UNHIDDEN THE TRUTH II
KHAREENA'S LETTER
Dear Khal, my one and only baby boy,
This is the first time in the last few years I have not written anything in my diary. Someone gave me some paper and a leather pen, so I could write.
Your father is Zakan Wixx, the Great Beta of the Elemental Kingdom. He raped me like what I said to you, but he was forced to do it. Alpha Jackas gave him a choice, he would take me or the men of the pack will take me. He chose him himself, so I could not suffer in the hands of many men.
He saved me from battalions of men in the pack. When he had a chance, he took me away from the pack and brought me back to the Human World. My life was a living hell. I could not accept that someone had abused me, even if it was for my own goodness.
Zakan never ever abandoned us, he was looking at us from a far distance, making sure of our security. I never wanted you to meet him because, for me, he was still a rapist even if his intention was pure. I was so mad at him when he once came near you after your class when you were five years old, he offered you an ice cream, messed up your hair, and even hugged you. You didn't know, but you had a father even on the Family Day's occasion. He was always present, watching us, waiting for my forgiveness.
He loved his family so much, and I knew there was no love for me, it was just he loved you… his son. Me neither, I only loathed him, but at night, I was thinking that he was not the worst man. Plenty of times, I rejected his help. He even brought his family to the Human World to check on us regularly.
One time, I followed him and saw how was he to his children: one girl named Zarya and one boy named Zaiden. He was really an amazing man. For the last year, I started to think if I would give him a chance to meet you.
When the time my heart healed, it was too late for me to allow Zakan to meet you. Their house was burning the night I went to talk to him and his family. I knew his wife knew about you, only his children were not. I was expecting you to be happy when you meet your siblings, but that would not going to happen. Zakan Wixx died, including his family.
That was the reason why I came back to crying day and night. I felt so guilty that Zakan and not been given chance to talk to his son before he died. I also had not given the album to you since you were a child until being an adult. You may not look like him, but his good heart was on you and his kind blood was running into your veins. You never talked to Zakan Wixx, but I swear, you are significant to him. I hope you forgive him just like how I forgive him.
I was glad to know that Zarya Wixx was alive, you needed to find her and loved her just like your full-blood sister. I liked you to be a brother to her. You maybe feel that you are the worst person I had created because of how you had been produced.
However, I would say "No" to all the negative thoughts in your mind. You are the greatest thing that had happened to me. You are the moon in the dim sky. You are the hope in my hopeless life. You are the smile in my sadness. I never had the best love, except for Gerald and you. Please don't feel bad about my past, if that is not because of that, I will never touch the cloud from the time I gave birth to the most lovely baby I named Khal Gasper.
My only wish is for you to be with Zarya Wixx, be happy, be cheerful, be loving, be kind, be brave, like your parents.
You are not a mistake. You are not a bastard. You are not a product of rape or abuse. You are the son of Zakan Wixx and Khareena Gasper, the one brave product of survival and the love of our life, brightening the darkest, and turning wrong into right.
Do not cry when I give my life for you. Do not blame yourself. This is just proof that no matter where I am, you are always my baby boy, the one I truly love.
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KHAL'S POV
I wiped the tears crawling to my cheek, I wiped again and again, nothing could stop it. Even my mother's last breath. She made me feel that I was worthy to be a son, even though I had a lot to regret.
I hugged my mother so tight and cried out, although, she said do not to cry. "You may now rest from all the pain and misery in your life. I want you to know… you are the strongest lady I have known." I kissed her forehead. "Your love, lessons, and memories will always be in my heart. I will story tell you to my future children and they will love you more than you love me."
Suddenly, there was an arm circled around my shoulder. It was Zarya, crying, too. I held her arms and hugged her. "Zarya is here, Mom. I just hope you see her."
Hali in front of me was touching his chest as he silent crying. "You are the mother I had never had," Hali whispered while the pain was written in his expression.
We can't borrow time. If we still have it, do not forget to spend it wisely with your loved ones. We may think of things as negative, but never realize how positive it is to others. At times, things will be better if you look at them as beautiful, even if, it is a challenge or a struggle. Eventually, you will overcome it and deeply think that it is not a bad thing at all, it is just a way to see light in the darkness.