Chapter 46

Her voice was a mix of sultriness and nervousness as she whispered, "Yeah... seriously."

"Wow," I replied in surprise. She smiled and chuckled softly, her lips visibly trembling a bit as she leaned in toward my own. I breathed softly onto her lips, which she unconsciously inhaled before meekly pressing her lips against my own. I gently kissed her back, hearing her sigh quietly in content as I danced around her shaky lips. Our lips gently parted and melded together a few times. However, I brought an abrupt end to it when I pulled away from her.

"I can't," I whispered.

The remark surprised not only her, but myself as well. I was actually going to pass on sex.

"What...?" she uttered in disbelief. "Well... why?"

"You're a nervous wreck right now," I replied. "You're shaking so much I'm surprised you haven't fallen apart." She appeared saddened by the remark, her eyes lowering to my chest. "I just... don't think you're really ready to do this."

She sighed loudly, her hands falling away from me.

"I'm sorry," she quietly remarked before turning away and throwing her hands into the air in frustration. "Gosh, I'm such an idiot!"

I watched her sit back down on her chair and drop her head into her arm on the table in embarrassment.

"It's okay," I reassured her while staying in place.

"Just forget it," she replied, idly waving a hand to me. "Make time... go forward again or whatever and let's just get back to class."

I couldn't help feeling badly for how down she was about this. But it just didn't feel right going all the way with her with how uncertain and nervous she was. I didn't want to feel like I was taking advantage of her.

And so, I gave an understanding sigh and headed back to my own seat. The very second that I sat down, Lila suddenly sprung to life.

"Wait!" she exclaimed before slapping a hand over her own mouth. I froze up in surprise, watching her slowly look around the room. She took her hand off her mouth and looked at me. "You haven't... turned it back 'on' yet?"

"No...?" I cautiously replied. "Why?"

She then turned her gaze to the ground with an intense look in her eyes. She nodded and slowly got to her feet once again. I carefully watched Lila calmly saunter up to me, her fingertips gliding over the table. My attention was focused completely on her as she held onto my shoulder for balance and swung a leg over my lap. She took a seat, straddling me with her slender body whilst staring deeply into my eyes.

"What are you doing?" I quietly asked. Lila gently rubbed my shoulders, shifting her body a little closer to me.

"I'm sorry," she whispered before taking a quick breath of air. I rested my hands on her hips as she continued. "I didn't mean to come off as really nervous like that. It's just that... this is all really intimidating," she remarked as she looked around the room once again. She then looked at me and added, "Not to mention how cool you seem about it."

"Well, I'm used to it by now," I said with a slight smile. She smiled back.

"I'm surprised anyone can be 'used' to something like this..." she remarked in amazement.

"But why do you want to do this?" I curiously asked. "I always thought you hated me."

"No," she replied with a slight shake of her head, "I never hated you. I just... didn't want to be around you. The way you acted wasn't very... enjoyable."

I chuckled softly. "I understand—believe me."

"But it's okay," she said with an eager grin, "Eve told me about how you–" Her grin quickly faded and put a hand over her mouth again. It wasn't hard for me to figure out where she was going.

"... She told you we had sex."

She gave me a guilty smile and nodded. "Yeah...," she replied. "She told me that... that you were amazing. I just really wanted to find out for myself." I had to say, I thoroughly enjoyed the compliment. "I am a little scared, but... I was hoping you could guide me though it?"

I nodded in agreement to her. She smiled more warmly at me while her hands slowly came up to my face. She began to tenderly explore the features of my face with her fingertips. I closed my eyes and softly sighed, giving in to her gentle touch—Her hands didn't feel nearly as cold as they did before. I heard her giggle quietly as she shifted her body even closer to me.

She began to glide the entirety of her soft hands across the sensitive skin of my face.

"Anthony...," she breathed, sending a quick shiver of excitement down my spine. "You're so handsome..."

I peered an eye open for just a moment. Her head was curiously tilted to the side, studiously looking me over. I then closed my eyes and continued to soak up the sweet sensation of her touch that coursed through my entire body.

Lila was very affectionate – far more so than I could've ever imagined. She certainly liked to use her hands. Her warm scent was calming. I was completely drawn into her intimacy. Her soft, delicate hands gently caressing my face was soothing and relaxing. She had put me totally at ease while she seemed so tirelessly eager to pleasure me. There really wasn't anything quite like a woman's touch.

She then leaned her head in, gently placing a kiss on my forehead. She made a slow-moving trail of kisses down my temple, to my cheek, and then just outside my lips where she stopped briefly. She breathed onto my lips, just as I had done before. It caused me to unconsciously open my mouth in response. Then, she gently clasped her lips over mine.

We started out slow and tempered as we kissed while she continued to intimately caress my face all throughout. My hands slowly moved up her back, slipping under her shirt. I began to softly stroke her back with my fingertips and nails. She sighed happily in response. She slowly pulled away from the kiss, curiously rubbing her lips together as though trying to savor the taste of my kiss.