Siran rubbed his temples early in the morning. His head hurt so much that he thought it was going to explode and that did not allow him to concentrate on his work, and that he had a lot of it. What had happened in the night haunted his mind and he couldn't separate what was true from a dream. Everything had happened so fast that it was confusing.
He growled alarming the two wolves in front of him waiting for the signature of some documents, they backed away accordingly. Siran was a wolf with a complicated temper, but he always had control over himself, so seeing him in that state was quite a novelty.
-Hey, don't harass my guards Leoxi's voice boomed as he came through the door.
Siran raised his head and raised an eyebrow.
-I have no need to harass anyone he replied in a harsh tone.
-Wow, a certain wolf got up with his left paw Leoxi squealed and walked past the two wolves and motioned for them to come out, I'll handle it she muttered to them and they both took off with their tails between their paws before falling victim... to whatever it was.
The Commander turned to the beta with a grimace on his face.
-What? -Siran clicked his tongue at the twin's stare.
-What's wrong with you? It's not normal for you to be like this. You're the most... focused of all of us. Even with this situation my brother's going through.
Siran dropped his head into his hands and sighed. Leoxi was pretty straightforward when he put his mind to it and it was hard to hide anything from him.
-Today at night... something really strange happened he pursed his lips in a fixed line feeling how the other wolf sat on the edge of the table and crossed his arms over his broad chest. It wasn't easy to talk about his intimate problems, but he felt that if he didn't he would explode- I was dreaming that... I had sex with Sara.
Leoxi blinked several times with an unhinged face when she heard him say that.
-Wait, wait, I expected anything but that. You? Having sex with Sara? But you've spent the last few years treating her like a flea Leoxi didn't get it... until she looked at the beta's face. Did you... -from astonishment he started laughing out loud.
-Don't laugh Siran grunted with a slight blush, I knew I shouldn't have said anything to you. You're not serious.
Leoxi made an effort to stop laughing and straighten up.
-You're telling me you treat her like that because you're shy, aren't you? Are you ashamed?
Siran's face took on a reddish hue that the Commander had never seen before.
-I... I just don't know how to behave in front of her. Sara is the alpha's protégé, I am her beta. And she is too... Siran justified himself.
-Innocent? -Leoxi finished the sentence making the beta drop his shoulders, tiredly, Look how stupid you are. The she-wolf is crazy about you. She's been telling you that ever since she met you. I don't know why you limit yourself with her.
-You wouldn't understand.
-No, I don't understand. Are you in love with her? -Leoxi blurted out, completely serious.
Siran raised his face so fast that his cervical thundered.
-I... I... I... the words stuck in his throat.
A smile appeared on the twin wolf's lips.
-You're crazy about her he nodded.
Siran froze. It was one thing if he was thinking it, but it was quite another if someone told him and made him aware that yes, he really was in love with her. It had taken him years of sweat to admit it and a lot of persecution from the she-wolf.
He ran his hand over his head and images of the previous night came back to haunt him.
-There is still something else you haven't told me the Commander questioned him with his eyes, What is it?
Siran leaned back against the back of his seat.
-Last night I woke up suddenly when I had my orgasm. It felt so real that I couldn't help but open my eyes. And God, it had been real.
-Yyyyyy? -Leoxi was getting desperate.
-That when I opened my eyes there was a person with me in my bed. It wasn't just a dream. Someone made me have it.
Leoxi grimaced in acceptance.
-And who was it?
Siran shook his head.
-I don't know. I was confused at the time, my wild side was awake and I didn't have it under control, and I just attacked. It was a natural reaction to noticing that someone was in my room.
Leoxi opened his mouth.
-Did you attack her?
Siran nodded.
-I couldn't help it. I only reacted after my mind cleared.
-Tell me you know who she is. You must have seen or smelled her.
-I don't know Siran looked frustrated, My pupils were dilated from the transformation and my pheromones were so thick that they flooded the room and dulled all scent of the other wolf.
Leoxi pursed his lips.
-What? What do you want to tell me? -the beta pressed.
Leoxi ran her hand through her dark hair.
-Well, yesterday one of the guards saw someone come out of your room and run down the hall.
Siran rose from his seat.
-Who was it?
Leoxi stared at him.
-It was Sara.
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Siran slumped back into the chair with a thud. Of all people it was precisely Sara who had been in his room. At the worst time. And not only that. If he remembered correctly... he had attacked her. He had hurt her. She flinched, but before she could speak the door was suddenly opened.
A wolf came running in, panting and his face flooded with panic.
-Beta, Commander, bad news.
And they both knew what had happened.
***
The two wolves ran to where they knew disaster was occurring and the scene they saw was so familiar that they could only move closer. Hades was leaning against the wall outside the room where the she-wolf carrying her pup was resting. But he was not happy at all. Rather, his shoulders were shaking and his dark hair covered his leaning forward face.
-Brother Leoxi approached him and tapped him on the shoulder.
-The same thing again, Leoxi the alpha's voice broke. His face could not be seen, but his brother was sure he was crying.
It wouldn't be the first time, but it was always very painful to have the puppy I was so looking forward to die during pregnancy or in childbirth.
Nobody said anything, the few wolves that were there remained silent until the door opened. César came out crestfallen, wiping his bloodstained hands on a handkerchief.
Alpha, the she-wolf is very weak due to complications from the birth. The cub... didn't make it her tone of voice was diminishing.
Hades just swallowed dryly, without moving, however, everyone could see how his body trembled. Once again the alpha was deprived of having his offspring, even though he wanted it so badly.
-Hades Sara's voice was heard along with her footsteps running down the hallway.
He didn't have to wait to be told what was going on to find out.
-Hades her voice was very soft as she stopped in front of him and touched his arm.
But Hades snarled and moved away from everyone, so fast that they could not react, and transforming his body he went out of the window splintering it into thousands of fragments. Both Caesar and Leoxi ran to the window and watched him walk away in his suffering. It was always the same pattern, so they knew he was next.
There was only one person who could get close to him in the coming days of alpha depression. So Sara rushed to walk down the hallway to follow him when her arm was grasped by thick fingers.
A moan of pain escaped her lips and she tried to pull away. Turning around she noticed that it had been Siran who had grabbed her. The she-wolf blanched.
-Sara the beta approached her, but that made Sara recoil and run away, leaving him stunned.
The wolf had intentions of following her. A strange feeling stirred within him that told him not to let her go at that moment. But she was going to comfort the alpha so he didn't hold her back. Still, he was not comfortable. He had seen fear in her eyes for a few seconds. Fear of him.
That and the bandaged wound he had seen on her arm verified that she had been the she-wolf who had been in his room.