Chapter 93

Killian:

“What do you mean that they never left the city? If they are here, then how is it possible that they have left no trace of them?” I asked, banging my office table. It was the one place that I have been staying in lately. 

The whole house felt tight on me, and I barely even considered entering my bedroom unless I walked out of it after changing and after Vladimir took me to it the night before when I was knocked out.

It has been weeks since I have seen or heard of Eleanor, and her pain was one that I was feeling on a near daily basis. And the worst part about it was that despite being her mate, and according to Vladimir, her being close, I couldn’t find any means of tracing or contacting her.

“We asked around everywhere, Killian, they are still here…”

“We have to find a fucking loop.” I said, snapping at the man who nodded in understanding. My one assurance was that she was still alive, but how was she alive? What was she doing? Her fear? I didn’t know what might be going through her mind right now, but I wasn’t dumb, she would be scared and in pain, and that is something that killed me inside.

“Alpha, you just got something.” Nikolai said, entering my office. His eyes avoided mine and I nodded at him, dismissing him. I still didn’t understand why he chose to want to take her to the living room when he did, but knowing that he fought his life to keep her safe and that he nearly lost his, I couldn’t blame him for what happened. The man wouldn’t have known that there was a breach in security, it was something that I kept in mind even when I wanted to snap at him.

The injuries that he got hurt his right lung, and though I didn’t even understand how the security was breached, nor did I know how he was defeated as easily. I wasn’t dumb, I knew how strong Nikolai was, but in a situation like this one, I neither had the mind to ask, nor did I have it in me to even bother about something like this. He was one of my trusted best friends and brothers, and I knew that if something like this happened, then it was beyond what he could have controlled.

He walked out of the office and I looked at the envelope for a second before opening it. My heart ached as I saw my mate wearing nothing but a bra. Her open eyes showed her fear in them, and I couldn’t help but growl before throwing the picture on the floor. Vladimir picked it up before tightening his grip around it. My heart raced and my blood boiled, and what killed me most was the fact that I knew that I couldn’t do anything about it.

“Killian, we are going to find her.” Vladimir said, and I glared at him.

“The man has her, and God fucking knows how scared she is.” I said, banging the table. Vladimir closed his eyes, taking a deep breath before nodding. “We have to find her, and soon; otherwise, it is going to be too fucking…”

“It is not going to be late. Eleanor is going to be fighting, somehow, but you need to be strong for her, Killian. If you are going to weaken, why wouldn’t she?” He asked, stopping me. I growled in warning, reminding him of the fact that he was in the presence of the Alpha and he took a deep breath before nodding. “I know that you are angry, brother, but what you are doing is neither helping you or her. Yes, it is painful. The whole house is missing her, and not just you, Killian, you know that very well. We are all trying our best to find her, but even your mother is growing worried.”

He walked toward me and put a hand on my shoulder, gently squeezing it. “I will leave you alone with your thoughts, for now. But I think that we can go and search a little deeper within. I know that we are going to manage to find her somehow.”

He walked out of the office and closed the door behind him, leaving me alone with the number of thoughts that played in my head. The idea of something like this happening to us when she was in her own house, the one place where she was meant to feel safe, was something that killed me. My heart ached, and I clenched my fist before getting up from my chair.

I walked toward the bar as her eyes meeting mine played in my head. 

Her fear when I first met her, and how strong she became. How she weakened again when she saw him. Everything just played in my head as I opened a bottle of vodka.

The man was taking pictures of her, sending them to me, and the fear that I saw in her eyes was even greater than the one that I saw when I first saw her.

I was dangerous, a demon, a cold hearted fucker, and yet, she had it in her to trust me when she knew that I could hurt her. Little did I know that day was that she was going to become everything to me. And that fucking bastard chose to take her from me.

I gulped down my first shot of vodka before pouring the second one as I tried distracting myself from the pain that I was feeling. It was one that often started at this time, and it killed me inside that I couldn’t tell her to fight. I couldn’t connect with her wolf no matter how hard I tried, and that was something that I hated.

“Please, Eleanor, fight.” I whispered as I took a second shot. The man had the courage and audacity to do something like this, and I knew that even a messenger wouldn’t know where he was. The fucker as devious, and I knew that the picture would go to too many different hands before reaching me just to ensure wasting my time. “I give you my word, malyshka, I am going to come for you.”

I threw my shot, breaking it before raising the bottle as I gulped it down, not caring for a second about the burning sensation that pricked my throat.

“All I need from you right now is for you to fight for me.” I whispered to myself, hoping that she would, somehow, hear me. “Just fight for me, malyshka…”