Chapter 203: Chapter Two Hundred and Three

I sniffle, sobbing harder into his chest. "But what if they decide they don't want this baby? What if they decide they don't want me anymore?" I ask through broken sobs.

"That's not going to happen. I know my sons, they love you more than anything else in the world. They would never do anything to hurt you, including leaving you. As far as the baby goes, I'm sure they will be shocked at first, but they will be excited." Curtis says, as he continues to hold me.

"H- how do you know that?" I ask, feeling unsure.

Curtis grabs my shoulders, taking a step back so he can look at me. He gives me a sweet, reassuring smile and says. "I know this because my son's never do anything without thinking it through first. So, did they use protection with you or ask if you were on any kind of birth control?" He asks.

I feel my cheeks heat up and I shake my head. "No." I whisper.

Curtis smiles. "Then they want this baby. Otherwise, they would have taken precautions with you. You make them happy Lilly, happier than I've ever seen them. This baby won't change that. They will be right there with you every step of the way and I'm here if you need anything at all."

I nod my head, sniffling. "Thank you." I whisper.

Curtis wipes away a fresh tear and pulls me back into a hug. "You don't have to thank me. It's what family is for."

Family. Something I used to dream of having and now I finally have it. A family that loves me and cares about me. Hearing him say that word makes me want to cry all over again, but I don’t. I somehow manage to hold it all in.

“Are you hungry? We can pick something up on the way home. Ryder should be home from practice around the time we get home.”

I pull out of the hug and nod my head, smiling. “Yeah, that sounds good.”

Curtis smiles, putting his hand on my back as he leads me to the car. “We can stop by the pharmacy and get you some prenatal vitamins as well.”

“Okay, thank you.”

The ride home is relatively smooth, aside from my brain going a million miles an hour, in a million different directions. What Curtis said about the guys did make me feel better, but I still can’t help but worry. I won’t stop worrying until I tell Reece, Raikin and Ryder about our baby and see what their reaction’s are.

We stop by the pharmacy and then we stop at a burger shack. “What would you like Lilly? You can get whatever you want.” Curtis says, smiling at me.

I smile. “How about ice cream? Ice cream sounds really good.”

Curtis laughs. “You can have ice cream, but only if you also get some real food.”

I sigh. “Fine. How about ice cream and a chicken sandwich with some fries?”

Curtis nods, giving me a big smile. “That sounds good to me.”

Curtis orders the food for us, getting me my chicken sandwich, and him and Ryder burgers. The burger sounds good, but the smell is not agreeing with me. I eat my ice cream on the way home, something he only let me do after I agreed to try and eat my sandwich.

I’m glad I have Curtis in my life; he’s like the dad I never had. When we get to the house Ryder is already home, waiting in the kitchen for us. “Hey baby. How was your doctor’s appointment?” He asks, coming over to give me a kiss.

I glance over at Curtis, who smiles at me. “It was good.”

“Did they figure out what’s going on with you?” He asks, pushing a strand of hair away from my face.

“Umm, yeah. Everything is fine. It’s just stress. She did some bloodwork, she said the results would be in by tomorrow. I probably won’t hear anything until Monday though.” I say, giving him a small smile. I hate lying to him, but I want to tell all three of them at the same time in person.

Ryder gives me a relieved smile. “Good. I’m glad everything is okay.”

“Me too.” I lean up and give him a kiss. “How was practice?”

“Meh, it was alright. I’m glad to be home though. I missed you and I’m starving.”

“I missed you too Ryder. We brought some dinner home.” I say, smiling over at Curtis.

We all take a seat at the table, Ryder and Curtis dig right in. Me on the other hand I stare at my chicken sandwich. I don’t want to throw up again, but I am really hungry. Taking a small bite, I chew slowly. Ryder watches me and I hesitantly take another bite of food.

I eat slowly, trying to ignore the nausea. I know I need to eat. I’m not just eating for me anymore, but it’s hard. “Are you not hungry baby?” Ryder asks, before taking another bite.

“No, not really. I ate some ice cream on the way home.” I whisper, glancing at Curtis. I know we had a deal, but it’s hard.

Ryder laughs. “You have to eat more than just ice cream.”

Curtis nods his head in agreement. “You really do need to eat. Maybe try some fries.”

I nod my head. “Okay. I will try.”

I eat a few fries and decide not to push my luck too much. After dinner me and Ryder make our way upstairs, we take a shower and lay down. Ryder snuggles up behind me, laying his hand on my stomach, with his arm around my waist. He rubs my stomach in small circles, telling me how much he loves me and I can’t help but smile.

Hopefully one day soon he will be telling me and our baby, how much he loves us while he rubs my stomach. Just the thought makes me smile. I know him, Reece and Raikin are all going to make great dads. I hope I can be a good mom to our baby. I know one thing is for sure, I will never treat my son or daughter the way my mom treated me.

When Monday rolls around I get a call from the doctor. The blood test confirmed what we already knew. I am definitely pregnant. The next month goes by in a whirlwind of nausea, puking, school, prenatal vitamins and failed attempts to see Reece and Raikin. Every time we make a plan to see each other something happens. I really need to tell them I am pregnant, but I just feel like that is news that needs to be told in person.

By time Valentine’s Day rolls around I still haven’t had a chance to tell them, but Reece and Raikin are supposed to be coming home tonight to see me. So, tonight is the night.