CAN I TAKE YOU OUT?
ZARYA'S POV
"Zarya… that's not intimacies. It's pure shits and pleasures."
"Asshole." I wiped my own tears using the back of my hand. I sniffed three times as I was fighting not to break down. I had no words to say, it was all consumed by the pain covering my chest.
"I will train you after your mission." He stepped one and then stopped. He was giving our bodies a distance. "We'll go back to the elemental Kingdom and stick to plan. My swear to protect you will always be remembered. I won't run from you."
I managed to stop myself from crying. "I will… give you my trust."
"We're dismissed, then?" His eyes were so cold.
How many times do I need to remind myself that he did not care about me?
I had nothing to do when he disappeared from my eyes. I was about to break down when Colden entered and supported me.
"You, okay?"
"Hmm." I cupped Colden's face. "How I wish it was you."
"It's not late for us." Colden caressed my cheek as he was removing the tears in my cheek and eyes. "Get up. I'll bring you somewhere."
I forced myself to stand up, went to my room, headed to the bathroom, and locked it. I opened the faucet and made sure that Colden would not hear my sob. I screamed without a voice coming from my mouth.
When you say my body is an exchange for your help, I would never see myself falling in love with the asshole. I could not accept this sensation. It was unfair.
Why you?
You never brought me to the moon to show me the universe. You never give me happiness to ease my grief and sorrow. You never act caring and loving. You are purely an asshole, but the asshole who makes me forget the darkness of my past. You are the asshole who brought me to paradise even if you did nothing… my heart was satisfied. My heart was jumping in contentment.
I will put killing you in my option for the second time.
The next day, I did not go to work. I just texted Bram that I could not come because I was not feeling well. I was on the couch when Colden entered the living. He had a wide smile on his lips, he raised two bottles of liquor.
"I think you need this." He brought that to the center table.
"You know me." I gave her a small smile. I moved up my feet and leaned my back on the sofa. "Can we date?"
He chuckled cutely. "You often ask me for a date."
"Who will I ask, then?" I learned my head to his shoulder. He grabbed the remote of the television and turned it on. "Hali? That asshole doesn't deserve a lovely woman."
"You sound better?"
I scoffed in sarcasm. "Am I not?"
I started to be so close with Colden. He was comfortable to be with. The last time, Khal went here, he was wearing his usual black jacket, cap, and sunglasses. He was just checking me if I was all right. He was so thoughtful. He told me that Alisha and Rozella chatted with him, asking about me. They missed me and I missed them, too. I hoped to see them as soon as everything would be fine.
Going back to reality, Colden was finding a channel that would suit his interest. "Do you want a romantic movie?"
I shook my head. "Corny. I want a thriller movie or a brutal one." He winced his face. He did not want that. "You should use to watch that."
"Sorry."
"For?" My two eyebrows moved up in curiosity.
"I felt like saying it."
"Stop saying sorry. You did no wrong. You're compatible in heaven for your kindness." I chuckled shortly as I bent my body down, stretch my arms, and reached for the bottle of liquor.
In the end, he ended up on the channel of music. We were headbanging as we heard the rock songs. We were singing when it was a romantic song, even if we were not good at it. We possibly were the cause of rain because of our bad vocal cords. We were both sad when the music was sorrowful. We went back to headbang when the music shifted again. We were like crazy people.
In the middle of our wasting time. I heard a knock on the door. I went towards it, my body was saying while I was laughing. I was drunk at the moment. I held the doorknob and burst the door open. My eyes widened when I saw who he was. My drunkenness automatically disappeared when our eyes landed.
"Sir Bram?"
I was about to close the door again, but he struggled his hand on it, which was why he was beaten by the door. "Oh, sorry! Sorry!"
"Zarya, what's happening?" Colden was swaying when he approached me. "Oh, he's your boss?" He laughed crazily. "
"Ahh…" I gave Bram a fake small smile. "Wait a minute." I held Coldemn on the waist, dragging him towards the room. I was not aware that he was not a good drinker. I brought him to the second room. He was laughing, hugging me like insane. I was chuckling at him. He was so cute. I slowly laid him on the bed. He gazed at my face for so long before he removed his hand from me.
"You're beautiful."
"Thanks." I had a big smile on his lips, watching him gradually consumed by his drowsiness. I covered him with a blanket.
I was about to leave when I saw the chain on the side table. He was sacrificing his own, chaining himself just to be with me? I blew a sigh of frustration. I gazed at Colden's face. What a good man.
I left him sleeping deeply. Bram was sitting on the couch, looking sound. "So… your boyfriend sleeping here?"
I bit my lips. It was a lie when I said he was my boyfriend, but it was hard to withdraw the words I had said therefore I needed to stand for it. "yeah. "
"Drunk?" He looked down ta the bottles. I hurried towards it, fixing the mess. "I thought you are sick? I brought you this?" He raised the medicine for fever.
"Sick of life?" I bit my lips in embarrassment. He should not saw me in this situation. He had no emotion when he gaze at the door where was Colden.
He placed the medicine on my table. "Next time, tell me the real reason. I won't mind."
"Yes, Sir. I'm sorry."
His eyes went to the medicine. "I'll have you tomorrow. I saw something on Serenity's thing."
"Count in me."
"I'll go, then."
I nodded slightly. "Sorry for today."
He did not respond, his cold emotion said nothing. He just walked towards the door and left me.
That is it? Did he go here for some piece of medicine?
I was startled when I realized, how did he know my apartment? This was bad. What if they come again here and see Hali, Khal, or Froy?
I was about to close the door when someone pushed the door. My mouth moved open when my eyes landed on Hali.
"Can I take you out?"