Chapter 25 THE PAIN OF LOSING
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ADELINE
I looked at myself in the mirror after a few days of what had happened to me. My hairs were tied up in a messy braid. I was dressed in a plain white shirt and grey sweatpants.
My eyes fell on the white bandage wrapped around my wrist and my gaze got stuck. I was never suicidal but ‘ HE ‘ made me take that step. He did not care about me at all and It all showed when he did not even come to check on me.
Was I that desperate to marry a man who was committed to someone else ? My heart ached thinking he was not mine. But why was I even sad? He was never mine? Never from the beginning.
I looked at myself empty hands. No matter how much You try, if its not yours, it’s not. I looked away and a faint knock on the door took my attention.
“ Adeline “
I looked at the person and saw …… Isabella. She smiled at me and stepped inside cautiously.
“ you okay, dear? “
Her motherly tone sent a warm feeling inside my body making me smile. I nodded my head and she held my hand and smiled sweetly.
“ lets go ? “
I nodded and we both walked out of the room. The bright light lightening the hallways made me blink my eyes. It’s a been days since I stepped out in sunlight. I did not even leave my bedroom.
We both walked down the stairs and I noticed Christian quickly taking a few steps of stairs to hold my arm gently o support my weak body. I smiled faintly and looked at everyone present in the living room and they all look tensed.
“ come dear, sit “
Leonardo spoke and gave a fatherly smile which eased a bit of tension in me but did not help much.
“ Adeline. We would like to discuss something with you “
I settled down on the couch next to Christian and held his arm for comfort and support. He placed his hand on mine for support and I nodded at Francesco uncle and he smiled back.
“ Adeline “
Bianca called my name making me look at her. Why were they all acting so weird? What was that, that was bothering them so much?
“ I have decided to get you married “
My heart sank. All of a sudden, my heart that was beating so normal started racing. The thought of leaving them all and getting married to an unknown stranger scared me. My grip around Christian’s arm tightened and he tapped my knuckles to keep me calm. Well, he tried but it did not help at all.
Married? In such a young age?
“ sweetheart. We are not pressurizing you. We have no motive in that. We just want someone who can help you “
I looked at Isabella as she played with her words and tried to make me understand as to why they were doing this.
“ if you don’t want, its fine. It’s just we don’t know why you’re having such suicidal thoughts. We want that you can open up and live a happy life “
Angelina passed me a genuine smile and my thoughts began to waver. My eyes fell on ‘ him ‘ who was sitting with his gaze on floor as if stuck in some deep thoughts. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
“ and its not that early too. Look at Rose and Kiara. We want someone to take your full responsibility and it’s good to get married in such a young age and also, our family is not normal and the girls need protection. You getting married will help us in our stress “
I looked at Alessandra. Was they that much stressed because of me? Of course, they were not blood related so I was a bother to them. I looked down and suddenly Bianca walked towards me and sat down next to me.
“ its for your good. I want a son who can help us two as our family “
I looked at Bianca and she smiled and my heart clenched.
“ If she don’t want, stop pressuring her- “
Luciano’s words cut off when I finally made my decision.
“ I am ready “
Everyone looked at me wide eyed. I felt ‘ his ‘ eyes on me but I did not bother now. If he was in my fate, he would be mine but there was no point after such humiliation.
“ thank you “
Bianca leaned closer and placed a kiss on my Temple.
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I looked at aurora who looked at me in disbelief.
“ what is this? Are you giving up so soon? “
I ignored her and let her shout because she would not understand what I was going through. She grabbed my elbow and turned me around making me gasp.
“ answer me, Adeline! “
I sighed and shook my head.
“ aurora. Do you think it’s easy? Do you think I wanted to get married to someone else ? I love him. I loved him but in love,you want to be respected and loved. He fucking humiliated me. Used me and threw me ! Is that love !? “
She looked at me taken aback by my sudden outburst but there was no point of holding back.
“ you don’t know the pain I am feeling. The pain in which my heart is burning. You will never understand that “
I held back by tears as my eyes stung to let them fall.
“ Adeline- “
“ stop aurora. I’m tired. I’m tired of this pain of losing him. He was not even mine from the beginning. I wish him the best for his life with Elena but please, I don’t want to even hear his name “
“ but- “
“ its the end of my love for Luciano Morelli “