Chapter 198: Chapter One Hundred and Ninety-Eight

Ryder grabs my thigh under the table, rubbing it gently, as he gives me the same concerned look as Logan. I nod my head. "Yeah, I'm alright. My stomach just hasn't been feeling all that great lately." I say, looking over at Logan.

Logan gives me a sympathetic smile. "I'm sorry, Lilly. Maybe you should got to the doctor. You have been feeling sick a lot lately." He says.

I know he is referring to our conversation from when I was at his house. He thinks I'm pregnant and I know it's possible, but I really don't think I am. I am just to stressed. I need to find a way to relieve some stress.

"Yeah, I know. I will go soon if I am not feeling better in the next few days." I say, giving him a small smile.

I'm kind of terrified to find out if I am pregnant or not. If I am I don't know how Ryder, Reece and Raikin are going to react. Will they be happy? I know we talked about having kids, but talking and doing are two completely different things.

Logan nods his head. "If there is anything I can do to make you feel better just let me know."

"Thank you Logan." I say, smiling at him.

Calvin rubs my arm. "Same goes for all of us. If you need anything or if we can do anything just let us know, okay?"

"Okay." I say, smiling at him.

The rest of lunch is fine. It seems like I'm fine as long as I don't try to eat anything. So, instead of eating, I just talk to the guys. I notice Aaron staring at me from across the cafeteria a couple of different times, but I just ignore him.

The rest of my classes after lunch pass by quickly, thankfully. When we get home Curtis already has dinner done. It smells wonderful, but just like earlier at lunch, just a few bites and I'm back to being sick to my stomach. This is really starting to suck. I love food, I don't like not being able to eat.

After dinner me and Ryder shower and lay down in my bed. We talk a little as I wait for my goodnight call from Reece and Raikin.

"Do you want me to make you a doctor's appointment?" Ryder asks, pausing for a second before adding. I am really worried about you. You aren't even able to eat because of your nausea, what if it's something seriously wrong? The sooner we find out, the sooner we can get you some medicine or something to fix it."

"I'm okay. If I'm not better by Friday I will go to the doctor. I promise." I say, giving him a small smile.

Ryder gives me a kiss. "Okay baby, if you change your mind and want to go sooner just left me know."

"Thank you Ryder. You are the best fiancé anyone could ever ask for."

Ryder smiles. "I love hearing you say that."

My phone dings and I reach for it, opening it up. It's a text from Reece.

Reece: I'm so sorry baby, I won't be able to call tonight. I have a lot of reading to do. I love you so much and I miss you. I hope Ryder is taking good care of you. I'll talk to you as soon as I can.

I frown and send a quick text back. Don't get me wrong. I know he is busy and I know there will be times when they can't talk to me every night. That doesn't mean it doesn't suck though. Not seeing them is hard enough without not getting to hear their voices too.

Me: It's okay. I love you and miss you too. I hope your reading goes well. I can't wait to talk to you tomorrow. Goodnight Reece. (kissey face emoji)

His response is fast.

Reece: Goodnight babygirl. (kissey face emoji)

I wonder if Raikin is going to be able to call tonight or is he busy too. I know they have a couple of classes together. So, I wonder if that's the class he is doing reading for.

A little while later Raikin calls. Just seeing his name and picture pop up on my screen is enough to send my heart into happiness overload. Damn, it's crazy how much I miss them.

"Hey Raikin." I say, when I answer the phone.

"Hey baby. I'm glad you picked up. I was worried you might already be asleep since it's kind of late." He says, his voice full of relief.

"I wouldn't miss our calls for anything. I look forward to hearing your voice all day. I think about you all the time." I say. Which is true. I constantly think about Reece, Raikin and Ryder. It's like every thought I have is over taken by them and then that's all I can think about. Not that I'm complaining.

"I think about you too, Lilly. All the damn time. I miss you so much." Raikin says.

"I miss you too, more than you know."

Ryder cups my cheek, rubbing it gently with his thumb while I talk to Raikin. It feels so relaxing and soothing that I almost fall asleep while still on the phone, yawning into it.

"You sound like you need to get some rest baby." Raikin says. "I will let you go so you can sleep. I have some more studying to do anyway."

I yawn again, unable to stop myself and whisper. "Okay Raikin. I'm sorry I'm so tired."

"Don't be sorry, just get some rest for me baby." He says. "I love you "

"I love you too Raikin, goodnight."

"Goodnight baby." He says, right before hanging up the phone.

"Let's get some sleep baby." Ryder whispers, still rubbing my cheek.

"Okay. I love you."

Ryder smiles. "I love you too."

Ryder snuggles me close to him and we both fall asleep almost instantly. Around two thirty, I jolt up out of the bed and run down the hall to the bathroom. Not again. I am so tired of this crap. I throw up over and over again. Just like last night.

By time I'm done and cleaned up, there is almost no reason in to lay back down. I do it anyway though. I need sleep, so badly. I can't keep running off just a couple of hours a night.

The next couple of days pass by in a blur of school, puking and just exhaustion from lack of sleep. I wish this puking thing would stop, but it's not. If anything I think it's getting worse.

Thursday night after dinner me and Ryder are about to head upstairs after helping Curtis clean up. That's when Curtis stops me. "Hey, Lilly. Can I talk to you for a minute alone please?" He asks.