Chapter 105

On my way back home I stop by the day care to pick up my precious pups, I was just glad to find them and have to take them home.

I did not have any cooking supplies, the appliances that were in the kitchen looked old and rusty so I did not bother with cooking instead I just bought food for me and baby food for my little ones. We were all set for the night.

The next week wasn't so bad, it was a routine of waking up, getting ready for work, readying the pups for day care and then the coffee shop. I found that I couldn't go to work on an empty stomach else I would get weak and unproductive. Being a waitress, I needed all the energy I could get.

My pups even got used to the little blueberry muffins that would dissolve in their mouth. They liked it.

After dropping them at the day care, I would head to Eddy's and start on with my day. Some days were busy some were not. Since Eddy's was a dinner it was open almost the whole day, serving breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner and midday meals.

It was the bar that opened at four, when my shift ends, and starts serving their drinking patrons.

Today was no different from no other, Moira, the other lady who worked the day shifts with me, was already here handling the occupied tables. She was an average looking woman, not that she was that old. She looked like she could be two to three years older than me.

She wasn't a student like the other waitresses we switch with but she didn't look like she had children either. We don't talk much to each other but she as nice to me.

Heading into the kitchen I grab for my apron and give greetings to the kitchen staff as they are about to start a long and hot busy day.

I still envied working in the kitchen even when all they did is complain about the heat and cuts and not getting an order in time. I still wanted to cook.

When I did get enough money to pay for a culinary course I will even if it was years later and the pups are grown and going to school.

I sigh as I began the hardest part of my day but at least I had cash flowing in. Being on my feet all day wasn't sitting well with me, if I stood for too long I would get a nasty bout of nausea sometimes dizziness. And I didn't think taking too many bathroom breaks to sit down in the toilet was going to be allowed. So I swallowed down my nausea and blinked through the dizziness.

I hadn't told anyone yet that I am expecting, I was hoping to keep it to myself before I really have to tell people which was soon.

Talking of pregnancy, I had an appointment tomorrow at Dr. Gregory's. they insisted on me having this checkup, but honestly I couldn't afford them if I was going to have to be visiting them often. I guess I had to tell them.

When my shift was over, I was excited to see my pups again. Of course this was my daily reaction to them after a long day's work but they were my peace and safe place.

Back at the apartment, I unload the groceries that I went shopping. I bought a set of three small pots, maybe now I could do my own cooking, and other food stuff. It wasn't much but it was the beginning of the independent me.

Laughing and playing with the pups, "Maybe being a single mother isn't as bad as they paint it to be" I say to them. And for the first time Rafe picks up his head as if he is interested in the subject at hand. He makes some gurgling sound in the back of his throat trying to tell me something.

I never understood those mothers that would engage in two hour long conversations with their babies that could not even talk. I mean seriously, I always thought that it was a gift gifted to every mother with their child. Now I knew that motherhood can be rough sometimes and those women are living proof.

I hear a knock at the door, immediately I am at my defense. I thought that maybe it was Aiden and he found me already. I wasn't ready for such a situation since we didn't leave each other on good terms.

I knew that someday I was going to think of Aiden without wanting to pull my heart out. But today wasn't that day, it even hurt to feel it beat when I thought of inappropriate things about Aiden. My heart wasn't the organ with a pulse when such thoughts came to mind.

Getting up from the ground where I was playing with the pups, "Coming" I answer to the door. Padding over to the door I look over the keyhole to make sure it is not some tall bulky man standing behind the door. It wasn't thank goodness.

Opening the door I gesture for Dolly to get in. she gets herself comfortable on one of the sofas occupying the room. To my surprise, as soon as she sits down Rafe is on his way to her to get himself comfortable on her lap. I guess that whole I don't care thing was a phase, he does care. I think giggling to myself.

I offer her some tea and biscuits, which she gladly accepted. But went on to tell me that she had no time to waste so she was going straight to the point.

She said she would like to help with the babies when I was out to work, she would love to and besides she was lonely staying alone in the confined room. In her exact words.