Chapter 117: Fear and Confession

Grave Digger listened to the latest reaction from Alfonzo’s games. He shook his head and rose up to slip down the hallway. He needed to check on Emily and Anthony. When he opened the door, he found Emily packing what little belongings had brought with her.

Looking up at him, she had tears in her eyes.

“Are you going somewhere?” he finally asked her.

“I’m sorry but I can’t stay here. Not with that monster being in the same building,” she murmured as she wiped the tears from her face. “I can’t risk Anthony’s life as he knows it.”

“You can’t exactly leave either. Romano’s dad, his brother and their men are waiting on the other side of the fence and they will catch you. And if they find out who Anthony’s dad is, they will take him from you.” He paused then asked, “Is that what you want? To lose Anthony? Because the Raggetti’s will grab him, right out of your arms and then leave you in the dirt when they storm this place.”

Emily stopped packing and stood still for a minute. Then with a heavy sigh, she sat down on the bed. Looking defeated, she glanced over at her sleeping son and shook her head. “I love this child so much. I loved him from the day I knew he was growing inside me. We’ve been through hell and high water, him and me but I never once turned my back on him. Never once have I ever thought about leaving him behind. I prayed that his father would never find out about him. His father is a dirtbag and he doesn’t deserve to know his son.” She paused as more tears slid down her face. “I named him after my dad, you know. My dad was named Vincent Anthony Serano.” Shaking her head she said, “I have to protect my son even from his father.”

Grave Digger walked over to her. Grabbing her shoulders, he dragged her to her feet. Wrapping his arms around her, he held her close. “You need to stay calm and remember that I won’t allow them to take anything more from you.” He set her back and gazed into her eyes then he leaned over and kissed her.

After a little hesitation, Emily reached up, wrapped her arms around his neck, and actually kissed him back. He grabbed her ass and hauled her closer in his arms and the kiss took on another kind of feeling as they explored each other’s mouths.

Finally, Grave Digger broke the kiss and just stared down into her face.

Emily looked up at him in shock. “What the hell was that?” she whispered.

“I have no idea but I want more…” He leaned in to kiss her again and this time, it was gentler and so much more. When he broke this kiss, his mouth dropped down to her jaw and to her neck as he spread soft kisses along her skin. “I don’t want to stop. If you do, you’re going to have to say the words. Tell me to stop.”

“I can’t, I want you,” she whispered. “But we can’t, not here and not now. But Lord help me, I want more of you.”

“Then stay,” Grave Digger whispered as he gazed into her eyes. “I want you to stay with me. I need to keep you and him safe.”

Pausing, she now looked him in the eyes. “This isn’t pity, is it?” she had to ask. “I don’t want your pity.”

“God woman…” He groaned as he ground his hardness against her body. “Does this feel like pity? Ever since I found you, I’ve wanted you. I’m a man that knows what he wants and I want you.”

“Anthony and I come as a set, you know that, right?”

Grave Digger smiled. “Yeah, I know that. I hope he doesn’t mind being a biker’s kid.”

She stared at him and asked, “And your brothers won’t mind? After all, they know who his dad is.”

Grave Digger shook his head. “If they did, it wouldn’t make a difference for me. But I don’t think they’ll care. After all, Memphis is already with Delaney.”

“I need you to know something here before we take this any further,” she told him.

Grave Digger cocked his head and looked at her. “And what would that be?”

“I’m not just doing this to get your help. I don’t want you to ever think that. You told me you wanted me from the moment you met me? Well, I wanted you too, but I’ve never wanted a man before and I just never thought you would turn out to be such a good man. When I told you and the others what happened, I saw pity in their eyes but I didn’t see any in yours. That meant something to me. When you kissed me, I knew I wanted you too. You are the kindest, most caring guy I have ever known. I want you and only you. But there is so much going on, that what I want has to take a back burner until I know Anthony is safe.”

Grave Digger sighed. “You are a strong woman, you’ve had to be, but I am a patient man. I want you too, but I can wait for us to happen. I just hope it all ends soon.”

Emily nodded. “It’s been a roller coaster ride ever since they killed my dad and I don’t know if I’m coming or going most days, but you calm the crazy, you know? I so want to get off this insane ride but I’m afraid. I can’t lose Anthony, not to his own father, that bastard is just plain crazy…” She paused and met his eyes again. “But when you kissed me, you sparked something inside me that I didn’t know was even there. I have a feeling it would be all too easy to lose myself in your arms. You take away my fears and make me feel things I’ve never felt before. But my son always comes first. This is also something you need to realize.”

“That is as it should be, woman. I will protect both you and Anthony,” he assured her. “I got your back and the brothers around here got mine. But you have to stay here, Emily. We can’t protect you and Anthony outside the walls of the compound.”

“Yes, I know and you’re right,” she said. “I just panicked. When it comes to my child, I tend to do that. I’ll stay as long as Romano is behind bars. And as long as he doesn’t find out about Anthony, I’ll stay.”

They both paused when voices were raised in the main room.

Grave Digger shook his head. “I’d better go see what this is all about. You stay here with Anthony and I’ll be back.” Leaning in, he kissed her gently. Again, they both were lost in the feeling it gave them. He broke the kiss then turned and walked out the door.

Emily sat back down on the bed and stared at the empty doorway as she raised her hand to her lips.