom. I was met with the knowing glance of my mother and Kiara.

Those people are nosy and I hate that they know me so well but what can I do? I love them just the same. They are family.

I saw some pieces of clothing on the bed and walked towards the bed to see what was on it. I smiled softly when I saw a new pair of undergarments. I knew it was new because the price tag was still on it… My mother had the habit of leaving the price tag on everything she purchases for her family so she could give you a piece of her mind if and when you decide to be ungrateful or unappreciative.

She’s crazy like that. It was a pair of lacy boy shorts and a lacy push up bra… I dropped the towel not caring about my nudity. It was a normal habit when I was back at my home pack. I sat on the bed and let my mother smear my body with a rose scented cream she held in her hand whiles Kiara worked on my hair.