Chapter 19: Chapter 19

Eliana's Point of View

"Yes, I want you," I said, and Killian connected his lips to mine. The kiss was soft this time. He pulled away and aligned his cock with my entrance.

"Are you really sure, Eliana. If I start, I won't be able to stop," Killian said

"I am sure," I replied, and Killian connected his lips. He started to thrust into me. At first, it didn't feel as bad as I thought it would. My best friend Tiara told me it would hurt losing my virginity but it didn''t seem so bad. Then, Killian pushed more into me, breaking my hymen, and that caused me to gasp loudly.

"I am so sorry. I hurt you, didn't I? We should stop," Killian said, and he was about to pull out, but I wrapped my legs around his waist to stop him. My action made him go deeper inside of me, causing me to feel more pain. I closed my eyes, trying not to scream in pain, before opening them

"Don't even think about it. The damage is already done. There is no reason to stop," I replied, and Killian nodded. He started to suck on my neck,1 which sent pleasure through me. Then he went to my breast and started sucking on one and then another. I could feel myself getting wetter, and the pain was getting smaller. Soon, I wanted him to move.

"You can move now," I said, and he started to slowly move out of me before he thrust back into me just as slowly. At first, I mostly felt pain, but that pain quickly turned to pleasure. I couldn't stop moaning. The pleasure was too much. I made sure not to be too loud so that no one would hear me.

"You feel so good, Eliana," Killian whispered in my ear, and then he started to thrust deeper and faster inside of me. He was hitting a spot in me that had me seeing stars. My stomach started to tighten, and I found myself cumming on his cock.

"Fuck, you are so tight, Violet," Killian said as he kept thrusting inside of me. All that could be heard were the sounds of our bodies smacking together and our moans. Being with him felt so right. It felt like home even though I knew it shouldn't. Deep down I knew what we were doing was wrong but I didn't care at the moment. Pleasure started building up in my stomach again and I found myself meeting his thrust with my own.

"Oh, Killian," I moaned as I came for the second time

"Fuck," Killian said as I felt him fill me with his seed. That made me orgasm for the third time. Killian kissed the top of my head and then pulled me to him. I felt myself falling to sleep in his arms.

The feel of the bed moving woke me up. I looked up to see Killian standing there, dressing. I knew what he was doing. He was trying to leave without waking me. He was trying to escape. I just looked at him as he walked to the door. He suddenly stopped and turned to look at me. Our eyes connected.

"Eliana, I am sorry. This never should have happened. This was a mistake. Let's just forget this ever happened," Killian said

"I know. Just go, Killian," I said, and Killian sighed before leaving.

I felt so dirty. How could I let this happen? How could I let him take my virginity? I was such a fool, such a whore. I deserved for this to happen. This time, I was serious. I was going to stop thinking about Killian. This was going to be the last time I shed a tear for him.

School went by so slowly. I thought about skipping but knew that was a mistake. I didn't have the luxury of skipping class. I was there on scholarship, and I needed to make sure that I didn't fall behind. It was the end of school and I was so happy. I planned on hiding in my room. I didn't want to run into Killian. I also didn't want to see Ashley. I felt so bad. Ashley had been a good friend to me, and I slept with the guy she wanted. I was such a terrible friend.

"Eliana," Ashley said as she walked over to me.

"Hey," I said

"Are you okay, Eliana? You have been acting strange all day," Ashley said. Seeing how concerned she was about me made me feel even worse than I already did.

"I am fine. I am just tired," I replied

"Yeah, I still can't believe what happened last night. Thank you for having my back. I am so happy you are my best friend. I know I can trust you," Ahsley said, causing me to feel even worse. If she knew what I had done, she would not be feeling that way. "Oh, yeah, I planned to go to the Blood Moon Festival," Ashley said

"You're coming? I thought you said you didn't want to," said

"I don't, but I also don't want Nikki and Killian to see how upset I am about them being together. Besides, I might end up being some high-ranking werewolf's mate. You know there are many humans who are mated to werewolves."

"I guess that is possible," I replied

"Either way, I am not going to let that bitch Nikki and Killian get to me anymore. It is time for me to move on from him and find a man who will treat me right," Ashley said

"I agree," I replied with a smile.

Ashley and I walked out of the school. When we got outside, I felt a pain go through my chest. Killian and Nikki were sitting at a table by a tree. Nikki was on his lap, giggling as they talked to her friends. As if he sensed someone looking at him, his eyes met mine.

I quickly looked away from him. I was not going to let him get to me anymore.