Chapter 57: The truth
KRIS:
After three weeks of moving out of Lucian's place, I still felt like a huge part of me was missing. The only thing I figured out was:
I want him back in my life.
I know it's crazy but I can't help it.
He hadn't called since I left nor has he texted. He might have given me a month but it felt like he was done with me already.
Maybe asking for time was a mistake...
"Kris?” A slight tap made me realize I was still with Violet.
"Hmmmm?” I stared at her.
"Did you get any part of what I was saying?” She asked, staring at me.
I nodded my head furiously to mean *yes* while I tried to remember whatever she must have said.
"What was I talking about?”
We were laying on her bed and she'd been telling me how she broke up with her boyfriend, Trey.
"Umm...you broke up with Trey b-because...errr….” I stuttered, trying to recall what she might have said when I zoned out.
"It's him again right?” She narrowed her brows at me.
"What...who?” I drawled out, pretending to not know what she was saying.
"I'll smack your head if you lie.” She stated in all seriousness.
"Fine. Yes.” I mumbled, taking my eyes off her.
"Kris... you've gotta stop thinking about him.” She grabbed my hand, squeezing softly as she shifted close to me.
"I can't help it.” I replied in a small voice.
"Okay. We're gonna settle this right now. I've left you for the past three weeks to decide what you want but now you have to make a choice. I don't like seeing you sad. What do you want?”
Her question caught me off guard.
"Be sincere.” She added.
"I want him back.” I replied in a small voice, looking everywhere but her.
"Why do you want him?”
"I feel happy when I'm with him. Since I left him, I've been feeling like a huge part of me is missing.”
"Do you love him?” She asked slowly like she was trying to pronounce each word clearly.
Now here's the big question.
"I don't know but I guess I like him.”
"Okay, you like him and you want him back. But you know he's responsible for the death of your dad right?”
"I know but there is nothing I can do about it. My dad is not here to confirm his story and he also hasn't given me a reason to doubt him. He opened up and again, I'm pregnant for him. I don't want my baby to grow up without a father just because of my selfish interests.”
"So, are you saying you only want him back because of the baby or because you genuinely have feelings for him?”
"I don't know.”
"Fine. I'll ask just one question and you're gonna be truthful with your answer. Okay?” She raised her brows and I could only nod as a sign of agreement.
"When he told you his story, how did you feel about it?”
Without having to think about it, I dived right into the answer.
"I felt sorry for him and I wanted to believe him but I felt guilty that I was betraying my dad.”
"You wanna know my conclusion from that?”
Again, I nodded a *yes*.
"You still love him but you're letting the fact that he was responsible for your dad's death cloud your judgement. But you should know that your dad is dead and gone. You might never know of his bad deeds while he was alive and you won't be able to tell if he was innocent or not. So don't let him make you lose someone you love.”
Somehow, that was all I needed to hear.
"Thanks Vee.” I hugged her tightly.
"You're always welcome kiddo.” She patted my back and I smacked her head making her laugh. "Damn! I feel like a ball of wisdom.”
I rolled my eyes at that.
"Just because you gave one good advice doesn't make you wise.”
"Sure. Whatever makes you sleep at night.” She ruffled my hair but I swatted her hand away. "Now, let's get you ready to go see your man.” She added, clapping excitedly.
Wait...what?
I furrowed my brows.
"You're going to dress well and look nice then I'll drop you off at Ross Inc..”
"I-I can't. What if he's moved on without me?” I whined.
"Don't be a silly girl. The guy I've met doesn't look like he's leaving you forever. Now move your whale-ish ass to your room let's get you ready.”
"I'm not a whale bitch. Pregnancy looks cute on me.” I retorted.
Yeah...my baby bump had started showing but it wasn’t so big.
"Keep telling yourself that.”
Forty minutes later, I was in an elevator heading to the 20th floor at Ross Inc. I kept staring at the floor hoping it would swallow me but no. I was left to my fate.
True to her words, Violet had driven me here and left with my car.
Sadly, the elevator dinged announcing my arrival at the 20th floor. In no haste, I trudged out, making my way to his office. His assistant, Katie, saw me and beamed at me. I greeted her and she replied, telling me I could go in.
Getting to the door, I inhaled and exhaled, before turning the handle. I didn't want to knock as that would make me nervous.
Opening the door, I wasn't prepared for what I saw.
A brunette was seated on his desk, legs spread out wide, with Lucian's hand wrapped around her neck. She was giggling sickly.
I wanted to run away but my feet were rooted to the ground.
The sound of the door opening must have alerted him because his gaze was directed at me and a wide smile took over his features.
"Hi baby.” He greeted me, still smiling. My heart was beating so fast.
Maybe I was right. He didn't want me anymore.
I turned to walk away but his next words stopped me.
"Don't.” He ordered. "Look at me.”
I didn't want to obey but something in his voice made me. With eyes staring into mine, he lowered his mouth to the girl's ear and whispered.
Well it wasn't actually a whisper because I heard it.
"I'd kill you but she wouldn't like that.” Was all he said.
Her body froze at the statement. Hastily, she scampered out of the desk immediately he released her. She was at the door when he spoke again.
"You're fired.”
While she was leaving, I recognized her as one of the interns I'd met while I was still working there.
Looking back at Lucian, I saw the door remote in his hand before he dropped it. I gulped.
This is it.
I stood by the door and watched him as he strode to me. Getting to me, he lifted me and I wrapped my legs around his waist with arms looping around his neck.
"Did you miss me?” He asked.
"Yes.” I replied in a small voice daring to look at his eyes.
"Good. That would be the last time I'll ever give you space.”
"I don't want to be away from you anymore.” His lips raised in a smile at my confession. He lowered his head to kiss me. Once his lips grazed mine, he moved his mouth away from mine to my ears and I whimpered.
"Why?” He asked, his voice thicker than usual.
I didn't want to answer him so I kept quiet.
He rested his head on my shoulder, nuzzling it. Slowly, one of his hands moved from my waist to the hem of the dress I was wearing and gently inched inside, grazing my skin softly.
His hand was so close to my pussy and my panties were drenched already. I was panting in anticipation of his touch.
Through my panties, he pinched my clit and I squealed. He began circling it with his thumb in a torturously slow motion.
"Why?” He asked again.
I still didn't want to answer him.
Seeing this, he rubbed his hand faster on my clit. I clamped my mouth shut to stop moans from spilling out.
"Sound proofed. No one can hear you.”
As soon as the words left his mouth, the moans I'd been fighting to hold back spilled out of my mouth. I could feel the familiar tightening of my stomach. I knew I was close and he knew it.
Without warning, he took his hand away. I felt the loss just when the orgasm was about to hit me.
"Why?” I whined.
"Answer me.”
"I...I.” I was frustrated he didn't get me off and at same time I was scared of answering him for fear of what he'll say. So I closed my eyes.
"Open your eyes and look at me.” When I did his eyes were staring into mine. "Speak.” He commanded.
"I-I I want you in my life because I love you.”
He crashed his lips to mine at the end of my confession. I kissed him back, opening up for him to grant his tongue entrance to explore but he withdrew, making me whimper.
"I've always loved you.” He said, staring into my eyes, deeply.
He attached his lips back to mine, walking towards his private bedroom with me on his hips.
I'm about to get my well-deserved orgasm!!