Chapter 28

“I can't die”, I say “You won't die,” Thorne says.

I don't know what to think at this time. The doctor said that it could be anything. It could be Cancer or not. STD or not but the chance of it not being either is looking low for me right now. We stay for 5 minutes and after some time the doctor takes out the stick and he looks at it.

“Well I have news”, He says and looks at Thorne.

“I am dying?”

“No”, I breathe out feeling relief washing over me.

“You are pregnant”, My heart stops for a moment

“What?”, Sabelo asks lowly

“She is pregnant, I am not sure how long but we can determine that through a scan”, the doctor says.

“A little bun is cooking.” " the doctor says.

I am still trying to understand what he just said. I am pregnant? how?

“Book an abortion appointment for us”, Thorne says.

“She has to sign the consent over that” " the doctor says pointing at me.

“I don't care, just book it. The quicker we end it the better”, I look at Thorne as he spits those words out of his mouth. He looked serious.

“Sure”, The doctor says deflated.

He packed up his things and then looked at me.

“Will see you at the appointment”, He walks out.

The door closes and I look at Thorne.

“Kaitlin don't cry. You have to understand It's...”, I get up and get the side lamp and throw it his way a he ducks.

“What the fuck!”, He yells.

Tears run down my face.

“You are so evil Thorne!”, How could he think of removal?

“Understand what? That you want to control my body?”, I ask.

“My work is not for kids to be part of our lives. ”

“Leave it then”, He looks at me and scoffs.

“What?”

“Leave it because I don't want my child being trafficked by your fellow associates you left hanging just to get back at you and I don't want to kill my child”, I say.

“I worked hard for everything I have now. I can't just give it up”

“Why not? it's going to bring bad luck. These are people's cries Thorne that you claim as hard work”

“And then what mmm? Tell me. Become a priest and spread the word?”

“I didn't say that”

“Kaitlin I...”, a knock surfaces from the door.

“Is everything okay Thorne?”

“Everything is okay”

“And Kaitlin?”, Thorne looks at me and I wipe my tears.

“Yes I am okay”

“Okay, we are giving you 10 minutes then we will come and check up on you”, We hear footsteps after that.

We keep quiet for some time and I make my way towards the door and Thorne holds me by the waist and pulls me back.

“Trust me, I don't want to take this route. A child is a gift, right? But I don't want my child to face the fear of the unknown thing happening in the world. Even if we turn normal how much are we sure that they won't be trafficked? Killed?”

I keep quiet.

“I don't want to do it”, my brake voice says.

He sighs.

“I will think about it”, I turn to him and look at him.

“Don't cry, I don't like that”, he says and pulls me to him.

He brushes my back as I hold onto him. I don't want to have my child's blood on my hands. I will protect my child with all that I have. I will.

“I.I Lo...It will be okay”, he says.

*

I haven't had time to talk to Thorne about yesterday's thoughts. We haven't even told his parents what the doctor said. We just ignored it for now. I don't want to talk to him which is why I slept a distance away from him last night but this morning I woke up to his arms wrapped around my body when I wanted to go and pee. I did go and came back to bed. Now I am awake and he is nowhere to be found in bed. I am trying to find his logic. Yes maybe bringing a child into this life is a bit tough but what can we do? It's done, the child is here already inside me growing every day. There is nothing we can do to change that. Nothing but Abortion won't be a choice. I get off the bed and the door opens just as I am about to go to the bathroom. I look at him and I go ahead to the bathroom without saying a word. I open the bathtub water just so I could bath quickly and he follows me before he stands by the door frame and leans against it.

“I will be leaving soon”, I look at him and then keep on with my work.

“You won't talk to me?”, he goes

“What should I say?”

“I don't know, something”

“I have nothing to say Thorne”, he sighs.

“I am sorry”, I look at him in total shock.

“What are you sorry for?”

“I shouldn't have decided without getting how you feel. You are my Wi...we are married and it's our child, not mine alone”, “You are right. It's not yours alone”

“I am sorry”, he comes closer to me and holds my waist.

“I must protect you so I will do so”, he kisses my forehead.

“Meaning?”

“We are going home today. You will see your family but after that, you are going out of the country. This pregnancy should be as secret as possible. We can't risk you and the child”

“You mean we are keeping it?”, he closes his eyes and nods.

“Yes”, I hug him.

“Thank you so much”, he sighs and holds me tighter.

“It's okay, I...I Lo...I want the best for you”, I smile.

This makes me happy.

Home! Finally, I could say that and be happy that we are home now. Thorne's mother was a bit emotional when we left but I will visit sometime if Thorne lets me or takes me back there once again. The car parks in front of the house and Thorne hops out and comes to my door. He helps me out and takes my hand into his. We get inside the house and the helpers greet us before they walk out to go and get our bags. One helper came towards us and she bowed before us.

“Mr and Mrs Nathaniel. Good day, Mr Ryan was here earlier on and he said he dropped the box in your office”, I look at Sabelo.

“Thank you Susan”, She nods and walks off.

“I will see you a bit later”, he says.

“Mmh”

“Kaitlin”

“I didn't say anything. Let me go and rest”, I let go of him and he held my arm gently.

“Just trust me”, I nod slowly.

“Just do, please do”

“Things are complicated right now.”, That is why I am having some questions about trusting him.

“Okay, I will put my dirty work aside for now and give you the attention you need.”

“Do you know what I need?”

“What do you need?”, He asks.

“I want to rest. Go and do what you need to do”, He sighs as I walk off from his grip.

I go up the stairs to the bedroom. I just want to rest before we go for a scan. I don't know how to feel about that. A part of me is scared. Very scared at that but another part of me wants to feel the need to just shut down for a moment and take a breather from my life. Thorne is trying but I feel like him trying is him not being comfortable with me. It seems much harder for him to engage with me naturally. We haven't talked based on the pregnancy. I didn't expect this so soon. I still don't know what to feel at the moment. What to take or not take in, I just feel confused.