Chapter 20: Completely & unequivocally (explicit content

Roxanne's POV

I had finally reached his father’s house and I parked my car in the driveway. My heart was thumping and I felt nauseous. I was so nervous to face him after so long, but there was something I needed to know. Ever since the night Mina almost left, something was stirring up in me. *‘In the same room as him, in the car with him, feeling him so close to me…’* I thought to myself. My wolf and I couldn’t deny his pull on us. We had rejected each other but his soul still reached out to me. I knew I still loved him but I never thought we still had a mate bond. *‘But I can feel it. He is still MY mate!'* This was a fact that became clearer and clearer to me as I walked towards the open garage door where Ryan’s scent became stronger and more irresistible with every passing second. My wolf purred at his scent and a familiar feeling came over me as Ryan appeared from underneath the old red Plymouth car sitting in the garage. He got up and grabbed a blue rag to clean his hands. He looked at me and when a soft smile formed on his lips, I could feel my heart melt. Ryan was my mate. He was my love, he was my home.

“How’d you know I was here?” His deep voice broke the silent and sent waves of pleasure down my spine which soothed my nerves a little. Even his voice was irresistible. I tried my best to keep my composure.

“It’s Friday afternoon. You’re always here on Fridays ever since eighth grade.”

He smile got little bigger and he nodded his head while tugging on the rag. Ryan seemed just as nervous as I was being in front of each other.

“And why are you here?”

My breathing became a little fast as I contemplated how I could answer his question.

“I was curious about something…” I spoke up after a moment. My voice came out sounding unsure of my words. I had never felt so nervous before. I kept shifting my weight from one leg to the other finally deciding to cross them and hold my hands together in front of my body to steady myself.

“There’s something I’ve been feeling for the past week, I can’t quite explain it and I…I was wondering if you were feeling it too.” I finished, biting my

lower lip anxiously.

“What are you feeling, Roxy?”

I nearly came undone at the sound of my name coming from his lips. ‘*Everything*!’ I yelled internally but I couldn’t say a thing. He stood there, staring at me intently while I searched for my next words.

“I…I don’t…” I let out in a faint whisper, ashamed of my guilt and my selfishness.

“Hmm” He grunted lowly, visibly upset. “How about you come back when you do know?” He threw the rag to the side and turned around.

*‘But I know!’* I screamed at myself. My wolf was whimpering, begging me to fix my relationship with our mate. She needed him as much I as did.

“I do know, Ryan.” I spoke firmly, decided to fight for our bound for once in my life.

“What?” His body stiffened at my words but he never turned back to face me.

“I know what I’m feeling. I’ve always known.”

He turned around and crossed his arms on his chest waiting for me to tell him everything I’ve been wanting to say.

“I love you, Ryan. I have always loved you and I never stopped loving you. I thought leaving and being independent would make me happy but it never did. I spent seven years miserable and unhappy because I spent them away from you. You’re my heart.” Tears flowed from my eyes and I didn’t care about it, about anything. I didn’t care about being strong or seeming weak. I only cared about having him back.

“I missed you everyday, Ryan and if it hadn’t been for my friendship with Mina, I would have never survived the loss of our bond. But I can still feel our bond. I… I don’t know how but I do. And I’m glad I do. I want you back. I need you back. Please, Ryan. Please forgive me!”

I tried to catch my breath and stop my eyes from bawling out but there was no use. Ryan had made his way closer to me until he stood just a hand away.

“You left me.” He whispered and I broke down even worse.

“I know. I’m so sorry!” I whimpered, pleading for his love back. “I was selfish. I was mean. I know I don’t deserve you anymore but I love you. I’m yours, Ryan. Please, take me back.” I threw my body at him, locking my arms behind his neck, unashamed of myself. “I know my true shot at happiness is not out there but right here, working on a stupid old car! Please, Ryan!”

He smiled, placed his hands on my face and wiped away my tears gently.

“This car is stupid, you’re an idiot and I’m a fool.” He spoke as he picked me up and wrapped my legs around his waste.

His lips came crashing down on mine and I was sent flying. I had missed the softness of his lips and the taste of his tongue. He walked me in the house and upstairs to his old bedroom barely breaking apart our kiss. I could feel his cock stiffen under me with every step he took. He laid me down softly on his bed.

“I like this little dress by the way.” He winked at me right before he took off his shirt. I took in the sight of my half-naked mate and I could feel my arousal growing ten times fold. He was the sexiest man I knew. His perfect blond locks framed his face so heavenly I had to force myself to look away from his face only to be rewarded by his incredibly strong body. His biceps were huge and his abs, picture perfect.

“It’s all yours.” He said gathering from my hungry stare that I wanted all of him. “And you’re all mine.” He added as he pulled down my dress, revealing my naked breast to him. He threw himself on them the second my nipples greeted him, licking and sucking on them. “I’ve missed you!” He groaned as he pulled my dress lower, kissing my chest down to my stomach. I spasmed countless times as he rediscovered my body with his hands, his lips and his tongue.

“I love you, Ryan.” I moaned over and over again. “I’m so sorry. Goddess, I’ve missed you so much!”

He removed his lips form my skin and backed away from me. I let out a deep guttural growl, angry because I still needed to feel him. He looked at me laying on his bed, with my tits out, panting for him. He licked his lips and brought his right hand to my face, caressing it. He ran his thumb on lips and smirked maliciously.

“You’ve missed me, huh?” He asked me.

I moaned yes in respond and his smirk widened as he pushed his thumb between my lips.

“Show me, pretty mate. Show me just how much you’ve missed me.”

He stood up in front of the bed and I knew instantly what he wanted from me. I smiled and bit my lips at the images of what I was about to do next poured in my head. He had me so wet and ready to cum without laying any hands on me. He took a deep breath and I knew he was enjoying my arousal. Teasing him, I lifted my ass of the bed and lowered my dress until I was completely naked in front of him. He stared at me with the deepest need and I could almost hear his wolf growling at the sight of my body. I got up on my knees and crawled towards him, salivating at the bulge formed in his jeans. I licked my lips as I unbuttoned his jeans and let his massive length out free. I spent the next twenty minutes devouring his large member like it was my last meal. I licked, nibbled and sucked on him from his balls to his tip until he couldn’t hold out anymore. I had almost forgotten how sweet he tasted and I welcomed the reminder.

We stayed in his old bedroom for hours, making love to each other until his father mind-linked Ryan, asking him to meet.

“I have to go, baby.” He said slowly pushing me off of him which granted him a pout from me. “Don’t be like that. He’s been trying to contact me for hours.” He laughed as I wouldn’t let go of him.

“But I need you too.”

“And you’ll have me forever, baby. Unless, I don’t go see my old man and he kills me first.” He planted a kiss on my forehead and rolled around to sit up on the bed reaching for his jeans. Before he could try to slip on his pants, I hurried to him and straddled his lap.

“Roxy, baby please. I have to go and…”

“Mark me, Ryan!” I cut him off. “I’m not letting another minute pass without your mark on me, baby.”

His eyes widened. I had never allowed him to mark years ago and I could tell he was caught off guard.

“Are you sure? We don’t have to if you’re not ready.”

I didn’t say a word, choosing instead to show him how ready I was to commit to him. I kissed the softest spot on his neck where I always pictured my mark would be. I drew out my canines and swiftly bit into his skin, drawing blood. He flinched ever so slightly at my bite and I licked his wound to seal in my mark. I rubbed my cheek against his cheek exposing my neck, waiting for his turn. I winced at the bite both painful and orgasmic. Ryan was finally mine and I was his, completely and unequivocally.